Sophie's POV

The faint voices on the tv make me sleepy. Robin's couch is so cozy and the blanket is keeping us warm as we lay on said couch watching Greys. Robin is spooning me and her hot breath hits my neck giving me goosebumps while her hand around my waist creates a feeling of security and warmth. And my eyes close....

Her, moving behind me is what wakes me up from my nap. I move and lay on my back with my eyes closed and she kisses me lightly on the corner of my mouth.

"Hey sleepy girl." I hear her say and I open my eyes, feeling tired as hell.

"What time is it?" I murmur confused rubbing my eyes groaning.

"It's late baby..23:48." she says and I sit up. Wow, I must have been really tired. I get up stretching as she caresses my back sitting up as well. "Baby, I don't want you driving this late..and you look tired..stay the night?" I gulp at this and turn to look at her. A sleepover? We've only been together for a month give or take...isn't it too soon to share a bed?

My face must betray my thoughts because she speaks again. "I will sleep on the couch babe, don't worry." she cups my face and kisses my nose. I stay still thinking about it: I cannot make Ro sleep on the couch while I have the bed...besides her uncle will be here early morning from his girlfriend's house..it won't be nice to see that his niece is sleeping on the couch, plus he will definitely wake her up and she will be cranky all day.......nah.. It's not right to do that to my girlfriend..

"We can share." I ultimately say slyly and look into her eyes. She smiles immediately and the blue of her eyes brightens.

"You sure? I promise I won't do anything to make you uncomfortable." she asks for reassurance and I nod at this, leaning to kiss her sweetly on her cheek. "Come on let's go." she gets up and I follow. We make our way upstairs to her room shortly after. I sit on her bed and text Joss letting him know I am staying over, while she is going through her clothes to find something for me to wear. I end up with a grey pair of sweatpants and a white t-shirt, while she comes from the bathroom wearing a checkered pair of pjs and a loose black t-shirt as well. I nervously stand next to the bed while she is braiding her hair in front of her wall mirror.

Once done she lays first on the right side of it, next to the wall, and I follow suit, laying on the left side..or is it the opposite? I don't know.. I lay on my back as she lays on her side facing me. She takes my hand and intertwines our fingers as she speaks calmly. "Don't feel nervous, ok?"

"I am not used to sharing my bed with people...I am sorry." I say to her and look intensely at the ceiling, not daring to look at her.

"It's ok, pretty girl. I will stay on my side, no funny business." I turn to face her and I nod. "Ok, goodnight baby, sleep tight." and with that she turns her back on me, facing the wall and I do the same, now facing the door.

I don't know what we have been doing during the night, but when I wake up our positions have changed. Robin is on her back while I am on my side nuzzling my head on her right shoulder and with my right leg between hers. But that is not what makes my heart race..nope.

My right hand currently lays on her stomach, under her t-shirt. I stop breathing as I take everything in. Her skin is sooo soft and warm...and somehow my hand moves on, it's on because seconds later, I find myself caressing her stomach with my thumb, eyes now focused on my actions. Slowly the rest of my fingers move as well, as my hand moves across her belly and I revel at the feeling.

I realized then that my body was catching up with the actions as well. I am breathing heavily and I kinda feel heady..my palm on her is sweaty and my body temperature is much higher. But I also feel a weird sensation in my..um....lady bits? I don't know how to describe it...I only know that it's kinda like when we kiss and things get heated, but more intense..and more..um...moist? Yes..it's more intense....and-

"That feels nice." Robin's voice startles me and I remove my hand instantly from her stomach. I got caught and I want to die. I start to panic and I want to get up and leave but she takes my hand, the same hand that was on her stomach, and brings it to her mouth. Without saying anything, she kisses the back of it and then my palm, and I lay there, my head on her shoulder, but now more relaxed. Her words are a whisper now .

"Soph...you can touch me you know...don't be shy. You are my girlfriend...and I like it." I take a deep breath feeling my cheeks redden.

"I don't mind. Ok?" she says and I nod against her shoulder. I close my eyes and think about it. I want to touch her again. Her skin felt good under my palm and the sensation that it caused, made my head buzz and I liked it. She lets go of my hand and I bring it on her stomach once again, lifting her shirt a bit. My finger tips dance around her bellybutton and I hear her gasp..that makes me feel more daring..so I bring my hand a little higher on her ribcage and my fingertips can actually feel her bones. This is so weird. Robin is fidgeting next to me and I think it's overwhelming for her as well, but I don't dare look at her, because if I do, I might stop and I don't want that.

I can feel her moving a bit but in my fuzzy state I pay no mind. I do eventually though, when her left hand grabs mine, stopping my moves. My eyes widen at the thought that I took things too far and that she wants me to stop...but oh how mistaken I am..I don't breath for seconds as I watch her hand drag mine on her breast...oh my god! She is not wearing anything!! I am touching her breast! I swallow hard feeling dizzy and I realize I am holding my breath and I need air. I release it and she does as well, letting my hand free on her. The silence is quite deafening.

"It's so soft" my mouth stupidly says as I palm her, feeling how soft and warm it is. Well...it's soft except from her..um..nipple. Her nipple is not. That means she is turned on..I.....oh god. I close my eyes and my hand goes to autopilot now. I swear I can't control it. I am massaging it slowly, playing with her nipple and feel goosebumps on her skin. At that time, I lift my head from her shoulder and look at her. Her eyes are closed and she is patting like crazy, while her mouth is half open, making small noises that I now hear clearly. Intoxicated, I kiss her. The kiss is hard and needy and it makes me close my eyes shut.

She stops kissing me though and seconds later she whispers. "I want to touch you too." I open my eyes and bring my forehead on hers.....slowly I nod yes.

"Lay on your back." she whispers and I oblige. She is laying on top of me now, putting her weight on her right hand, next to my head while her left one goes under my t-shirt, and my left leg is trapped between hers. The moment she starts moving her hand on me, I go crazy. I am patting and I am sweating and I just feel like I am burning! She cups my breast under my sports bra, hard and starts kissing my neck hungrily and I make a strangled noise. My stomach muscles clench and so do other muscles a little lower..wow this is...amazing!

I am too focused on myself, losing my mind over this, floating on air and breathing heavily, spacing out, eyes closed, but Robin's action make me open them. She is licking my neck now, moaning and whispering my name like a prayer...but that's not all..... It takes seconds to realize that she has began grinding on my thigh with a crazy pace and every now and then, her knee makes contact with my lady parts..oh my god!! Ummm....that's so hot..umm......I don't know what is happening but I can guess and before anything happens I grab her hand and panicked, I speak.

