[21] Tinker
Billie Joe's P.O.V
I sat in Tre's house with Tre only. Mike was with Addison and I believe that Payton was with violet. Which sort of left the two of us.
"So what is it you wanna talk about?" He asked me as he opened up the beer can in his hand and sat back down on the sofa beside me.
"I've got this huge problem Tre." I sighed. "I need your help."
"Sure, What is it?"
"It's Payton."
"Whats happened?" He asked me.
"Nothing happened. And that's the problem. Nothings happened and I feel like I'm waiting on something that never will happen. I really really like this girl Tre. She's like- she's like a- a- a-" I struggled to think of something to say. "A weakness. That's it, she's like some sort of weakness of mine. She makes me happy, she makes me laugh. She understands me. But as much as I like her. God, she makes me sad."
"She does?" He asked.
"Yeah, I mean it's the whole situation that's killing me. Sometimes I get the feeling she feels the same way, but other times I get mixed signals. And I keep trying to hide my feelings but I think I'm making it worse for myself." I sighed.
"So... let me just get this straight. You like Payton, you want to be with Payton, sometimes you think Payton likes you, but you can't have Payton?"
I nodded. "Sometimes it makes me just want to cry. I could cry about it because she owns my heart at this point. I would do anything for her. I think I- I- I think I love her Tre."
"Really?"
"Yeah."
"Billie this is amazing!" He said putting the beer can down for a second. "You've finally found a girl who you love."
"But Tre I can't have her! The worst thing is being in love with something you can't have. But I can't explain to you how badly I want her."
"Y'know she definitely likes you though."
"But what if she doesn't love me. I love her. I adore her. I can't even find the words to explain how I feel about her: I love hers not enough. But she's out of my reach. Tre, what do I do?" I asked desperately.
He looked at me. "You sure you wanna hear?"
I nodded.
"You have to tell her,"
"But what if I fuck it up?"
"Billie you can't keep these feelings inside. She obviously feels the same way about you. Do you really want to live with 'almost'?" He asked me.
"No, I guess your right. This just hurts, it really really hurts. Is it suppose to hurt this much?" I asked him.
"If you've never felt your soul being torn in half, then you've never loved anyone with all your heart."
I sighed. "As much as you're an idiot you do give some good advice." I laughed.
"Thanks," he chuckled as he punched my arm softly.
"Alright. Well, I'm gonna head back to mine and plan this out." I said getting up. "Thanks for letting me talk to you."
"It's alright Beej," Tre said as he also got up. He walked me to the door as we said goodbye. And then that's when I began to head back to my house to plan how the fuck I was gonna do this.
Tre's P.O.V
Once Billie walked out the door, almost a moment afterwards the familiar face of Violet walked in with her lips curled up into her signature sweet little smile.
"Well hello there," I smiled as she walked perfectly into my arms and I held her for a second. Hugging her.
"Hey Tre," she smiled looking up to me.
"I didn't know you were coming round today."
"Actually this was a last-minute choice." She said as I let go of her.
"Is was?" I asked as I sat down on the sofa. She nodded.
"Yeah, can I ask you something?" She asked me. Looking fairly awkward. My mind began to almost go into overdrive panicking as I nodded. "Do you think it would be... Wrong, to tinker with a relationship between two people?"
I let out a breath I hadn't realized I was holding inside of me. Then I realized what she had said as I gave her a questionable look. "You wanna tinker?" I asked.
"Yeah, you know, changing something."
"Well, I guess it depends what way you wanna 'tinker' with y'know?" I shrugged.
She nodded. "Well, what about in a way to help?"
"So why would that be wrong?"
"So let's say the two people I want to tinker between aren't supposed to be a thing. But they both obviously want to. So if I helped them see the other person also wants that would that be good by helping my friends or bad by ignoring the rules?" She asked me.
I had fallen in love with violet for many reasons. One was that she was different from me. She wasn't going getting drunk or finding herself in trouble at school. The only times she went to party's she stayed sober. She always wanted to help but was scared she would do wrong. And She always askes me what was wrong or not because she trusts that I knew what was wrong. She was quite possibly the only thing that stopped me from getting into too much trouble sometimes.
"I guess it would all depend on other things like why they can't be together," I said.
"But what if they both want to, and could perfectly be if say there was a threat there that they didn't?"
"Are you referring to Beej and Payday?" I asked her.
"Yes,"
"Violet, what have I said? We cant get involved with whatever it is between the two of them because it's obviously complicated."
"But Tre! It's so obvious how in love they both are! Payton is so blindly in love that she doesn't even know what to do anymore! She really loves Billie and I don't think Billie knows that. But the thing between them is Billie loves her! But she doesn't know it! It's like: she loves him more than he'll ever know. And he loves her more than he'll ever show. And it's almost a Tragedy, I mean it is! You look at the love between them and hear that they can't be together and think: what a tragedy."
"I know it sucks to sit back and watch two of our friends get hurt. But we can't help the situation unless we kill off paydays mom or something."
She laughed slightly. "Not a bad call."
"Violet,"
"What?"
"We need to leave it."
She looked at me suspiciously up and down. Like she was trying to find something. "But you always wanna tinker with things between the guys and I know you know they should be together-" she cut herself off as she gasped loudly and covered her mouth like she was absolutely shocked by something.
"No!"
"You've already tinkered without me... Haven't you,"
"No!" I said again quickly as she kept her eyes glued to me. Her eyes looking at me the way she knew I didn't like them to. Waiting for me to give in, "maybe... Okay yes, I did! Just stop looking at me like that!"
She stopped as she smiled instead satisfied that she had broken it out of me. "Okay so fess up big guy. What did you do?" She asked me.
"Alright fine. Billie may have been here before you. And he kept talking about how in love with Payton he is and he looked deadly serious violet! You should have seen him! He had this look in his eyes when he was talking about her! It's the type of look he gets in his eyes only when he's singing at Gilman, or when he's talking about his dad. Two things he loves and he had that light in his eye talking about her! He really loves her i couldn't just do nothing!"
"So what did you do?"
"I..." I sighed lightly. "I told him to tell her."
"What!"
"You even said they need to know how each other feels!" I said quickly backing myself up with her own words.
"Yes, but we were suppose to tinker together! Not just you!" She laughed slightly. Obviously not staying angry.
"What can I say," I smiled proudly. "Just call me Tinker."
"Alright, Tinker."
"Hey I didn't- I didn't mean that."
"So what now? They confess they love each other and are both left in more heart aching agony hearing how much the other loves them and they can't have them. So what's our- or should I say your next move, Mr Tinker?"
"Hey stop calling me that,"
"What's your next move Tre?"
"I didn't think that far ahead..." I confess.
"And this is why you're not supposed to Tinker with things without me. You only think so far ahead and then you get stuck. What would you do without me huh?".
"Why? You got a plan smartass?"
"Actually I do. And it goes a little something like this..."
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