AUTHOR'S NOTE

There is a another word for Di*k. Addar knows that word. It is a very decent and kind of scientific.

He is not crazy.

The question for this chapter is: You wake up tomorrow and find that you are the richest person in the world. What will you do first.

My answer will be below.

The last chapter (in HER DREAMS) which I updated is the most boring chapter which I have written.

That was a experiment to find what you guys like. I found it too.

I believe this chapter would be different from that chapter

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5) I am alien among my own race

ADDAR'S POV

I fell on the open ground and shouted looking at the sky.

"I am a joker in this world Mom."

Joker...... Joker......

No one is here. I don't have to think about embarrassment.

My father always says that people go to God after death. I always believed Mom is in sky watching me.

"Are you there in the sky Mom? Enjoying your time in heaven?," I questioned.

I laughed. 

Enjoying? Yes, of course. What do you do other than enjoying when you are with God?

Then why do I have to live with these heartless people?

"Do you pay attention to me nowadays? Did you see what they did to me?"

I am not fit to socialize in this world Mom.

Embarrassment is not new to me. They are making fun of me everywhere.

"Do you know how much I loved her?"

I don't know why I am shouting at my Mom. 

"You are happy. Very happy. Do you have the time to see me from there?"

I can't take this any more. I have to speak to someone.

But who is there to talk to me? I don't have that so called best friend not even a casual friend who cares if I am bleeding.

Best friends are for normal people. Not for crazy people like me.

When did people speak to me other than for studies? I don't know.

"If you are watching me, why did you let this happen?"

No one stayed with me. Everyone left me.

I am standing in one of the countries with the highest population but I am alone.

Isn't it funny?

"What do you think of this poor pitiful creature into which  your son has transformed into?"

Yes! Creature. People don't even consider me as a human. I am a weird creature to them.

They don't value my tears. They don't have any reason to care for me.

They didn't even spare a glance at me.

They just trashed me into a drainage and kicked me in my heart.

Did any one come for me? No.

"They just cut my throat with a rusted knife. They didn't ask me to keep my senses numb to that pain even Mom."

It is hurting like hell Mom. It is paining Mom.

I cried out aloud.

When I was a child, I fell down from cycle and my knees were paining. I hugged you in bed and you said comforting words.

"Where are you now Mom?"

My whole life is gone Mom. My pleasure, happiness and my future.

I don't have anything to live for Mom.

"Come down from that sky. What are you doing there when your son needs you? I need you here."

I can't handle this alone.

"Why Mom? Did I harm anyone in my life?"

But they did to me. Why??

I am not blessed to experience love Mom. I can't live like this Mom. Catherine threw me out.

"Mom! Do you remember what she said? She said I am not a BOY mom."

But I followed you Mom. You made me this Mom.

"Mom! I am alien among my own race."

These people think I am weird. Am I weird because I didn't harm any girl?

Am I weird because I didn't break any glass and cause trouble.

Does MAN mean living organism to cause trouble and make a WOMEN pregnant?

"Even aliens get attention, Mom but I don't get that even."

All those BOYS out there did all these. They are the weird ones but they are treated normal.

"Why did the world treat me like this mom?"

I cried and fell on the ground. 

I can't take this anymore.

"I didn't even see a girl in inappropriate places, Mom but see the name I got mom."

Lots of sand went inside my Mouth but I didn't care.

Will that kill me? Please let it kill me.

No one will care even if I die.

"Mom! She is not in my life. She didn't just throw me in a garbage can. She crushed me and threw me Mom."

I just thought about her words. The more I think of it the more I shout at my mom. I gave an ear piercing scream because of which my throat got hurt.

No one comes. Even if I shout in a crowd no one will come.

Who cares if this idiot lives or dies?

"She just said my attitude is not manly but I did everything you asked me to do."

You just created my attitude mom. Your words molded me.

That is why she said I am not manly.

It then struck me and I stood up. 

"You did this. You are the reason for my present situation Mom."

Yes. She is the reason.

"You created my attitude by a single promise and here I am standing as a joker."

Every fault Catherine found in me is because of that promise.

"Why did you do this to me Mom? I said you are the most amazing Mom."

Why did she make me like this?

"Is this a payback for that compliment Mom?"

Why did you make me like this?

"If I had watched po*n videos she wouldn't have asked what I know about s*x."

"If I touched a girl she wouldn't have asked me about touching a girl."

"Why did you keep me locked from the world?"

"Why the hell did you make me a robot?" I shouted from the bottom of my neck.

"Why the hell did you make me a joker? You made me a joker"

"I believed you. Is this what you give me?"

I couldn't shout anymore but I wanted to shout. I wanted my throat to tear.

"Why Mom? Do you know what I lost because of you?"

"I lost my love Mom. I lost a precious girl Mom"

I can't stand the fact that my mom is the reason for all the bullying I got from this world.

I am standing as the accused in this world. People are judging me.

The Girl I loved just threw me out.

She was the reason why I was called all those words.

"Is this what all mothers do to their child Mom?"

"You killed my future mom."

"You are the worst Mom."

What is wrong in having s*x with a girl whom you don't love?

Why didn't I touch a girl? What is wrong in that?

May be po*n videos are necessary?

These girls don't mind those. They like boys like that.

Then what is the problem in being their MAN?

But the promise...... 

I sat down and lay on the sand thinking.

Mom might have been right. She was talking about the man of her generation.

This is a new generation so the definition for man changed.

"Mom! You should have took me with you to heaven. I am going to be a normal MAN."

I AM GOING TO BE A MAN FROM NOW

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AUTHOR'S NOTE

Did this experiment fail too?

Did you like this chapter?

Thanks for sticking with all these experiment.

TEASER : Journey of a man starts ;)

TAKE CARE BE SAFE AND STAY BLESSED

-YAGAPPAR