"Ro..stop." her hips stop moving at once and she lifts her head from my neck looking at me. Her eyes are dilated and the blue is nearly evident...Her mouth is open and the panicked look on her face makes me curse myself.

"Fuck, baby I am so sorry!" she says and gets off me abruptly, and messily out of bed. The room is still semi dark and that is a recipe for disaster when it comes to Robin who is rather clumsy. Add that to her panicked state and soon you have a Ro, on the floor, tripped on her own feet. She gets up from the floor cursing herself and finally she turns on the lamp on her desk.

"I am gonna take a shower..ummmmm.....yes." she says not looking at me and makes her way to the bathroom. I stay on my spot not moving, confused, turned on, aroused, you name it..I feel it. This is going to be so awkward and I hate awkward, so I get up and get dressed as quick as possible. I grab my stuff and look at the wall clock and the hour straddles me..shit, it's way too early...only 6:21..I hope I won't wake Joss up.

I make my way to her bathroom and I crack the door open just a bit.

"Umm..Ro, I am going home, ok?? Joss texted me saying he is hungover and in need of painkillers..ok?? ummmm .... Byeeeee!" I don't wait for her answer though because I know my excuse is lame and leave her room like a maniac.

I don't even remember how I got home. Everything was a blur and I think I passed a stop sign without looking. I finally managed to get to our apartment without crashing or anything, thank god! I unlock the door and shut it with force as I toss my bag on the floor and like a zombie, I go to the living room. I turn on the TV and the volume and with widen eyes I just stare at the screen. I don't even know what I am watching, I just sit there.

"Soph, for God's sakes it's 7am and it's Sunday! Why are you such a sadist?" Joss shouts at me still half asleep, while he's coming to sit next to me. Joss is here? What time is it again? His hair is crazy, just like every morning, and he is just in his pyjama bottoms. Did I just wake him?

"Hey." I simply say as I focus on the tv again. I do not move a muscle.

"Helloooooo!!! Earth is calling Sophie! What are you doing here? You were supposed to be at Ro's" Joss asks me really confused and I gulp loudly. Do I say anything? He is my best friend....God, this is so embarrassing, I wanna cry! I will answer vaguely.

"Umm...something happened and I left." I say still not looking at him, nodding my head for no reason. I hope he won't say anything else.

"How deep did that something go? If you know what I mean" he asks me playfully. What is that supposed to mean? It doesn't make any sense! Ohhhh.. It's still early for him so his wording is stupid. I do not answer though, whatever he meant by that...I mean, how do you tell your best friend that you almost had an....um... orgasm? Do people share that? I stay silent and so he speaks again.

"Pretty deep I suppose from the look on your face. Spill the beans! Robin must have done a hell of a good job to you to be speechless." he smirks and I turn to look at him with a miserable look on my face..I can't tell him...but he knows stuff...damn it. I take a deep breath and open my mouth.

"I touched things...and.....so did Robin..and... it was good. I think I was near...I guess....I freaked out and I left." I say trembling and hide my face with my hands. I wanna die!

"So you were about to have your first orgasm!" Joss says playfully. "Nothing's wrong about that, on the contrary it feels amazing." he says and I groan. I put my hands down and give him a pathetic look. This is so wrong..it's Joss we are talking about. He is bound to say something to mock me.

"Joss, as much as I love you, I can't have this talk with you. I feel awful and I think I wanna throw up and-" I faintly hear a voice speaking in the background. What?

I turn my head and see a blonde girl coming out of Joss's room wearing only his t-shirt, looking sleepy as well. "Joss baby, why aren't you in bed?" she speaks like a child. Jesus Joss, upgrade please!

"I'll be right there, baby." he gives her a grin and I eyeroll. Thank god the conversation is over.

"Ok! Don't be late! I am in the mood" she smirks getting back inside the bedroom.

"That's my cue!"Joss stands up in a blink of an eye really excited. "Sophie, congrats on your first near orgasm, now I am going to give this girl multiple complete ones." he smiles and runs thrilled to his room, as I stay there grossed out and in shock. I knew I shouldn't have said anything to this ape! I need girl talk. With a sigh I go to my room and go to bed again...

Can this day be over?

Nathan's POV

I've been stuck at my room for the whole weekend, windows shut, laying on the bed. I could barely move. How much did I drink at that damn party? I don't remember. I have no memory of that night really. I was heading to the kitchen to get a drink and then blur. I must have drunk a hell lot considering the hangover I had. Steve and Bill have been making fun of me for the last 2 days while keeping me company. "That's what ΚΕΓ brothers do, dude!" I can hear Steve's voice in my head. I was complaining of course as the whiner after drunk I am but I do appreciate their gesture. Even Dylan spent some time with me. I had to hear though over and over again about how I cockblocked his once in a lifetime chance with that Miranda chick. Well, if I didn't get laid, he shouldn't as well.

I am starting to feel better today. Thank God. I couldn't stay in for another minute. The exams are close so I decide to attend my Monday's morning class. It will be boring but whatever. After that I'll meet with Vanessa for the damn history project. Wait. Have we actually arranged a meeting for today? My head is a mess. I can't recall a thing. I'm calling her to confirm it.

"Hi, Nathan." She picks up after a while.

"Good morning, miss Adams. How are you doing today?"

"I am fine." she clears her throat.

"Did I wake you?" I ask her.

"No, no. I am up already. Studying. How are you?"

"Better today. I had a hell of a hangover." I say as I walk towards the amphitheatre.

"So I've heard."

"You know about it? Seems like news travel fast around here." I observe.

"Um...Yeah. Seems like it."

"So, I am having class right now but we're meeting afterwards?"

"Meeting afterwards?" she repeats confused.

"Yeap. Where are you going to be in about 2 hours?"

"Um...At the dorms?" she sounds still a little puzzled.

"Is everything alright?" I ask.

"Yes, why shouldn't it be?" she fires back.

"Okay, okay. You just sound a little distracted."

"Alice is talking to me at the same time." she explains.

"Ah, tell her I said hi. I'll come pick you up after my class. We have to get over with this damn thing. The professor just started the lecture and it's fucking 9.50 am. Gotta go. Bye." I hang up. Who does he think he is? When the program says a class starts at 10, it means it starts at 10.15 and he is now starting 10 damn minutes earlier. For God's sake! It feels like centuries when he dismisses us 20 minutes later than the time he was supposed to. What a douchebag. I text Vanessa I'm on my way and drive to the dorms. She is waiting for me wig-waging at the front entrance. She is wearing a long khaki jacket and a white sweater along with a pair of jeans and her converses. She is too concentrated at every step she takes that she doesn't notice me so I horn to let her know I am here. She jumps and looks at my direction. She is such a scary-cat. She comes by the car and gets in.

