AUTHOR'S NOTE:

This book is getting ranked in General Fiction.

Yes, at last I found the genre of the book. ;)

Happy birthday to Krazy_Kiran . This chapter is for the birthday girl.

I couldn't wish you first like ILive_Laugh_LoveI but I say my wishes from bottom of my heart.

She was the first to wish there Meghu_die_Beste

ILive_Laugh_LoveI you might have given Krazy_Kiran her first wish but I have given her the first dedication

As Meghu_die_Beste is in theatre and Krazy_Kiran is sleeping I think ILive_Laugh_LoveI will get the first comment.

shivkapoor wrote a book on Katrina-Ranbir-Deepika-Ranveer. Many of you ship Ranbir and Deepika but his book had a different view even though he ships Ranbir with Deepika.

I don't ship them. I will ship Deepika with Ranveer. May be Ranbir and Deepika are so cute in movies? Yes, they are cute and I don't doubt it.

I personally think Ranbir doesn't deserve Deepika. His last chapter was nearly my voice. Go and Read it sisters.

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I was standing in front of the church where I was going to get married. I was going to get married today. Once upon a time, I had lot of plans for my marriage. Every girl has those dreams where they want to be married in a fairy tale way.

Media was watching every step of my marriage. They were calling it the marriage of the decade. I was standing in front of the church door. Media was clicking photos from every possible angle.

This is the day of my marriage. In few minutes I am going to get married but why am I not excited? I walked in and the media were clicking photos. Recently I got a dislike for media and photos. I have my reasons for it too.

I was walking slowly and everyone I saw was smiling at me. They are not seeing me with disgust which was how people have been seeing me recently. My eyes were roaming and it landed on my mom.

I have seen in many movies, how mothers cry when their daughter is getting married. I thought my mother would be like that too but she is not like that now. I am a curse to her now.

****when Catherine was in high school*****

I opened my eyes and saw my clock. It was 11.45 A.M. I am again late. Why can't I wake up early?

I am awake for 3 minutes and I am hungry. How is that possible? I was asleep so I might not have used any energy. I threw my cover off and went to the kitchen. I found my mom. She was busy cooking.

She was singing a song from DDLJ. She was a Shah Rukh Khan fan. Every girl who has seen his romantic movies will be a fan but she never said that in front of Dad. I slowly walked near her and she was standing with her back facing me. I hugged her from back and her body was tense for a moment before she got back to normal.

I kept my head on her shoulder and said, "Mom, I am hungry. I want breakfast." She bumped her head on me and said with a smile, "It's not breakfast time. May be I will give you lunch? Breakfast time is over dear."

I chuckled and said, "At least give me that. Call it breakfast or lunch or snacks or dinner, my teeth needs food to eat." She turned back and caught my jaw. She made me open my mouth and saw it. After seeing it for a minute, she said, "I think your teeth needs you to clean it first. Go brush your teeth girl." I threw my hands in the air and said, "Mom, I am hungry. I promise that I will brush after eating. I don't have the strength to brush mom. If I eat, I will get the necessary strength."

I gave my mom a cute and innocent smile. It always worked with her. Mothers always have a weak spot for their daughters. I used this to bribe my mom. She saw me and her hand went to my cheek. She rubbed her hand on my cheek. I said that mom has a weak spot for daughters, at the same time daughters have a weak spot for mothers.

She said, "You know about your dad. If he finds this, he will get angry dear." Dad, My own dad. He is very orthodox. He is someone who always thinks girls are safe only in the kitchen. He always says girls are unsafe outside.

He won't allow me to go to parties and any social activity. I sat on the table and said to my mom, "How did you live mom? Don't you feel irritated when he gives stupid orders to you mom?" My mom saw me for a moment and continued to cut the vegetables.

I don't understand this. My Dad didn't abuse my mom or anything but he didn't give her freedom, she should hate him but still she couldn't hear me scold him. I just don't understand these people.

I was busy reading a news about Shah Rukh Khan's next movie. It was about a movie in which Shah Rukh Khan was going to act with Kajol and I was super excited to see that movie. No one could forget their acting in DDLJ.

I was reading further and found that the movie name is my name is khan. My mind went to wild imagination. Shah Rukh Khan and my name is Khan.

Is it based on Shah Rukh Khan's life? Let's see!

I went near my mom and turned her towards me. I asked her, "What would happen if you had married Shah Rukh Khan? He is a sweet heart and he would have treated you like a princess."

She saw me and a small smile came to her face. She started to stroke my hair and said, "Dear, Shah Rukh Khan doesn't allow his wife to wear short skirts as it is against culture. Did he stop his heroine's from wearing them?"

That sentence rang something in my brain. I was shocked by this question. I never thought this. Et tu Shah Rukh?

My mom started to cut the vegetables while saying, "Don't expect those boys who say I give her full freedom. When you get into a relation, you won't give him full freedom and he won't give you full freedom. Relationship is about losing a little bit of freedom for specific someone and getting back lots of love from them. Stability of relationship is about how much your partner expects from you."

This is the same explanation this old generation have been saying to keep girls in the dark. I am waiting for the day I would go to college.

I will stay in dorm and there won't be a single soul to stop me. Adam is like Dad too but I can resist him and keep him silent.

My mom continued, "This is why I hate fairy tales. Those give you false ideas. I think those fairy tales are the reason why there are many divorces. When you get married you should..."

****Present****

I felt someone shake my shoulder and I was back to present from those high school days. My care free high school days. I raised my gaze and everyone was looking at me - a look of anticipation, except two people.

