Well...

My days have been full of stress this past January.

If you guys don't know, my college does something called 'Jan Term' and it's pretty much a month were you can choose to do a three-hour class or field experience that goes towards your major.

A field experience is something that you get to do off campus and you actually get to go places based on the credits you need for your major.

(I went to an elementary school for mine.😊)

Anyway, with that being said...

I just haven't...happy these past few weeks.

Let me explain why.

It started off with some news I got and someone I love dearly only has a few months to live.

Then it started when that whole comment fiasco happened with me and a couple others.

Then one of my closest Internet friends hasn't talked to me in over a month and I want to scream every time I think about it.

And I now I have a lot of stuff to do to enter the education program in order to do more field experiences and it's just...

It's hard.

It's so hard being an adult and having to do all of this stuff.

I can't complain because I chose to do this and I chose to do something with my life, but I just want time to stop.

I want to relax and forget my responsibilities.

Enjoy time while it lasts, my loves.

Also...

I just hope my friend talks to me again.

I miss her horribly.

She hasn't talked to me in over a month and I hate it.

Whatever. It must have been my fault anyway.

It always is.

And always will.

Remember that I love you all.

-Maddie🐶💕🎤