"Hi." She says and pulls the seatbelt.

"Hello, partner. You were in the mood for a morning workout?" I tease her.

"Um... What?" she still tries to put her seatbelt on.

"Going back and forth a million times seems like a good warm up."

"Huh?" she frowns.

"That was meant to be a joke." I explain as she didn't really get it. "You're so clumsy today." I decide to put her out of her seatbelt misery.

"It must be broken!" she shouts.

"Hey, calm down. It works just fine. Here you go." I put her seatbelt on.

"I am calm! What do you mean?" She waves her hands into the air.

"Okay." She must be on her period or something. I think it is better to let her chill for a bit. I keep on driving while she stays quiet.

"Aren't you going to say something?" she breaks the silence after a couple minutes.

"Are you feeling warm enough? I can turn the heat higher."

"I am good." She sighs. "Um...Where are we going?"

"To my place. My dad brought me the Tudors books from home. We can add some stuff and get done with this shit. What do you think?"

"That's what you wanted to get over with?" she asks me.

"Yeah. Don't you want it? You are such a nerd to handle both the project and the exams. You will probably explode." I raise an eyebrow at her.

"That makes sense. Kind of." She takes a big breath. "Turn the radio on."

"Sure. On what station?"

"Whichever you want." I do as she says and leave it at a Drake's song. I murmur along to the lyrics from time to time while she looks outside the window.

"So, what do you think of the game?" I ask after 2 songs.

"It was so nerve-wracking! I don't know a lot about basketball or sports in general but there were so many pauses and fouls and you were so close at the score from the very start to the very end!" She sounds more relaxed now. "Joseph was trying to explain to me the basics. God, he was so pissed at the referee when he didn't give you that foul during the 3rd period." I smile at her bubbliness. "He was like, you know... calling him names. So were the people behind us. And in front of us. And next to us. The whole court was booing him really. I wasn't, since I don't find it polite but that was unfair for sure." She states seriously.

"Once you open your mouth, there is no way to stop you." I smirk. "The referee was such an asshole but I enjoyed it so much that he was right next to me when I hit the buzzer beater."

"The what?"

"Were you actually paying attention at the game?" I pretend to be offended.

"I was!" she crosses her arms.

"I am talking about the last shoot."

"Oh, okay. Why didn't you say it like that then?"

"Because it was a buzzer-beating game-winning 3 pointer."

"I know it counted for three! Joseph was yelling 'Fucking 3 points! fucking 3 points!'" she tries to mimic his voice and it's the first time I hear swearing. The fucking word loses completely its sense coming out of her mouth. I laugh. "Yeah, just like that! Everybody went crazy and rushed in the middle of the court. It was pretty intense." She comments with passion like a sport reporter. "So what is this buzzer beat?" I park outside the ΚΕΓ house.

"Buzzer beater." I correct her as we get out of the car and step into the frat house. Thank God, it's too early for the guys to play PS. They can't keep their mouth shut whenever I bring Vanessa here.

"That thing. What is it?" she is curious as always.

"It is when you shoot before the buzzer sounds but the ball doesn't go in the basket until after the clock expires."

"Okay...Um...I didn't exactly get it but it was spectacular! We were 2 points behind and losing and in seconds we went 1 point ahead and won the game!" she revels. "How did you feel when you made that shoot?"

"I was pretty confident that it will go in. I was on a good day. If I wasn't sure of myself, I would have passed the ball to somebody else." I open the door and we enter my room.

"And you leave nothing in luck, do you?" she raises an eyebrow at me.

"Well, there is luck too in things like that but yeah I want to be sure before I act."

"Like that is your life motto?" She sits at the desk's chair.

"Yeap. I want things to go my way and I try my best to make sure whichever I want happens before I actually go for it." I sit across on the bed.

"Hm..." she rests her head on her hand. "It was a great game really."

"I am glad you came."

"I am glad I came too." She says smiling. "So, let's get this thing over." She emphasizes on the last word.

"Yeap. These are the books." I point at the book pile on the desk.

"Wow...They seem to be exactly what we need." She says approving. "Have you taken a look at them?"

"Not really. I've been like a dead corpse for the whole weekend." I admit.

"Oh, yeah." She sits up. "Um... How are you feeling now?"

"I am starting to feel like myself again." I tell her with a smirk.

"So that means you haven't been yourself?" she looks carefully into my eyes.

"No. Not all. I wasn't myself at that damn party. I pretty much lost it." I speak the truth. "To be honest, I don't remember a damn thing about that night." She parts her lips but I go on. "I know it is kind of irresponsible. I've already told you I don't like drinking that much. I acted stupid and it won't happen again." Her mouth is still wide open. She must have thought that I actually enjoined being fucking drunk and now she is surprised by the opposite. "I am aware I don't seem like the responsible kind of guy but you can stop gawping me now." I laugh and stand up. "So," I turn her chair so Vanessa faces the desk now, "how are we going to do this shit?"

"Um...Take this book and read about Henry's VIII death. I'll read this one." She opens it immediately and starts reading.

"Okay, you nerd." I slump on the bed doing the same. It's been over an hour now and we have spotted every missing damn piece for our project.

"These books include so many interesting facts. Thank your dad on my behalf." She says putting the last one down.

"Yeah, he buys a lot of unnecessary garbage." I say laying on the bed crossed arms.

"They were proven to be quite helpful. Your dad seemed really nice."

"How do you say that? You haven't even met him." I eye roll.

"We were there when he came to congratulate you after the game. I've seen his photo so I recognized him." She explains. "He was really proud of you." She smiles.

"I doubt that." I am reminded once again what a shitty son I am.

"How can you say that, Nathan? He was so happy smiling from one ear to another and he almost teared up moved by his pride for you." She stands up and comes by the bed.

"And you understood all that by seeing him for 3 damn seconds?" I puff.

"Three seconds is enough time to see if someone loves you." She sits next to me.

"Don't array all this romantic bullshit on me. You'll be wasting your time." I look away.

"Well, I just said what I saw." Her tone is sweet. "Your dad came for the game?"

"Nope. He had a medical conference 2 hours away from here and came to see me when it ended. I don't even remember telling him I had a game in the first place." I share my thoughts out loud.

"Hm...I see. And the books?"

"I have no fucking idea. I texted him last week to send them to me via post and somehow he brought them all along. It is weird, isn't it?" I frown and turn to face her.

"Not really." She smiles warmly. I have no idea where she finds logic in this but I smile instinctively back at her.

