AUTHOR'S NOTE

I wanted to update thrice last week, but I was given loads of work in college.

This is the only update this week. I will try to update "Her Dreams" too.

This cover was made by _Simply_Adorable_ for Her Dreams. I got it before my birthday itself. I changed the cover only yesterday (My Birthday, as it was a birthday gift)

Thank you unicorn sis :p

But you are stealing lot of my works ;) Tubelight:p

Dedication part:

This chapter is dedicated to _legallycrazy_. She is a great supporter. I tell my ideas to her a lot. Thank you sis. She has been encouraging me a lot.

Thank you sis.

I am always doubtful about this book. Pls say if I want to improve somewhere.

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3) I am there to accept the consequence of your mistake

Addar's POV

I came back to my room after eating breakfast. Sridhar was with one of his friends. I am sure that Sridhar doesn't know his name too. They were, as usual, talking about girls. They don't stop this at all.

Just like a pregnant lady, I feel nauseous every time I am with those guys. I couldn't take it more so, I went outside and sat on the bench. Everyone was talking with their girlfriend. I wanted to talk with Catherine too but I didn't want to disturb her. She had exams too.

I have to call my Dad now. I always talk to him after I get up, before going to eat, after eating and before going to college. It was a routine for me. If you think it is too much, I am sorry. He is my Dad. I don't get bored at all. He didn't marry after my mom died. He has devoted his life for me. He also said that he can't see any other girl like he saw my mother. I got inspired by that and I wanted to feel like him.

Actually, I felt like him. I couldn't see any other girl other than Catherine. Suddenly an idea striked me, Why can't I go and see her before the exam? I started to college. I didn't take my notes because I won't need them. I have already finished studying. There is nothing left to study. I was walking to my exam hall when I saw it. A boy in his bike was driving in a zig zag fashion on the road. I didn't know why he did that. Suddenly, he saw a girl nearby while doing his trick. She was smiling at him. She was pointing at him and smiling too. I think she is his Girlfriend. She was showing his tricks with pride to her friends. Boys! They take risks equal to Jackie Chan if a girl asks them to. I don't understand it. What does these stunts have to do with love?

I reached the exam hall. I know what I will get. I was surrounded by a group of students who wants me to teach them. It always happens. People who would have never acknowledged me will come now. I cleared their doubts. Where is Catherine? I went inside the exam hall. She still didn't arrive. I don't know what has happened to her. I need to speak to her.

Please come Catherine. I need to say something. I need to show my heart to you.

I can't keep these inside me anymore. It will not stay much longer.

This heart is like an atom. It is small but its energy is unlimited. It cannot be hidden or kept as a secret.

I won't get another chance to say it No! I will even follow her to next galaxy to confess my love!

I am worried now. Is she not feeling well? Is she sick? Is she hurt? Tears were forming in my eyes. I don't know why, but I cry more. A storm came inside the room, An Angel came inside the room in a white dress. Even the dress colour showed that she is an angel.

Every college... No... Every place has a dream girl. Why won't they have? This society doesn't let a beautiful girl go unnoticed. This girl is not an exception. Every boy in this room was staring her too. Their head moved with her.

She came straight to me and sat in the seat before me. I am the seeing the skin which is uncovered on her dress. I was seeing her neck which was uncovered as she was wearing a traditional dress. Her hair seemed soft too. I didn't want to take my eyes off of her skin. It was not possible for any other girl but for her, it's possible.

She is Catherine.

It has been four years since that near kiss but still the feeling is intact. There was a smile in my face before I heard a voice behind my back.

"Aren't you ashamed of yourself?"

Oh God. This is the invigilator. I am gone.

"This is what happens when you come without studying"

The smile returned. I thought I was gone.

"I- I studied si- I know the answers sir"

"Then write them"

I hate it when I have to take my eyes off this Angel. I finished answering 98% of questions. Then I suddenly saw movement in front of me. Catherine stood up and gave her paper.

2% marks or Catherine? Definitely Catherine!

I will be the first even if I strike another 5% of my answers then what is the problem? I gave my paper and followed her. I went to her and touched her shoulder with the tip of my index finger. I know that I love her but still I didn't have the courage to touch her normally. Because normally I don't touch girls at all. I always use words to call them. I kept touching her shoulder but she didn't respond.

I think she is not feeling my light touch. But I didn't have the courage to increase the pressure. Suddenly she moved her hair back which touched my hand and made her feel my presence. My hands were stretched so I was standing away from her but my finger was trying to touch her.

"Any problem?"

"No"

"Why is your hand like this?"

"I tried to call you"

"You could have called me"

"I didn't want to disturb you". The sound doesn't come from my throat when you are near me.

" Did you touch me?"

"No! No!" I was surely panicked now.

"I ju-" I didn't let her speak.

"I tried to keep the pressure minimum"

"Exactly! Why didn't you touch me properly?"

"We-" I didn't get the courage to do it.

I wanted to say it but I didn't. She knew it too so she left it.

"How did you write your exam?" I was walking beside her.

"I wrote well"

"Who am I asking this? You are the topper"

I didn't know what we were talking. I didn't care too. I am talking with Catherine and that is enough for me. I didn't know what she was saying or what I was replying. The only thing which I remember is her skin touching mine. Her skin seems very soft like a rose bud. I was watching every detail of her smile. The way her eyes twinkles when she smiles.

I am a person who was nearly banned from love. I was kept at a great distance from it. The more I was kept apart from it, the more I wanted to get close to it. I was dying for love. I still remember the day. I lost the warmth of my mom. I was devastated that day. What do you expect me to feel when my mom died?

