AUTHOR'S NOTE:

Hai guys, How are you?

This is for aaradhana_adithya

This chapter has some depressing scenes. This is the most depressing scene I wrote.

But you have to imagine more. I didn't want to say everything in detail. That imagination has to change the way you view this story.

I was asked to join a contest from IBM. I was not interested but my classmate (A desi bad boy who loves to break every rule. He gets on fight and all. He is is a known rule breaker.) wanted to join so I helped him.

During the lecture he was seeing all girl and she was seeing him back. Then we we went to the lab to register. There he opened his mail. He got a mail from an unknown mail (which I later found came because he used a website to video chat with unknown girls) which hinted s*x. It said that her boyfriend cheated and she wants to do something meaningful.

He was so excited that he forgot the contest and wanted sexting with her. The biggest issue came later when we reached class.

There he was talking with other boys about a girl. I asked him, "Do you love her?" He said he wants to marry her. He said he will ask his parents to talk.

But he will do all this only if the girl is good, should respect other, should not talk much, should be good to his parents and respect him. By good he means she shouldn't have any contact with other boys.

He used to break every rules (wants a girl who doesn't) and pick up fight (wants a girl who respects). He always raises voice (even to teachers) and ten minutes before this he was trying to sexting with random girl (wants a girl who doesn't talk to boys).

This is India.

But sorry more than all I laughed loud when he said this.

Bare with my mistakes.

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29)You have to say that he has traits of a girl

CATHERINE'S P.O.V:

Ravichandran is back and that's what I was thinking. I don't know why all these happens to me.

Biggest question is, 'What does he want now?'

He has already destroyed me, there is nothing left in me to destroy. I am no less than a half decomposed corpse.

My mind went to that day when Addar proposed to me. That day he called me early morning. I went to meet him.

*Flashback*

I reached the play ground and it was empty as usual. This was the place where my initial attraction towards Ravichandran was building and now it is the place where my soul is tortured by Ravichandran.

The guy whom I thought will make my soul delighted is now torturing it. I never understood how I believed him initially.

The sweet and caring guy who I knew was all a lie. Now I am seeing the real Ravichandran everyday.

He takes pleasure not in my body or the suffering of my body but in the pain of my soul. The shout from my bodily mouth doesn't reach his ear but he hears my soul crying.

My physical wounds are treated everyday so that he can hurt me again. But he is doing more than that.

I can bear the pain which comes from my body but I can't bear the pain in my brother's eyes when he sees me like this.

I can't do anything here. I could think to hell with his blackmail but my traditional parents won't like to see what's in his blackmail. At first the blackmail was to hurt me and my parents only.

But now he has evidence to hurt my brother directly and I have to let him torture me so that my brother is not hurt directly.

I hurt him indirectly the moment he knew that I made love (for Ravichandran it was not making love) to Ravichandran.

He was hurt when he knew about Ravichandran's blackmail.

When I entered, Ravichandran was standing with a guy who seemed to be in my age.

Ravichandran's eyed were travelling over my body and was stopping at certain places. This made me feel vulnerable.

This must be normal as there are many stupids who see me like this.

We could see lust in their eyes but what I saw in this guy's eyes were not lust. It was full of evil glint.

Those stupids enjoy the body parts but Ravichandran enjoys seeing them feel uneasy.

When I reached him, he came near me. I walked two feet behind. I walked too fast that I tripped and fell down. He laughed at me.

He gave me his hands and I ignored it. I stood up but the moment I stood up, Ravichandran slapped me so hard that I feel down on the floor.

He caught my hair and pulled me up. He dragged me by my hair to the unknown guy and halted near him. His voice was full of evil, "Slap her."

The new guy was stunned but this was not new to me. He used to let others torture me too.

"SLAP HER!" His voice was so loud that even the stranger backed up. His hands were shaking on hearing Ravichandran's loud voice and his palm was imprinted on my cheek.

