AUTHOR'S NOTE:

Happy Diwali guys.

This is a very different and small chapter.

Everyone are celebrating Diwali and I am sitting here in my room getting bored. Someone come, I am getting bored here.

This was the hardest chapter to write.

The question for the chapter is, do you think friendly hugs comfort us?

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15) His name is Matthews

THIRD PERSON'S POV

Addar was still shocked by her actions. She kissed me. How dare she kisses me?

He pushed her and she fell down on her back. He turned to see the grandma shaking her head at them. Grandma was whispering loudly, "I don't understand these boys nowadays. They are having wrong assumptions. Why do they like to cause pain to girls? They are always rough."

She said that and went inside the shop. She thought she was seeing a couple.

Addar saw that girl. She was feeling guilty now. Did I lose him too by my silly bucket list?

Addar could see guilt in her eyes. He saw her with disgust and started to walk.

She came in front of him and said, "I am sorry. I never thought it will hurt you."

"What did you expect? I am not the type of guy who kisses random girls."

"I know. That's why I kissed you. I know that you won't take it any further."

He caught her arm and squeezed her arms tightly. It was hurting but she didn't say it to him. He said, "So you will do anything to me. Don't you understand that I have feelings too? Do you think I am a toy for you?"

"It was just a part of my bucket list."

"Are you crazy? Are you a stupid? I had enough with your stranger bucket list. Didn't you meet any stranger at all?"

"Please! Leave my arm. It hurts." She looked at him. She couldn't suppress it.

Addar left her arm. Immediately her hand went to rub her arm. Addar's hand went to her arm hesitantly. He lifted her shirt to see her arm. The place where he caught her was reddened. He felt horrible. I did this to a girl.

"I am really sorry."

'No! I deserve it."

"No girl deserves to be hurt by a boy."

"Can I ask something?"

"Yes."

"A normal boy would have called me a sl*t for what I did. Why didn't you call me?"

"I don't use that word. I don't use it at all. I know that I am abnormal."

If boys sleep with random girls they are called players. If girls do that around random boys they are called sl*ts.

"I didn't say that you are abnormal."

"Don't worry you are not the first to call me abnormal."

''Thanks."

"Why?"

"You made me smile after three years. I am sorry for what I did to you. I didn't meet any stranger for three years."

Last three years came as a flash in her mind. All the unwanted attention she was getting for three years.

She remembered the times she spent crying and the fact that she had no one with her.

They entered a park and sat on a bench. The walk to the park was silent. Addar was stunned by the fact that she didn't smile for years. She was smiling like a crazy girl few minutes ago. I can't believe that she didn't smile for years.

What made her like this?

How can someone not meet a stranger for years?

She broke the silence by saying, "Can you do one thing for me?"

"Is it related to a bucket list?"

He tried to smile but she didn't smile. She continued, "I need a friend. Can you be a friend and hear all my worries?"

She continued, "Yes. I am desperate. I really need a friend. I don't like this but I have no other option. Please! Will you be my friend?"

He wiped her tears with his index finger. He slowly came near her. He kept his hand on her shoulder and squeezed it. He slowly wrapped his hand around her neck. He asked her, "Can I hug you?"

"Please hug me. I really need a hug."

She hugged her and she started to cry. Addar started to rub her back. They were sitting on the park bench. After ten minutes, she pulled away.

"What happened to you?"

"I rejected Ravichandran."

"Did he ask you to be his girlfriend?"

"He wanted to fu*k me. I rejected him. It was three years ago. He made sure that I will suffer."

"What did he do?" 

She remembered everything he did.

Every creepy guy he sent to her. Ravichandran made sure her life was a mess. He made her cry every night.

"Do you know what is bad than crying?"

''What is it?"

"The realization that there is no one to wipe your tears is more hurting than pain which caused it."

She continued, "He asked every boy in the campus to propose to me. If I say okay, they will act like they love me. They will break up after they have sex with me. They will break me completely."

She continued after a minute, "He wants to break me. He wants me to cry. Everywhere I turn there will be a boy who is waiting to fu*k me and break me."

"Doesn't he give up at all?"

"There was boy who cried when I rejected him. He has a poor history behind him. His name is Matthews.''

She said about that boy.

One day Ravichandran set his eyes on a girl. He wanted to f*ck her. He wanted to fu*k her without her knowledge and see her face when she realizes the mistake she did. He wanted to see her cry after that.

He mixed some drugs in her soft drink without her knowledge.