Addar was seeing me with a smile. Sri was seeing me with anger and I didn't know what made him see me like that then I noticed the Pasteur and raised my eye brow. He said, "Do you take Abijah Addar as your husband and stay with him throughout his life?"

Now I understood why Sri was seeing me with anger. He took my silence in wrong way. He thought I am going to dump Addar in church.

But Addar was smiling. He doesn't care even if I dump him and I am going to spend my life with him. What does life have in store for me?

I saw the Pasteur and said, "Yes, I will."

He announced us Husband and Wife. I knew that we won't kiss like those Hollywood movies. In India those kisses are impossible.

I turned and Addar's Dad congratulated me with tears. He was happy that his son was married but I knew that I am his wife just to this world. I can't be a wife to him and he won't be a husband to me.

I saw my mom and she walked slowly towards me. Her eyes were crystal clear and my heart broke for 1000th time or may be more even. Boy's parents never cry but the girl's parents cry in a marriage but here it is completely different. My mom doesn't love me at all.

At least not after that incident.

She is happy that I am going. She used to give advises on marriage life even when I was in high school but I never listened to her at that time. Now, she won't give advice even if I cry for advice from her.

A pair of arms wrapped around me. It was a girl's arm. She hugged me tight. I was being hugged after years. At least someone loves me enough to hug me.

She said while in hug, "Congrats on marrying. My name is Harini. I am Addar's close friend." I was confused. I was Addar's only friend in college. May be he got friends after college?

I was still sad as I was expecting my mom. Why can't she give a small smile? Words have failed me. My whole world is a failure. Mom! What can I do if my mom doesn't love me?

Addar's Dad saw me and touched my cheek. He said, "It would have been great if Adam was with us. He was a great boy from what I heard."

At the end of his words, I heard someone shout, "What! Which Adam?" I thought it was Addar. Did he find who Adam is? If he found Adam then he might know what happened to him and like everyone else he won't forgive me.

I kept Adam as a secret from Addar. Actually I kept a lot of secrets from Addar. He might recognize me now of what I am.

I didn't want to turn and see his face. He caught me and he is not going to forgive me. Till now, Addar didn't just love me and now he will hate me.

I gained courage and turned to see Harini staring at me. Did she shout? Addar was seeing Harini with the same confusion on his mind. I couldn't understand. Does she knew Adam?

If she knew him, she will say what happened to him? Then Addar won't forgive me too.

Whatever it is, it is sure that Addar won't forgive me. He will see me with disgust like others.

Harini was still staring at me with wide eyes. I glanced at my mom. She was scared to death. She is thinking the same as me. Will Harini say about Adam in front of everyone?

My mind was going through many possibilities. If she says what I did to Adam in front of everyone then I will be the news of the century now. Media will have a big research day and they will crush my already shattered dignity.

Harini came near me and she was trembling. Tears formed in her eyes and her fingers were shaking violently. Sri came near her and caught her hands in his hands. Addar came near her cautiously. Harini didn't glance at anyone. She was seeing me and the media only. She asked me in low voice, "Did he study in NIT?"

Oh My God. She found him. I am done. I was silent. I didn't answer her so her hands left Sri's hand and caught my arm. She shook me and asked again. I slowly nodded. When she saw me nodding, she quickly backed away. Disgust! This is what nearly everyone are showing on me.

She slowly turned towards Addar's Dad and said, "I want to talk with her alone." She said in a broken voice which was a shock to everyone. No one knew why she is acting strange except me and my mom. Both of us were near the edge of crying.

I wanted to cry saying I am sorry for what I did and my mom wanted to cry that she is equally ashamed of me. Both of us were trembling with fear.

When she hugged me, I thought I might get hugs from her but now she feels disgusted on seeing me. Why can't anyone stop hating me?

Addar's Dad nodded and Harini grabbed my wrist with a force which was impossible for a trembling hand. She ignored Sri's demand to know what's happening and took me to a room. I entered the room first and she closed the door immediately after she came in.

I walked to the edge of the room so that I was as far as possible from her. She walked near me and stood beside me. We were now standing at the corner of the room. Her fists were closed with anger. I was ready to get punched.

But she punched the wall and said through gritted teeth, "I was devastated and angry at the same time when I heard Adam's death. I can't believe the things which happened around you. Only thing which come to mind is disgust."

I turned around to face her and I could feel the tears roll on my cheek. She turned towards me when she sensed my stare. Next moment, she launched herself on me.

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AUTHOR'S NOTE:

Don't get angry at me for my cliff-hangers. I am sorry. I will give you all my Christmas sweets.

Think what would have happened if I ended with Harini taking Catherine inside the room. You might have pulled your hair out thinking what happened.

At least I gave an information that Adam is dead.

But who is Adam?

It was not like recent chapters where I opened my laptop at 10:00 P.M and decide I would update before sleeping. I took my laptop at 2:00 P.M yesterday and updated now.

Any difference?

What do you expect to happen in next chapter?

AkankshaSharma3 correctly said what happened to Catherine, even though she didn't say where I said that story in the chapters. Can anyone guess when I said Catherine's story? AkankshaSharma3 don't say the answer to anyone.

I will give you potatoes.

How was the chapter?

Any suggestions for me?

I think you could expect Shah Rukh Khan, Varun and Alia Bhatt after one or two chapters. India's richest man is getting married and how can you expect Bollywood not to attend it.

Take care be safe and stay blessed.

-Yagappar

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