I needed love. Love movies are the only form of love available for me. People have a smile when the guy speaks with love to her but I have a smile for every insignificant thing. A boy is sitting on a bench and the girl is coming from a distance. She sees him and cracks a smile. That is enough. I am gone. The smile tries to get out of my face as it is not enough to accommodate it.

I am someone who is desperately in need of love. People break up easily for silly reason. They don't know the value of love. I know the value. It is worth more than ego, vulnerability, s*x etc. It is worth even more than life. Catherine is more than love for me. She is my ticket to happiness.

Happiness is something which I didn't get in my mother's absence. I am one of those guys who say I don't want love. Love is horrible! Love is an unwanted feel in my life but the truth is different. Those guys are the one who are more desperate for love. They want to be loved. They are praying to God everyday that they should meet their loved ones. They need someone who stand by them. They should understand that ego and selfishness are all useless things.

I am one of these guys. I lost my Mom. I lost my happiness with her. I had my Dad but my stupid mind goes to what I don't have. My mind ignores the Audi I have and goes to the Ferrari in the Formula one races. It always goes after things which is impossible to get.

I was speaking with Catherine. The conversation never ended. I don't have to think, words come out automatically except those three words.

I love you.

We reached the canteen where the road splits. One leads to boy's hostel and the other leads to Girl's hostel.

"Bye. I need to pack. When are you leaving?"

"I leave today"

"Don't you stay and party as this is your last day"

"I don't" Who invites me?

"Okay bye"

"Catherine"

"Can I talk with you for five minutes?"

"I am in a hurry"

"Please"

"I have-"

"Please Catherine!"

"Okay. Say"

"Can we go to canteen? We cou-"

"I don't have time for that. Say it here itself"

"Please"

"I am in a hu-"

"Please"

"I am in a -"

"Please please"

"I am i-"

"Please please please"

"I a-"

"Please please please please"

"I-"

"Please please please please please. I beg you"

"Okay! Lets go! And make it fast"

"Thanks a lot Catherine. I can't believe it"

"I just said I will come to college canteen"

"It is a special moment for me"

We reached the canteen. It was as usual crowded. There might be 500 people here. I don't understand why people stay in canteen for hours. They eat only for 15-20 minutes. My arms again brushed her arm. I can feel her skin which is like a rose bud.

"What do you want to drink?"

"I can't. I don't have time"

"Ohh! Please pl-"

"Okay okay don't beg. Nearly 200 people are staring at us"

"I don't care"

Why won't they? The most boring boy is with the hottest girl in college. I came back with milkshakes. I gave her a milkshake. I realized that milkshake in my hand has more so I gave it to her. Now she has the milkshake with more quantity but it spilled when I handed it to her as it was full. It made her shoes dirty. I just bent down and wiped out the milkshake on her shoe using the back of my palm. I don't have any problem touching Catherine's foot. She is my love. I don't have any ego.

"No! It's my mistake"

"I am there to accept the consequence of your mistake"

"Why?"

"I...I lo-....I love you"

"What!!"

She thought for a moment. I sat on a table. She sat opposite to me.

"What do you say Catherine?"

"I don't love you"

"Why?"

"You are not my type"

"We both are humans"

"Oh God! But I like a different human"

"Different. How much different?"

"More"

"Can you think for few days?"

"No need. Addar, I don't love you"

"But why?"

"This question doesn't have a meaning"

"I am the topper of the university. I have presented a lot of research papers"

"If I am taking these into consideration then the best match for a girl is a super computer"

"I have not said this to anyone. My Dad is in 8th position in India's richest person. I am his only son so money is not at all a matter"

She was shocked for a minute and then she said "What do you think of me? I have money too. I am a daughter of a big businessman too"

"I don't smoke or drink. I don't have any bad habits"

"Oh God! Can you stop it?"

She was clearly angry. "I am not a troublesome guy"

"I am saying that I don't like you, why don't you leave me?"

"Because I love you" I am nearly in verge of tears.

"At least explain why you don't like me?"

"What answer do you expect?"

"Answer by which I can change you and marry you"

"Why don't you leave me?"

Crowd was forming around us but I don't care. Catherine is rejecting me here. What can I do if not this? They say God can't come to Earth so he sent Mom but he took her away from me. I thought he at least gave Catherine.

"Catherine! Please give me a reason. I will fulfill it. I beg y-"

"Stop begging like a homeless man"

She said that and stood up from her bench. I caught her wrist. She saw me with shocked eyes. I touched a girl's wrist. She is the 11th girl whose wrist I touched all throughout my life. Don't think I enjoyed it or something. I felt awkward touching a girl's skin. It was all done out of compulsion. They extend their hand to shake. I shake them as I don't want to be rude.

"Do you know that your wrist is the 11th Girls wrist I touched?"

"What!"

"You are special. I don't touch girls"

"I know that"

I removed my hand from her wrist, she didn't ask me to remove though.

"Then why don't you love me?"

She watched the crowd which is watching us. Now the audience count is approximately 600. Everyone in canteen are watching us.

"Do you want the reason?"

"Yes. Pls say"

She punched the table and said "Okay! Here you go. I didn't like you because..."

She paused for few seconds.

"What do you want more Catherine?"

"I want you to act like a Man"

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AUTHOR'S NOTE

Thanks guys!

I am a story teller not a writer. This book needs a writer. I am trying to be a writer.

I know that this is not sufficient. I will try to rewrite it.

Please stay with me. I will try to improve this book.

Thank you for staying with me.

Teaser: Argument in the canteen. What do you think she is going to say?

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-Yagappar