But Matthews saw it. He warned her and made her to avoid the drink. He turned to face Ravichandran. Matthews was new to college at that time. He didn't know Ravichandran at that time.

He slapped Ravichandran on his face. He did that in front of the whole canteen. It is the second worst thing he did in his life.

First worst thing in life is letting his sister join the same college next year.

Matthews's parents were traditionalist. They had their children under a set of rules. When Matthews's sister came to college. She was super excited. The freedom she got was very new to her which made her go crazy.

She fell in love with Ravichandran.

Ravichandran plotted against her and made her fall in love. Teenage girl who is fully driven by hormones fell in love with the bad boy.

By the time Matthews realized what happened, it was late. Ravichandran had already did his damage.

Ravichandran was sure that he shouldn't waste time so he had s*x with Matthew's sister. She made love intentionally but there was one thing which she didn't know.

Ravichandran was filming it. He tapped it.

Ravichandran used it to blackmail Matthews. Ravichandran said that he will circulate that video in all social media and make Matthews sister a porn star. Matthews had no other choice.

Matthews had to kiss Ravichandran's feet every day in front of whole college. He was Ravichandran's slave for two years. He did that all for his sister.

Matthews fell in love. He met a girl who hugged him every time he cried. He felt like a prince with her even immediately after he kissed Ravichandran's feet. She made him smile even during the worst times of his life.

Matthews felt that he was born to live with her. He was feeling happy. He was feeling the best feelings of his life but he didn't know one thing.

She was not in love with Matthews. She was just following Ravichandran's order.

Ravichandran used that to blackmail Matthews's sister. She didn't want to see Matthews hurt more than he is already. She was in Ravichandran's trap now.

Ravichandran started to hurt them. He made them do horrible things. He made them feel alone. He made them a friendless slaves.

Addar was stunned at the end of this conversation. He never thought Ravichandran will go to this extent.

He felt sorry for the girl before him. She rejected Ravichandran too.

Addar could imagine her life. Every minute she had to spend in fear on what Ravichandran is planning.

"I am really sorry for you. At least he didn't let people to rape you."

"If someone destroys your life, you can easily blame them. What happens if you destroyed your life yourself?"

She continued, "Every morning you watch the mirror to see the person you hate the most. It multiplies the pain more."

She continued, "I had to live in a sense of fear. I can't drink anything outside. Even if someone smiles friendly, I had to avoid out of fear. He made me choose to be friendless. He made me stay lonely."

She cried and hugged Addar. She was crying and Addar couldn't do anything to her. This is beyond his control.

Addar doesn't understand what is likable seeing others in pain. She continued while sobbing, "He makes everyone to see me in inappropriate places to make me uncomfortable. He made me an object. He sometimes makes men rub their hands all over me in crowd and they act like they did unknowingly."

Life is sure as hell for Woman.

After sometime, she stood up and kissed his cheek. She said, ''See you."

"Hey! What's your name?"

"I don't say names to strangers."

His face fell. She came and cupped his cheeks. She said, "I will give my bio data itself when we meet next time. I am not going to leave my only friend."

She said that and kissed his cheeks. She started to walk away. I said, "Wait! How will you find me?"

She showed Addar's identity card without turning back. It was Addar's college identity card. How did she get it?

She is surely a crazy girl.

I found myself today. This last 24 hours has been a great reality check for me. I have decided my life.

I have decided my path. I am not going to be evil like Ravichandran.

I am not going to be a child. I have learnt more in this 24 hours than my whole 21 years.

My life is not a mess. My life is just complicated. Life should be complicated.

No one can expect life to simple. The biggest greed in life is to expect everyone to like you.

We can't change ourselves to everyone's wish.

Addar stood up and saw the sky. He said, "Sorry for the words I said about you Mom. I am really sorry Mom. Stay with me Mom. I need you, jenny and Dad to stay with me Mom."

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AUTHOR'S NOTE:

Did you like it?

It kind of felt like it is the most boring chapter to me but it is the most interesting chapter.

This chapter is important to the plot of the book.

Yes, this book has a plot unlike Her Dreams.

I wanted to show how evil Ravichandran is. How evil is he?

The answer for the question is, I don't know. I have never given or got hug. Some people in wattpad think it is comforting.

The next chapter will take place after 6 years later. Addar would be a 27 year old young businessman.

Don't think it is a normal CEO story. It is something else. Stay patient with me.

Take care be safe and stay blessed.

-YAGAPPAR