Hello, everyone.

Before I start this, I will just like to say that this talks about depression and anxiety. Read with caution, loves.

Anyway...I'm going to tell you story.

Back in May, I became friends with five people. These people became my closest friends and I couldn't be anymore grateful.

Then in a few months, another person was added and another few months passed and we added yet another person.

And I loved it.

But I never knew how much this chat would have both made me emotionally and mentally exhausted.

First of all, I thought I had everything I needed in that chat. Now I feel like I'm only there as someone who has to be there.

It sucks.

Second of all, I felt like I was part of a family that made me happy and loved. Now I feel like the cousin that everyone dreads to see/talk to yet they feel obligated to talk to them.

And lastly...

I felt like I was found, but now I feel like I'm lost. All those feelings I had that were positive because of the chat are now negative because of the chat.

I feel like I'm overreacting and extraggeraring, but I guess that's what happens when your mind is full anxious and sad thoughts that are determertial to me and anyone else who feels lonely or ignored in that chat.

Do I feel sorry for leaving that chat?

No, I do not.

I really don't.

My mental health comes first and if there is a chance that I have anxiety and/or depression  (my mom has anxiety and depression and my grandma has depression), then being in that chat will not be good for me.

At all.

There is, however, a chat that makes me feel loved, not ignored. These four amazing people are my angels and I am so thankful for them. There are also two others from the chat that I talked about that are angels, even if I don't talk to them a lot.

I will not regret leaving that chat, I won't.

I refuse to do so.

And I am not sorry for it.

And that is good for me.

Remember that I love you all.

-Maddie🐶💕🎤