"Are you done playing the psychologist?" I tease her.

"I wasn't doing that!" she pouts.

"Sure not. With your one million questions." I give her a smirk.

"I ask a lot of questions, don't I?" she puts her hair behind her ear.

"Realization just hit you." I pretend to shoot an invisible arrow at her.

"Stop it!" she laughs and pats my shoulder. "I just want to figure you out." She blushes thinking what she just said. "I mean...um... figure life. In general." I nod smirking. "Like learn new things, open my mind, broaden my horizons..." I keep on nodding and smirking. "Stand up, you lazy!" she gets off the bed and I follow her. "Sit", she orders. "Look in front of you and turn on your laptop. Geez!" she says like she is annoyed. I can see she is fighting too hard to hold her laughter. She is that stubborn though she will do anything in her power not to. This girl never loses my interest. "Just push the button, Nathan!" she exhales.

"There. Happy now?" I do her favor.

"You are one of a kind." She leaves a book wide open at some page next to me.

"I know." I tell her playfully.

"That wasn't a compliment." She eyerolls.

"Yeah, keep telling that to yourself."

"Pay attention!" she gives me a serious glare. "Start adjusting this as you did the other day. From this page till this one." She leans in and I smell her perfume. Well, I have always noticed she smells damn good but she was either talking nonstop or getting on my nerves really. Now, that she is explaining to me how to do something boring as fuck I have time to enjoy her sense. It's natural and simple beautiful just like she is. Her mouth keeps moving informing me about every single damn thing I have to keep in mind. If I really concentrate on what she is saying, I will mostly go crazy so I let her lips distract me. They are so juicy and tempting that I want to bite them so bad. I laugh at this thought of mine. Like she would ever let me do that, dude. She would so slap me in the face if I ever attempted something like this. I don't think I could ever do that for real though. It would make things too complicated. Unfortunately for me, she is too fucking hot but too innocent for her own shake. If she wasn't, I would so have hit on her already. Way before our studying meetings, maybe even before that damn Halloween. But she is not and we are "friends". Not that I have any other girl as friend who I don't fuck. Well, except Robin, but she doesn't count. Yet here I am spending hours with Vanessa not laying a single hand on her. I guess we are "special friends" for real.

"Oh, my god! Where is the Anne Boleyn chapter?" she says in frustration and scrolls down the document. "Nathan, that is not the updated version. Open the right file!" she scolds me.

"You are such a grouch. What's the file's name?"

"Me? A grouch? Seriously? I am no grouch!" She puts her hands on her waist.

"It comes to you so naturally that you don't even realize it."

"I... What? What you just said?" she has turned red by now.

"I just say what I see. Three seconds is enough time to see if someone is a grouch." I paraphrase her previous quote. "I knew it the day I met you that you are a hell of a grouch."

"You keep pushing my limits since that day! It was the worst day of my life!" her hands are waving wildly all over the place.

"And you couldn't make it easier by accepting someone's help, huh?" she has taken this way seriously huffing every now and then. She is just a treat to a teaser like me.

"It was your fault all along!" she pats me on the chest.

"It was my fault that it fucking began to rain cats and dogs?" I stand up.

"Well, I wouldn't be surprised if that was on you too!" she pushes my shoulder and I take a step back since she caught me off guard. "You're the one to blame for everything since the very beginning!" she keeps pushing me back with her fists getting confident by my shocked reaction. "Since that terrible day! You know how many times I've wished to erase that day? A hundred, a thousand, a million times!" She has now lead me with my back to the wall wondering how the hell my tease ended up to this.

"Vanessa, what are you talking about?" I say laughing.

"Oh, now you laugh. Yeah, laugh again! Laugh at my face like the day I met you. Or should I say like you have been doing this entire time?" She keeps punching me on the chest not seeing I am already trapped by her.

"Hey!" I take her hands in mine to stop her little outbreak. "What gotten into you, special friend?" I try to calm her down with a smirk.

"Stop calling me like that! Is this a game to you?" She releases herself from my touch. "Am I a game to you?"

"Wha..." I try to complete my sentence but it seems impossible. I have no idea when this started, why it started or what we are actually talking about.

"See! You are at least decent enough not to lie about the obvious thing! This is so wrong!" She grabs her jacket and rushes out of the door.

What the fuck. What the actual fuck. What just happened? What did I say? I stand frozen at the exact spot she left me playing the scene in my head. Is she out of her mind? Where the fuck did she go? I run after her. Where in hell is she? She can't go far on foot. She is nothing but athletic, I've seen how she is trying to catch her breath every time we walk at the hallway. Where is she damn it? I am out of the frat house but I can't see her near. Fuck. I jump into the car thanking myself for having my keys still in my pocket. I decide to go left, she will most likely walk her way to the dorms. That's how stubborn she is. And I am right. She is walking fast, pissed as fuck.

"Vanessa, I am sorry. Get in." I roll the car window down.

"Leave me alone." she crosses her hands and turns her head at the other side so she doesn't even look at me.

"I said get in. Please." I keep on driving like a chicken to keep her at a close distance.

"And I said leave me alone!" She shouts still not giving me a single glare.

"I already apologized and I have no fucking idea what I did. Just get in the damn car." I try to keep my voice down. One of us needs to keep it together.

"No! Go away!" I can hear a crack in her voice.

"Okay, we are doing it the old fashion way. I am dragging you in myself." I engage the handbrake and step out of the car. In her last attempt to get away from me, she runs. That leads her nowhere though. There is no fucking way I am ever letting her go. In no time I reach her. I grab her hand to make her face me. I am so going to read the riot act to her little ass.

"What the fuck are you..." My mouth drops on the ground. She is crying. She is fucking crying. Why does my heart feel so heavy? She immediately weeps her tears off with her palm but new ones are now running down her face.

"Hey..." My voice is soft as I take a step closer.

"Let me go." she tries to take a big breath but shutters. It's like the whole world has come onto my shoulders. I lift my hand to weep her tears off her cheeks but she shakes her head and does it on her own.

"Why are you crying?" I ask and she sobs louder. Fuck. Really Nathan? What the fuck! You just made this worse! "Vanessa, hey... Look at me." She refuses to but I raise her chin up. Man, that was a bad idea. Her green eyes are damn bloodshot and her face is full of wet tracks. I can't fight this fucking weight on my chest. I feel helpless. "Let's get you inside the car."

"I don't want to!" She yells at me. "Would you just let me be?"

"Not till I see you are okay. Come on." I take her by the shoulder and guide her to the car. She fights back at first but gives in eventually. I open the passenger's door for her and quickly jump in the driver's seat. She has her back on me and I hear her quiet sobs from time to time.

