Hey listen im sry about everything i feel like Im being shredded like paper and idk how to stop acting im one person when im not I've never shown anyone who I really am and now it feels like I am a totally different person from who I really am it feels like Im not me I feel like im just watching as my life goes to shit but I also feel like Im not here at all I show almost no real emotions unless you are someone who had my heart I feel like I have nothing inside I don't feel my heart beat and I don't feel my head think everything just happens without warning it feels like Im a pychotic person I feel like a failure and I definitely feel like I should die