This does mention anxiety so read with caution...

I'm nervous.

I really am.

Anxiety keeps building up in my chest and I'm afraid of having a panic attack.

Anyway...

KHG, I'm sorry for not saying anything before, but I keep on forgetting to tell you guys.

...

I having a grad party/going away party this Sunday and guess who is showing up?

That's right...

My father.

I have not talked to him for almost four years and now he's coming to my party (with my consent, of course). My mom told him that if he wanted to fix his relationship with me that he should buy something from Bed Bath and Beyond and come to my party...

And he's doing it...

But I am so scared.

I am trying my hardest not to have a panic attack right now.

I can't tell if I'm happy he's coming or if I'm scared or if I'm angry...

I just don't know.

It scares me.

I don't want to wait four hours for the man who I haven't seen in four years not come at all.

I don't know how to think.

I'm overthinking.

I'm sorry.

Help me...

Please.

Help me.

Remember that I love you all.

-Maddie🐶💕🎤