The stranger slapped me but instantly Ravichandran slapped him so hard that he moved back out of the impact. Ravichandran's voice came out loud, "SLAP HER HARD YOU FUC*ING IDIOT."

He slapped me so hard that I fell on the floor again. He gave a hand to me but I ignored again and stood up without his help.

I am not going to be submissive to him. I don't care even if he kills me.

He narrowed his eyes at me while I heard his voice, "So you want to stay strong. You don't mind even If I hurt you again, do you?" I shook my head.

He clutched his hands together and said, "You didn't protest yesterday when I raped you in front of your brother. I get it, you want to keep the tortures to a minimum in front of your brother so that he won't be hurt more, right?"

It was true. Ravichandran can hurt me as long as he wants but not my brother. The look he had on his face when Ravichandran raped me was so torturous than the bodily pain at that moment.

But what can I do? He has locked me and my brother. We can't do anything else than sit silent.

Ravichandran's voice came out of somewhere to my face, "Do you remember your best friend?" He pointed to the stranger and continued, "This guy is a friend of your best friend's roommate, What's his name?"

The stranger replied in a terrified voice, "Sri. I am a friend of Sri."

Sri was Addar's roommate. Did he turn his attention to Addar now?

Addar and Vishnu are the only friends I have now. He has turned his attention to Addar now.

Ravichandran said while walking around me continuously, "I think Addar will propose to you today." When he finished saying, I couldn't believe my eyes.

My best friend is going to propose and I couldn't stop the surprise in my voice, "He doesn't." Even when I said that my mind went to the kiss Addar gave on my first day.

He doesn't love me. It was just a kiss.

But he doesn't kiss others like that. I have known him for 4 years.

But he didn't try to do anything romantically in the four years I have known him.

Ravichandran said, "He loves you and this guy made sure that he will propose today."

He narrated me what happened today early morning. The stranger went to Addar's room and made him feel insecure.

When he said how Addar reacted, even I was sure that he meant someone. Addar might be in love.

He doesn't talk to any girls other than me. Does he love me?

Ravichandran voice meant business, "You have to reject him." When he said it I was shocked. Why am I shocked?

He is my best friend.

Ravichandran's voice was serious, "You don't love him. You have to reject him. You should do it only in the canteen. Bring him to the Canteen and I will take care of the rest."

It was getting late and I knew that I won't be on time to exam. Why don't I stay at the dorm and not attend any exam? At least Addar would be saved. This is the last day and he will forget me.

But I knew that Ravichandran wouldn't leave me alone. I said, "What if I accept his proposal?" Ravichandran's eyes widened when I said it.

He came near me. His breath was hitting my face. Once I thought this situation was good but now I want to die rather than stay in this situation.

His hands went to waist. His hand went inside my shirt. He dug his nail into my waist and found pleasure in my pain.

When his hand tried to move upward, I pushed him away. Ravichandran's voice carried the irritation he felt, "I think you would let Addar touch you right?"

When I thought about it, I felt that he is correct. I let Ravichandran touch me once but now I regret every moment of it.

Addar touched me too. He has kissed me too. It happened before four years. May be he regrets it that's why he didn't do anything to me again. He didn't try at all.

I was a mistake for him on this category of feeling.

I had an initial attraction to him but now it's not there.

But I didn't regret his kiss. I don't feel bad or sorry about that kiss at all. Addar kissed me.

I won't say it's special or something. But I won't say it is a mistake.

It's an incident, a neutral incident for me.

Suddenly I realized that I am with Ravichandran. I saw him and I realized the mistake I did.

I showed him how much Addar is important for me. He might have realized how much I think about him.

Ravichandran's excited voice was heard, "Catherine, you are in love with Addar." These words stunned me. I didn't wait to think and all. I was never sure about my feeling for him but I can't show it here.

I shook my head but Ravichandran smiled while saying, "When I said Vishnu loves you, you didn't wait to say that you don't love him but now you are thinking for more than 10 minutes."