"It's okay. Cry it out." I caress her back as she keeps crying her eyes out. God, I've never thought a human being is capable of that much crying. I don't know what to do or say really. I can't risk opening my mouth and throw some bullshit that fucks this thing all over again. It's been almost half an hour when she stops sobbing and starts breathing normally.

"Can you take me home?" she asks with her body still shouting me out.

"Sure. But why don't we stay here for a little longer?" I won't let her out of my sight until I reassure she is fine.

"Okay." She sighs. I tuck her hair behind her ear and slowly turn her head so she faces me. Her beautiful eyes are so light green now but at the same time so tired. I look straight into them, trying to decode them with no success. All I get is a blank stare.

"I am sorry. I am so sorry. I don't know why but I fucking am. I am sorry for real." I caress her cheek. It's still wet and warm from her tears. "Whatever bullshit I did, I promise not to do it ever again. I fucking promise, alright?" I lean my forehead against hers. "Just don't cry. Don't ever cry again. You hear me?" She nods. We stay like this for a while. Staring at each other not saying a word. I am dying to know what fucking thing shattered her but I think it's not the right time to ask.

"Will you take me home now? Please." she says softly.

"Are you feeling better?" she nods again but that's not enough answer for me this time. "I want to hear you say it." I command.

"I am better now." she tells me with more confidence.

"Okay, then. Let's get you to the dorms." I pull away caressing her cheek once more and start driving. "Do you want me to put some music on?" Music can keep her mind busy.

"If you want to." she lays her head back to the seat and closes her eyes. I turn on the radio at the last station we listened to. Fuck, it plays fucking hip hop and it's too loud. I quickly change it and try to find something relaxing and quiet. I leave it on an acoustic song some dude sings. This sound makes me think of that bony stubborn soaking wet girl I met almost 3 months ago who was desperately trying to carry a million things under the storm with a guitar among them. I laugh at myself.

"What is it?" Vanessa asks.

"Nothing. I just like the song." I shrug.

"You like Ed Sheeran?" she says surprised.

"Yeah. I like this dude. It is the first time that I hear this song of his but whatever. I fucking like it." Vanessa leaves a little laugh and I feel like my heart went back to its place.

"You're weird." she tells me amused.

"I never said I wasn't." I smirk.

"Yeah... That's true." She sighs as we reach the dorms.

"Is Alice home?" I ask.

"She must be at the gym." Vanessa checks the time on her phone.

"Do you want me to come up and wait with you until she comes?" I don't want her to be alone. Alice can cheer her up when she comes but until then what?

"It's okay. She will be here any time if she's not yet. I want to take a long bath as well."

"You should. It sounds like a good idea." It will help her relax and calm down.

"Um... Yeah... So, I am going... Thank you for the ride, Nathan." she tells me last before she opens the door and leaves. I watch her until she goes in.

Sophie's POV

It's been over 24 hours since I last saw or talked to Robin, after what happened between us, but I have to talk to her today. It's inevitable and pretty bitchie on my part not to. She is my girlfriend after all. I wait at the parking lot to her usual spot, with her favourite coffee ready and a muffin for redemption. I see her car arriving at the parking lot and my nerves are sparked. She gets out and I can tell within seconds she is moody, the question is if she is angry or not? And I hope the latter.

I approach her slowly not knowing how to greet her but the moment I get near her she speaks first.

"I am sooo sorry! I went too far, I should have stopped, I thought that you wanted it, I am so terribly sorry." She states in one breath before I say anything, looking worried and sad at the same time, pleading me with her eyes to forgive her..damn it Soph, she's been feeling like this and you ignored her! Sometimes I think I don't deserve her..not after how I have been treating her...

"Ro, stop, it's not what you think.. I am the one that should be apologizing, not you..I am sorry." I sigh frustrated. She really needs to know it was my fault. "Can we talk about it after class?" I propose and she nods.

"I got you breakfast." I give her the coffee and the muffin and she gives me her warm smile in return. She takes the muffin grinning like a wolf and cuts it in half.

"We can share." she says giving the half. She seems relaxed now, going back to my normal Robin.

After class we decide to go to the city park for a talk. We found a bench near the main fountain where most people have picnics and children play soccer or football. We sit really close to each other, our shoulders touching, but we don't hold hands or anything else due to the people around us. I do have to say that I would kill to hold her hand at the moment.

"You want to speak first?" She asks and waits for my reply. I move my body so that can face her better and so does she.

"I am sorry I left like that." I sigh looking down.

"You do have a history of leaving." She says playfully, but the vibe doesn't reach me. I do leave her I guess. "I thought you liked it, Soph. Did I go too far? Did I do something you didn't like? You can tell me." Her hand reaches mine discretely and her fingers start tracing my palm. I have to be honest about this. Stop being so freaking shy!

"That's not why I left the other day." I whisper and I pray to God she won't ask more questions, but I know that she will, so I will have to find myself a way to say it without making a fool out off me.

"Then why did you leave? Please, Soph, help me out here...I am trying my best. Please?" Her eyes are pleading me and the pout on her face makes me feel awful yet again. I take a deep breath and lower my head to avoid eye contact and then I bring my mouth to her ear. Feeling my cheeks burn, I whisper to her.

"I freaked out because I was about to........um.....damn it....I was about to....I was close." I finally say after a few excruciating seconds. After that I resume my previous position, sitting straight and looking ahead. I do not turn my head to face her. Actually I don't even see what's in front of me right now.

"Soph, turn around." I shake my head once. "Soph?" I shake my head twice. "Please?" Her voice is calm and steady. I am thinking about saying no again, but when her hand is laid on the small of my back, I dont have the strength to. So I turn.

She is smiling and her eyes are super- super bright, I think it's because of the sun, and her cheeks have a light pink shade on them. Why is she like that? This is embarrassing for me. This is killing me! She is gonna think I am way to 'virgin' for her, compared to the other girls she's been with, and she is going to break up with me. Let's face it, she is used to other levels of experience. I suck at this.

I look ahead again and hide my face in my hands, like I always do when embarrassed and wait for the break up moment as I hear two kids yell near the fountain.. Robin is gentle, she will do this as easy as possible, and I should not cry. Not in front of her at least.. She doesn't say anything though, just giggles and after a few seconds, she leans and brings her mouth to my ear, like I did before.

"Don't tell anybody...especially Sam, cause it's quite embarrassing for me and I will not hear the end of it....but..I was close too." she simply whispers and sits straight afterwards.

