Life is weird right now for me. To get started I think I have a crush on this one guy but I don't know for sure because my emotions suck and I can't tell what I feel. My best friends got back together and so now I feel lonely. And I'm scared of high school. To be honest I don't want to go. The only reason I did in the first place was because my Grandpa wanted me to, and many of you know he's no longer here. I'm hungry but I don't want to eat and I really just want to stay in bed, write off of Wattpad, and play Mystic Messenger so I don't feel lonely.

That's right guys. Becca's depressed and suicidal again. Yay... I ended up crying to the girl I sit next to on the bus about how I was scared I was going to kill myself when I got home. Luckily she calmed me down. Right now I have nothing to look forward to besides working on school 24/7 and being the "smart girl" that I've been labeled as. I feel like a tool not a person. I feel like I don't even live. I feel like I'm just... there.

Here's a poem for your troubles.

Glitter on the Dance Floor

There's glitter on the dance floor
A knife in my hand
People run and scream, at what I don't know
Someone looks at me and asks if I'm alright
I'm confused and walk away
He stares and backs away
My makeup smudged, and my lipstick tasting like wax
My eyes gold and purple as mascara ran down my face
Tears, that's all I feel as glitter pours onto the dance floor
My dress is covered, the skirts ruffled
I cry out for help but it's too late
I'm dead, laying in the pool of glitter on the dance floor