Please do read the authors note. I know they are random but I like talking to you guys and I take time writing them. So please do.

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You smile when you're happy.

You cry when you're sad.

What if I told you... that people smile when they are sad.

You're forced to put a brave smile for the sake of others. Close up yourself and hide what you truly feel for other. You aren't a robot. You are human. A human with feelings and the right to cry. Your gender shouldn't stop you. Your age shouldn't stop you. Bottling up feelings would only make it worse.

You won't be a rebel for acting up and throwing a tantrum at the age of 17. You would be human. If a 5 year old throws a tantrum, then they're just being kids. Kids who want something, and every adult will do anything to find out what happened.

But, when you're a teenager... and you throw a fit.

What happens?

You get scolded for expressing your needs. You get grounded for acting up. Your parents don't give you the same amount of love as they used to... so you do anything to make them notice what you do. It's human nature to want attention.

You end up crying in silence... all alone. Your real smile lessons while your fake one becomes near perfect. You end up being lonely and end up feeling trapped inside no matter what you do. Everything you do is deemed stupid and time wasting. You lose hope in everything to the point you feel like running away.

You cry alone.

You smile alone.

It's a vicious cycle, really.

It's the same thing over and over again until you get used to it. Nothing bothers you anymore. The bit of hope you held on... maybe something can change... will be lost.

Sometimes... loneliness tends to be your most trustworthy companion.

Source: personal experience

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Yup, Accalia is back with the pretty text dividers. I don't know... I like them way too much.
Anyways this one.... was something. Wasn't it?
Ok, I'll admit it... so I'm gonna post this Monday morning... hopefully. And as I'm writing this note right now. It's Sunday night. And let's just say I wasn't in the best of moods...
I know this isn't your typical... motivational write up or anything... sorry about that. I just couldn't make this one motivational...
Sometimes the author herself feels like she needs motivation. But eh, I turned it into a weird... sad... I don't know what kind of write up.

Now about the abiding bit... I mean... I was upset when I wrote this so I don't really think you should abide by this...

I've received two more lovely write ups/stories from two of you guys. Hi 👋🏻 and thank you so much. Those will be up soon. If you want, feel free to send it to my email.
Email: [email protected]

As for the updating pattern. Before, I was putting up two updates per week. But stopped because of exams. Since exams got postponed I won't be going back to that pattern. Why? Exams get postponed and Accalia decides to take a shit ton of work on her. Yup, I do too much plus if I upload a lot I'll run out in no time.

Shit, I'm writing too much. Final things before I end this. I love you guys so much. More than you can ever imagine. I thought this was going to flop but because of you all... it didn't. So thank you so much. And if you need to talk or want me to write on a particular topic. I'm right here, ain't going anywhere.

I've further talked about fake smiles and crying hindered with gender in my story. Feel free to check it out. It's from a guy's POV (mainly) and just because you're a guy... that doesn't mean you can't have emotions. Keep that in mind will you.

This has been your lovely, annoying author as always. Take care and see you all in the next write up.

Adios.