My eyes widen and my jaw is on the floor. That is not what I expected to hear..at all! She is not breaking up with me! She was close! Wait, she was close? Oh my god! This is amazing! Suck on that, previous bimbos! I got her close and I didn't even know what I was doing! How awesome am I? I am ecstatic! As I finish my inner monologue, I can clearly hear her giggling so I turn less stressed and awkward now, to face her.

"You were?" I ask and she nods smiling. "Me too" I say though she knows already, and I start giggling as well.

"Soph, there's nothing to be embarrassed of. It's normal. You are attracted to me and I want you as well." She winks. "Don't freak out about something like that."

"Ok...I am sorry I freaked out on you again. I am so awkward I hate it." I sigh, resigned but it.

"Are you kidding me? I love it! You are a mystery to me, always keeping me on my toes. Don't ever change!" She is staring at me with her heart eyes. Wait...she said she loves it. Love....love-love! That makes my heart swell. She didn't say like, she said love. Can I rip my heart out and give it you? You are so perfect.

I am too focused on her wording to realize the mood change. When I focus on her again she is looking at me more serious now.

"So, does that mean you want to have sex with me now?" She asks slowly, anxiously waiting for my reply.

I do want her, my body more than wants her, but I am not ready yet. I panicked because I had an almost orgasm. I don't even wanna think about how many valerianas I would have to take to calm my nerves when the time comes!

"I want to Ro, but not yet. I am still nervous about it...I am sorry. I can understand if you don't want to wait for me." No, Soph you were not supposed to say that! If she loves you, pardon, likes you, as she says she does, she will respect you. That's what happens in the movies, right?

But if I love- damn it- like her, then I have to show it to her and give her my everything, right? She will think I don't trust her, or that I don't want her enough. Damn it!

"Well I am known to be a very patient person, and I happen to like you so very much, so don't worry, pretty girl. You are my girlfriend...I want to make this perfect for you no matter how long it takes, I told you before and I say it again. I want you to feel ready and sure about it. It matters to me, ok?" I nod at this relieved...she is so understanding and kind.

"I don't know many things about it, but maybe we can do this, step by step?" I say shrugging. "I mean if you want to".

"Of course, whatever makes you comfortable. Step by step. We don't need to hurry." She takes my hand in hers and holds it tight.

"We can hug, if you want. It won't raise suspicion. Friends hug all the time." I say but regret it immediately. I am such a moron.

When I feel her arms around me, I relax.

"If we were alone I would kiss you, just so you know. I haven't kissed you all day. It sucks" She says near my ear and my cheeks redden. The butterflies are already dancing in my stomach.

"Can we go to your place? I want to kiss you too." I whisper lamely and shyly. She makes me act like such a schoolgirl! I secretly love it though. She makes me feel alive and energized. I finally have something to look for every morning. I am happy. So much happy, I don't recognize myself at times.

Like now I always pay attention at what to wear because I want to look beautiful next to her..and I put makeup on everyday! That's a progress! Or, I am more sociable nowadays, because Robin hangs out with the girls, and Nathan and the others. Its finally nice to have people greeting you genuinely goodmorning and goodnight, or asking you how you are.

Nicky is lovely and we have so much in common, Sam is making an effort, Nathan is way more likable since the first day I met him, and Vanessa is starting to be a very close friend. Not like Joss, but I think she is getting there. Alice...well we don't have many outings together, but she is cool and enjoyable, and she is friends with Ro, so we will get close eventually...

For the first time of my life I think I don't ever want to be alone. All these people are making my days full and funny. I can't believe it took me 6 years to realize that..I have been so stubborn and close minded..

"Sure, pretty girl. Let's go home." She gets up first and I follow shoot. We walk next to each other, our shoulders brushing, exchanging smiles and heart eyes as we get to our cars.

When I kiss her, a few steps inside the house, my heart beats faster and I feel complete.

Nathan's POV

I have been driving around -a God knows for how long, to clear my head out but it doesn't seem to work. For once in my life, I am completely clueless. What have I done? What did I fucking say? Vanessa was a fucking mess and I lost it. Where did this come from? Why was she acting like that? I didn't know how to react at something like that, damn it! What do you do when someone is bawling like she did? I can't explain her behavior but I can't pretend like it didn't happen because it fucking did! Is she back at crying now? What made her cry at the first place? Damn it, girls are so fucking complicated! If only someone could give me a fucking guide on how to deal with this kind of things!

Wait. That actually made some sense. Of course there is someone who has a clue on this shit. I search for Robin's number and push the call button. Neither my ΚΕΓ brothers nor my teammates can help me with this. Not even Joseph. Robin on the other hand seems like the only one who can enlighten me on what just happened with Vanessa. She is a girl after all and she deals with girls all the time. That should make her an expert.

"What up, Nate?" she picks it up almost right away.

"Hey, Ro. Where are you, gorgeous?" I try to prepare the atmosphere to ask for her girly knowledge.

"Cut the crap and tell me what you need, we both know I am gorgeous and the tone of your voice screams manipulation." Oops, she got me.

"Yeah, it's kind of an emergency. Where are you?"

"I am home with Soph. Why?" She asks puzzled.

"Um, any chance you ditch your pretty girlfriend for my ass?" I try not to sound too desperate.

"Hmmmmm....what's in it for me?" Of course she isn't gonna make it easy for me.

"Ro, I am kind of fucking losing it here. Can you meet with me? Yes or no?" I have no time for games.

"Ok...chill! When and where?"

"Like now? Can I come and pick you up?" I am already on my way to her house.

"No, I need to drop Soph home, so tell me where and I'll meet you there."

"Ok, at my place? And make it quick." I hang it up and turn the other way around to the damn frat house.

In about 15 minutes, someone knocks on my door and I rush to open it.
"I bought beers because I sensed drama here. Is someone pregnant?" she asks as she comes in.

"What? What the fuck, Ro!" I run my hand through my hair in frustration.

"Okay, that's awesome. Anything else is fixable. What happened? It sounded urgent. I had to end my date with Soph, so be quick about it, bruh!"she squats on the bed.

"Yeah, it is fucking urgent!" I yell while pacing at my room. "I mean, I am sorry I cockblocked you and Soph. Or vagina-blocked you to say it better." She got her ass here right away so I need to be polite. "So, how do I say this?Um.."

"Use your mouth, usually works" she raises an eyebrow at me. Wow, she decided to play it smart and I literally have no time for this!

"Okay! I was with Vanessa earlier and she started crying her eyes out of nowhere! I mean it! Like actually crying her fucking eyes out! One minute she was fine and then boom!" I wave my hands into the air. "Why did she do that?" I look at her waiting for a damn explanation.

