should I even ask you about last night's episode?

I ask her wearily. my friend looks up

from her book, her tired eyes are

hinting countless sleepless nights

but she mutters. "it was okay. I saw the last one too."

as her best friend, I probably should have known

that it wasn't tv watching that kept her up but I never saw her wrists

and her painful doodles didn't show.

my tv isn't working

she announces before I can say a word,

"Internet." I tell her and she looks at me

like I have said something absurd.

"god damnit," she mutters. even her words sound half dead,

"I'm sick of you bugging me

all the time."

I don't ask her about last night's episode

and she doesn't talk about why

she snapped at me.

.