You say to choose
Do I have to?
Will I be a boy?
I change
You refuse to use my names
"It sounds like multiple personalities"
"If you're not making money I refuse to call you by a Ninja Turtle"
You refuse to use my pronouns
"I won't use they
there's only one of you"
"Your sister..."
And yet you claim to support me
You know my school allows me
to use the facilities I identify with
Yet forbade me
from using them
for safety
I want make-up
To look more masculine
Yet you won't let me
cause I have a pretty face
You said if I wasn't
as attractive as I am
I could possibly pass
For a young boy
Not a young man
If only you could understand
That I change my look
For comfort
Would you back me more financially
Instead of going on
about me getting a job
If you knew
Then maybe
It wouldn't be so hard
Living with you
I'm out
But only part way
Because each time you say something
That doesn't correspond to me
I want to correct you
But you're moving too fast for me
Yet too slow
I know it won't happen over night
More effort would be nice
My brothers are young
They'll question
I'll answer
And life will continue
But before it's too late
For them to know the truth
And the stigma of others
Has been adopted as theirs
Say something
Or I shall do it for you
You don't mean to
But you make home
Feel like a battle zone
and it's harder for me
To stay there
Much less breathe
I love you
You love me
I know
We hurt each other sometimes
Without meaning to
But can we try to remember?
What makes each other tick
Then maybe home
Won't be so bad
For a genderfluid chick