"Hold up! You made Vanessa cry? Our Vanessa? I will fucking punch you!" she lifts her sleeves and prepares her fists. Wait, is she actually going to do it?

"I didn't do a fucking thing! Get your ass down, I called you to tell me why she did it, not to blame me for it!" I point at her to stay seated on the bed.

"How should I know? I've been home all day and haven't talked to her since the game?" she shrugs like she just said the most normal thing in the world. Is she fucking kidding me?

"But you're a damn girl! You should know why she cried out of the blue!" I shout. "Why do girls do that in general?"

"The obvious answer would be, pmsing. Maybe she is on her period? Or maybe her favourite cat died? I don't know, dude! You know Vanessa never bothers anyone with her feelings, that girl is an angel! Maybe something happened back home?" she brings her index finger to her chin trying to give me some possible scenarios.

"I thought about her being on those damn days of the month too! That could be a reason, right? Shit happened home, huh?" I sit on my desk's chair. I never thought of that. I have this damn thing going on with my mom which even I don't know what it is yet, it keeps bothering me from time to time. Yeah, maybe something happened back home? That could be the case.

"Yes it happens, you know she is sensitive so maybe it's about her family..when was the last time you saw her apart from today?" she hands me a beer. This can help.

"I don't know. At the game. When you guys came to congratulate me. I don't remember saying any bullshit to her then." I open the beer can and take a sip.

"So it wasn't you....maybe it's a guy problem..maybe Ashton did something?" I spit the fucking beer all over me.

"What are you fucking talking about?"

"Ummmm...you do know him right? I think he is into her, maybe he made a move?" WHAT THE FUCK!

"When? How could he do that? Did she gave him the green light or some shit?" I stand up and go over my drawer. This shirt is fucking wet!

"They kinda work together?! And I think that Vanessa being the clueless person she is, has no idea...so I don't think she gave any light." That's a good thing. I take my shirt off and grab a new. Wait! If she didn't give him any green light, that means he made a move on her without her permission! What a perv! What a fucking perv!

"Is he such a douchebag to hit on her just like that?" I try to put my shirt on but it doesn't get into my fucking head. "Damn it!" I huff but I manage to wear it eventually.

"I know him a little bit, but I can't say..I mean maybe if he was drunk or something? People are not themselves when they drink... I don't know what to tell you, bruh." She sits up and drinks some beer.

"Well, that still doesn't make it okay." What? He thinks that because he was drunk he can use it as an excuse to fucking take advantage of her? This is far worse than I expected and I am going fucking mad.

"Ok, what if instead of creating theories, you ask her what happened? Like normal people? Don't go Sophie on this. Ask her if she is ok?"

"Well, I already tried to but instead of finding the reason of her break out, I made things worse." I sit on the bed next to Robin. "What if you ask her? You know pass by her place tomorrow to check on her."

"Why do you care though? Last time I checked you guys weren't close.....so why?" She is too damn curious! Why is she asking this?

"We're kind of friends now, plus she's your friend too. Don't you want to know what's wrong?"

"There is a little something called boundaries, so no.. if she wants to tell us something, she will.. Give her time and space. She has to work it out herself first...but I will check up on her to see if she is ok. Good?" I was this close to start shouting back at her again but she saw herself what is the logical thing to do.

"Good. When will you go?"

"Tomorrow? It will seem weird for me to just happen to pass by and ask her if she is ok." Well, I don't find it weird but I decide to pretend like I do. Otherwise, Robin might get pissed and not pass by at all.

"Tomorrow is fine. Let me know when you do."

"I will, are we done here? I need to go home...too much testosterone here..I am suffocating." she eyerolls. I guess I can dismiss her now.

"Yeap, you're free to go. Thanks for coming, Ro. And for the beers." I toss my empty now can at her.

"De nada...I love how oblivious my friends are sometimes....anytime Nate, anytime. Goodnight." she salutes the commander way and goes by the door.

"Ah! And Ro! Don't tell her I asked you, obviously! Or anyone really. You know, we don't want them to freak out over something that is probably caused by some period craziness." I put my hand behind my neck.

"Of course my friend. Your secret is safe with me...if realization ever hits you and you find yourself freaking out, I am here, ok?" she pats my shoulder and leaves.

"Yeah, whatever." I don't really get what she means by that. "Bye, Ro!" I wave at her as she walks down the hallway to get out of the damn frat house.

Robin's POV

Ok, how do I randomly call Vanessa and ask her if everything is Ok with her?

Nathan assigned me with a difficult task. I was alarmed too when he told me that our sweet Vanessa cried out of the blue, so I need to know what is going on. She's my friend and if there is anything I can do to help her, I will. But what can be wrong? It can't be PMS. Vanessa wouldn't cry over this, I am sure. I am leaning towards family stuff here, after consideration. We would know if someone had hurt Vanessa at the party, so I exclude morons and lame dudes hitting on girls at parties, so the only reasonable thing would be family stuff. Hmm....I don't think family stuff is my strong suit. I am a love guru not a family one, for obvious reasons.

So I am kinda in the dark. If it is family stuff, what is it exactly? Her parents are more that in love with each other, as Vee has said a few times, but then again you never know what parents hide from their kids. Maybe they are fighting? Or something health related? Oh god, I hope not! Please god let not this be the case, Vanessa is only 18 years old and too fragile for something like that.

Ok, Ro, don't go places. It's probably nothing. Vanessa would have told us if something majored had happened. I know I don't know her very well, we've only been friends for 3 months, but I would like to think that Vanessa knows she can count on me.

I have been there for a lot of drama, in my friends' life so I can pretty much deal with a lot of things. People trust me easily and I am a certified rock for them. God knows how many times I have listen to Callie cry about some douche from class that did something lame while they were dating, or Jen complain about her mom's new boyfriend. I have bought tons of ice cream these years. I definitely need to buy ice cream for Vanessa.

I grab my phone and after I find her contact, I call her. She picks up a few rings later.

"Hey Vee!" I greet her first. I expect her to greet me so that I can adjust to the the mood she is in.

"Robin..." She coughs to clear her throat. "Hello." Under other circumstances her cheery voice would have echoed in my ears but today is not the case as it seems. "Is everything alright?" ok, sad mood, so I need to be the cheerful one.

"Hey, I happen to be available right now, and since I haven't seen you since the party I thought we could hang out. Are you in? We can go for waffles." I say hopeful.

"Oh, um that would be wonderful but um... I am not quite in the mood today. I am so sorry, Robin." She says softly.

