I'm going to be honest for a moment and say something.

I'm going to sound like a loser and a loner and a nobody for saying this, but here's the truth...

Allie, Cara, Haley, Jaelynn, Kyah, Nikki, and Sydney are my first real group of friends.

That's right.

My first group of friends were over the Internet.

Am I complaining?

Heck no!

I love all of them.

But here's the thing...

I was the kid everyone hated in school.

Everyone picked on me for everything.

From the clothes I wore to my weight, someone always had to say something to me to make me insecure and hate myself.

My best friend was friends with two other girls that made my elementary life miserable.

They hated me and talked about me behind my back to my friend and they always took her away from me.

I get very jealous with stuff like that so I'm sorry if I ever seem like I'm hateful towards any of my friends. I'm trying not to, I promise. It's just hard to see.

Anyway, when I was in fourth grade, I only had one friend  (my best friend) who I rarely hung out with and that's when I finally realized how much people hated me.

They made a game called 'Madison Germs' and if someone had 'Madison Germs', they will try to tag someone to make them have the germs.

Everyone involved got in trouble, but it hurt.

The bullying was not as bad in fifth grade (to my knowledge), but in sixth grade, that was when I body shamed for the first time (once again, to my knowledge).

A group of boys said I looked pregnant.

While I was right behind them.

I wanted to burst into tears and hurt them, but I couldn't.

I was too weak.

And I hated myself.

Fast forward to seventh grade, I was bullied by a black girl and Assyrian girl. With every chance they had, they made sure to make fun of me.

And I cried every time, which only made the bullying worse.

Luckily, the bullying stopped and was not bad in eighth grade to twelfth grade, but I knew I was lacking something.

And that was friendship.

I didn't have any friends.

That is, until, a story caught my eye on WattPad.

The story was called 'The President's Son' and that was the start to the mother-daughter relationship Kyah's and I have.

Fast forward a bit more and I commented something funny on a story and that was the start to my and Jaelynn's friendship.

A bit more of going into the future and a MTF Mitch/Michelle story caught my eye and that was when I became friends with the love of my life, Haley.

A couple more visits in the future when I commented some theories that went along with TAATO (at the time) and I met my other children Nikki and Syd.

Back when I was struggling with the Different series and made my final decision, an angel commented on my story and told me that she supported my decision and that was when Cara and I became 'the moms' of our g.c.

Lastly, Kyah invited the last person in our group and before we knew it, Allie was the last addition to our group and we couldn't be anymore happier.

Through every laugh fast...

Cry fest...

Arguement...

Anger...

Misunderstanding...

We have all managed to stay friends and stay as a family.

We might not be the same as we used to, but what matters is that we all love each other and I hope that we all think the same.

I love you all.❤

BoopBoopOakley

FirstThingsFirst33

hxley_ann

nikkijune

queeninmakin

RoseGoldHeart

WillowThunder44

But before I end, there is one person I have to thank.

This person was my first Internet friend.

LoveCarousel...

You are my angel.

My daughter.

My sunshine.

You mean so much to me and I cannot thank God enough for putting you in my life.

You complete me.❤

These seven people  (yay, gender neutrality!) have changed my life for the better.

Thank you.❤

Remember that I love you all.:)

-Maddie🐶💕🎤

P.S: Also, to Kitty4941, thanks for being my advice giver. You're amazing, my beautiful darling.😊