I couldn't believe what I did. He will surely hurt Addar. He will try every ways to hurt Addar so that he can hurt me.

I saw his face and he was grinning from ear to ear while saying, "I need you to attend exam and Addar will be seated in your room. You have to lead him to the canteen. There you have to hurt him."

My voice carried the anger which I felt on this disgusting excuse of a man, "I won't hurt him on a million years even.  He is my best friend."

Ravichandran's hands pulled my hair while saying in my ear, "I know that you won't hurt him. Till now you didn't say 'I don't love him' you said 'he doesn't' only. That's why it's going to be nice to see you reject him."

Ravichandran released my hair. I said, "Why are you doing this? You have the strength to kill me. If you want my brother to be broken then kill me. I will write a suicide note even."

Ravichandran laughed and clutched his stomach. "The pain you get when I stab your stomach with a knife will be less than the pain which you get due to your guilt. That's the pain I want your brother to experience."

He continued, "If you die then he might cry for a month but what happens when you live as a broken remainder of his stupid actions. What happens if he sees you getting raped everyday? What happens when he sees your being hit everyday? What happens if he sees your only best friend leaving you? That's going to happen today. Your Addar is going to start hating you from today."

My heart was beating fast. I am selfish. My mind doesn't think what's going to happen to Addar but my mind thinks 'Will he hate me?'

Ravichandran said, "You have to say that he has traits of a girl." When I heard it, I can't believe it.

I couldn't stop my voice from reaching high pitch, "What! Are you stupid?" He laughed more and I felt like hitting him.

Ravichandran's voice was delighted, "I heard he is more girlish. He hasn't touched any girls. He is not like me. He is girlish."

My voice was more louder, "What makes you a man?"

He is not a man. Does hurting girls and proving his power make him a man? He is more disgusting.

He said, "Man is more powerful than girls. We need you to entertain us. If I need s*x, you should give. You are made for our pleasure."

I tried to talk but he cut me off by saying, "I don't care. If I say something do it. Bring him to me. Don't try to save him or anything."

*Back to present*

I was pulled out of my thoughts when I heard heard a door open. It was Addar and he slowly came near me. He knelt down bedside me.

The guy who was my best friend. Everything has changed about him. If it was my old friend he would have hugged me when I said about my brother .

But I know that he is not same. My friend died that day when I said the words Ravichandran made me say.

He sat near me and said, "Are you scared that he is back?" We were again sitting on the same floor. I don't know what Ravichandran was saying to Addar when they talked.

I ran inside the room immediately. Addar came after 15 minutes only so what did he say to Addar.

Addar said, "Don't worry. I am here. He can't touch you at all." Words was the only thing I heard.

I lost my friend. I wanted him to hug me but he is not doing it. I was holding myself from shouting 'I didn't say those words. He made me say them about you. Please give back my best friend'.

His voice was coated with care, "I will take care of him. You stay relaxed."

I couldn't hold on anymore. My voice came out in bits due to crying, "No I can't. He won't... He will haunt me. He will hurt me and he will..."

He hugged me tight. His hands wrapped around me and pulled me towards him. I rested my head on his shoulder and cried. He rubbed my back while saying, "I wanted to hug you, can I?"

I couldn't stitch my words to say how much I needed my best friend so I nodded.

He hugged me and I snuggled on his chest. He started to stroke my hair while whispering in my ears, "Things are going to change for you. I am here and I will be here for both of us. I need you too. I will bring happiness to you."

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AUTHOR'S NOTE:

How was the chapter?

Please don't say that someone still doesn't feel sorry for Catherine.

Any suggestions.

NATASHAJESS SAMMI_RAPHAEL teacher can you say how many mistakes this chapter and allocate the marks?

What do you think about Ravichandran?

He sent the guy to Sri's room and made Addar propose. This stranger is the guy who came to Addar and Sri's room.

Every thing has happened as per Ravichandran's plan, what about things which happens next?

Take care be safe and stay blessed.

-Yagappar