Ok, the Jen approach did not work. She said no to waffles. Let's see if the River approach works on her. "Oh...well..that's a bummer...I had this thing going on....and I don't want to tell Sam..and I have no one else to talk to." I say softly too. That always works on River. I am sorry for the white lie though.

"Robin, are you okay?" She asks me worried. "You can talk to me of course. Why don't you come over? Is it something serious?" Oh, the River approach worked!

"Um...nothing major, I just need someone to talk to...but you know since you are not feeling well, I guess I can skype one of my friends...hope they are available." I am being a sneaky bitch. I am so sorry, Vanessa.

"No, Robin." She sighs. "Just come over, I am sure we can figure something out. Who knows, maybe this will help my mood as well. I'll be waiting for you, okay?" Bingo!

"Oh...yeah I wll be there in 15. Do you need anything from the store?" I ask not wanting to buy something that will go to waste.

"No, I am good. Thank you though. I'll just take a quick shower before you arrive. See you in a bit."

"Perfect, see you there!" I hung up and leave the house aiming to go to the store to buy chocolate cake. I know she said no, but chocolate always helps.

20 minutes later I knock on the girls' door.

"Hi, Robin!" Vanessa hugs me right away and I can say she squeezes me more than usual. "Come on in."

"Hey Vee, wow, I love what you have done with the place. It's almost as good as mine." I joke to lighten the mood. "Here, I brought chocolate."

"Oh, you didn't have to. Really. But thank you so much." She keeps avoiding eye contact with me. She is wearing a blue SCU jumper and black sweatpants. I bet she was in her pjs the moment I called and that's her attempt to look decent enough. Awww, who hurt our Vanessa?

I get inside the room and sit on Vanessa's bed which is hella comfy.

"I hope I am not a bother." I say again shrugging.

"You would never bother me, Robin. We are friends, right?" She gives me a half smile and finally lays her eyes on me. Oh God, it is bad. I can tell she was hoping the shower will make her look better somehow but it's damn obvious she has been crying her eyes out for a God knows how long.

"Yes, but you are not in a good mood. Sorry." I apologize again.

"I am better now that you're here." She shakes me with her shoulder. "And I am the one who should apologize. I will try to be a good company and help you out! Um, maybe we should try the cake?" She proposes.

"Yeah ok, I love chocolate. I hope you like it." I chime in.

"I will definitely like it." She reassures me and takes two plates from a drawer from her desk. I smile at that, and take that plate she gave me.

She cuts a piece for her and a piece for me, a huge one for me. We eat in silence for a while as I try to find a way to ask her without crossing any boundaries, what is wrong.

"So, how's Sophie? Everything okay with you two?" She asks with concern.

"Well...." I don't get to speak as Alice and Nina enter the room. Not a great timing, Alice! I look at Vanessa before the girls greet us and whisper to her if she would like to come to my place to talk.

"Sure, sorry for this, I didn't remember the girls had to work on their project. I guess I've been a little off." She whispers. "Girls, it's time for us to go."

Alice looks at us confused, but I chime in and tell her I need Vanessa for a project about women in the media. She buys it, nods her head and after we say goodbye we walk to my car. The ride home is really quiet, and it's really alarming to see Vanessa so down. We reach my house and silently again, we get in and settle to the living room.

"So..." I start.

"So..." She says at the same time. "You go first." She gives me another half smile.

"Ok, thanks....and sorry...but I lied." I tell her and she gets a confused grimace. "I wanted to talk to you, but not because I have a problem. The truth is I saw you today at camp while you were leaving class and you didn't seem like your usual self, and you know I have a lot of friends so I know when something is off. I guess what I want to say is, that you can count on me, if something is wrong." I put my hand on her shoulder.

She stays silent. At first she looks down and then at me. Then again down as she starts playing with the bottom of her jumper. Then back at me. She is really struggling with whatever is going on and how much she can share.

"Thank you, Robin. But I'll be fine." She shrugs. "I mean, I hope I'll be. I have to be. I'll definitely be." She tells me to reassure me but I think that she is trying to reassure herself more.

"Ok, I can tell something is off, and just because you know, I am the group mom, I just wanna make sure it's not health related, ok, or family related. I am not asking you to tell me what, but you know, so that I won't worry."

Her lips are starting to tremble and her eyes are showing she's about to shed the first tears. She brings her palm to her mouth to silence her sob and then takes a big breath.

"Can we..." She pauses and takes another big breath. "Can we just sit here and maybe I can cry for a little bit and you can hold me in your arms?"

That surprises me. Shit, things must be really hard for her if she needs hugs.

"Of course, Vee, come here" I open my arms for her and hug her the moment she is in my arms. We sit in silence as I caress her back to calm her down. It breaks my heart to see her like this, but she is strong. And even if she is not, we are all here for her. She reminds me of Viv like this. Hugs always make her feel better.

"I think that's enough." She says after a couple of minutes and breaks the hug. "I don't want to be a cry-baby." She weeps her tears off her face as a fade laugh escapes from her lips.

"Hey, no worries, crying has healing properties. I cry all the time. It's quite therapeutic, you will probably feel a little better after that. It will help you think clearer." They taught us that at Psychology 101, last year.

"That would be ideal. My head's a mess." She admits and tucks her hair behind her ear. "I am so sorry Robin, I didn't want you to see me like this, that's why I tried to avoid you at first when you called."

"That's totally ok, I lied to get you to talk to me, so we are even." I smirk.

"Yeah, I guess we are. Please, don't tell anything about this to Alice. I don't want her to worry about me. It's nothing really." She shakes her head and looks down once again.

"Gay scouts honor!" I exclaim putting my hand on my heart.

"I guess I can count on that." She tells me smiling. "It's really nothing but it's so messed up. Nathan saw me crying too yesterday." She wipes her nose with a tissue that she had on her sweatpants' pocket. This girl was so prepared to cry her eyes out. At least she told me about Nathan.

"I am sure he is worried too." keep it low, Ro.

"I don't want him to be worried. Or you. Or anybody. I know I'll be feeling better tomorrow. For sure." She nods her head multiple times, but I don't agree with her moto.

"Well people that care about you, worry even if you don't want them to." I say speaking for myself and Nathan of course.

"Yeah, I guess." She shrugs. "I'm just having a bad week, that's all. Let's talk about something else, I can use some distraction. How are things with Sophie?"

"Hahah, ok, I will distract you. Sophie and I are doing great. We had an issue but we talked about it." I can't tell Vee about the sex talk I had with Soph, so I find other people to gossip about. After that I put on a comedy which makes her laugh a few times, and then when it's over, I drive her to the dorms. I watch her walk inside thinking that I really wish she can solve whatever the matter is.

Vanessa needs to be herself again.

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