I don't want to need someone. It's too exhausting to wonder what you're doing when you're absent. Especially in the times I haven't heard from you consistently like I used to. I hate thinking of you constantly and counting down the days till I might see you again. I never want to be the girl that chooses a guy over her friends. And yet I'm manifesting cancelling Friday plans because you want to see me. I still want to be my own person. I don't want to become yours.