Chapter 18 – Daph's POV

Let It Be

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"What would you say is my most attractive feature?" I ask the second the front door opened.

"Well, hello to you too Daph," Trevor answers, looking a little surprised.

I walk into the house while he closes the door behind me. "Sorry, hi Trevor, how are you? I've decided to do a survey on all of my previous sexual partners and you're the first one I'm interviewing," I tell him in a rush, wanting that answer now.

Trevor grins. "Because I was your first."

"You'll never know," I reply deadpan.

"Oh I know," he answers and wiggles his eyebrows.

I pat his cheek, unaffected. "Trevor, my sweet boy, answer the question."

He shrugs a shoulder. We were still in the entry of his house. I could hear his parents arguing in the kitchen. Those guys always argued.

"What's wrong? Are you doubting your sex appeal? Because I can assure you, you are and have always been irresistible," Trevor answers, like a well-trained boy.

I grin. "Keep talking like that and I might do more than just a survey."

He snorts. "Shut your mouth."

I bite my lip, not meaning to. "Shut it yourself."

Trevor makes a circle motion towards my face. "No filter, absolutely none. I have no idea how Fred manages to stay stoic all the time around you."

"Fred is a special breed," I agree.

Also, I assume that after all this time, Fred is desensitized. He's been around me enough to not be surprised anymore.

"Fred is exhausted all the time, that probably helps," Trevor trails, like he is actually thinking about it. "But seriously, what's this all about?"

"I think my choice in men is very poor at the moment, and I just need to sit down and reflect a bit," I admit.

I'm going to get into the specifics though. I just need to go around the boys I'd bang and see what my problem was.

Why Flea Market Boy was stuck in my head this much. And why I didn't feel in control around him.

"And you need to know how irresistible you are?" Trevor asks, laughing.

"Yes. A hundred percent yes," I grin.

Trevor crosses his arms over his chest. "Well, the whole no filter thing helps. You say exactly what you want. There's not playing around. That's nice. Your confidence is pretty sexy. Also, you know you look good."

"Trevor, you beautiful, beautiful boy," I tell him, patting his cheek again.

Cameron walked into the hallway at that point, glaring at us. "Fucking hell Daph. That's not Trevor, I'm Trevor."

I freeze. "What?"

"This is fucking hilarious," the twin I'd been speaking with says, bending down and laughing hysterically.

"Are you SHITTING me Cameron Jones, you fucking bitch," I snap, shaking his shoulder.

"How long did she believe you were me?" the twin that has just join us, Trevor apparently asks his brother.

"You guys are playing around. This isn't true. I didn't actually mix you two, did I?" I tell them. What the hell? I can't possibly have mixed them up. I slept with Trevor for fuck's sake.

"You did. You really did," the twin I'd been talking to, Cameron, not Trevor says, still laughing.

He grabs my hand before I can punch him.

I pull it out of his grasp and pressed my head against the wall beside me. "I want to die..." I whine, and then raise my head and glare at the twins, "but like only after I kill you both."

"Sorry, you just sprung your questions on me without a hello. I felt like it was fair game," Cameron says, pressing his lips together to keep from laughing.

I glare at him. "I will murder you Cameron."

"Ten seconds ago, you wanted to do other things," he says, and lets out a whistling laugh.

I kick him. He dodges it.

"Twins in your body count? Really?" Trevor asks, not impressed.

"Yeah, but not in that body count, in the other, more murdery one," I inform him. If they keep this up, they'll need ot sleep with one eye open.

"Daphnee is very savage tonight," Cameron points out.

"Oh, jeez, I wonder why? Dipshit,2 I try kicking him again. He dodges again.

"Alright, I'll leave you two love birds," he says and runs away.

I kinda raise my hand to punch him, glaring at his back as he runs away. And then I turn my gaze on the other twin. I glare at Trevor

He raises his hand sin defense. "Hey, I'm not the one who messed with you, it was Cameron, I had nothing to do with it."

"But you have the face of the traitor. I can't forgive it," I tell him.

He nudges me with his elbow. "Come on, stop being mad."

I raise my eyes, running my hands over the top of my head. "Ugh."

"What's up?"

"I don't feel like talking about it now," I say, ready to turn around and walk out of this house.

This was a bad idea.

Only Flea Market Guy can fix the problems I have with Flea Market Guy. I should accept this and just deal with him this weekend.

"Come on, lay it on me," Trevor says, making gimme gestures with his hands.

I shake my head. "Nah. It's fine. This was stupid."

"She wants to know what you think is her most attractive feature," Cameron says, passing by the hallway again.

"I WILL KILL YOU AND FUCKING BATHE IN YOUR BLOOD CAMERON!" I yell after him, "Don't test me you traitor."

"Oh yeah, it's that rage for me," Trevor says, shaking his head.

I slap his stomach. He laughs, sort of crossing his hands over it to protect it a little too late. "I'll bathe in your blood too." I threaten him.

Trevor narrows his eyes. "What brought this on? Has someone rejected you?"

"No, not really. But we're like dancing around each other and I don't feel like I'm leading the dance," I admit without realizing it.

He nods like this make sense. "And that's scary for you, not having control."

"Who likes not being in control," I answer, defensively.

He shrugs. "Some people don't mind. You do though. You always like to be in charge."

"I know what I want, what's wrong with that?"

"No, no, it's not a problem to know what you want. I mean if something doesn't go the way you want it, you just sort of... drop it. If you can't control it, you don't want it. It's the reason why I think you've never let yourself fall in love with anybody. Because you can't control that."

I let out a pained sound. "Jesus, when did you have time to do that analysis?"

Trevor smiles, but it's a little sad. "When you decided not to date me."

"Sorry about that..." I answer sheepishly.

"Don't worry about it," he answers, shrugging again. "It's fine really. I kinda knew from the start. I don't regret it for one bit either. And I don't think we would have been right for each other anyway. But yeah. Sometimes you need to let go Daph."

"I let go," I reply.

Trevor rolls his eyes, unimpressed. "I don't mean doing silly unpredictable things. I mean letting yourself feel things even if it means getting hurt."

I snort. What an idiotic thing to say. "Who wants to get hurt?"

"It's the price to pay if you want to find the real deal."

"I don't like you like this. CAMERON!" I yell," "Come back here and tell me I'm sexy when I'm being confident!"

Trevor laughs. I can hear Cameron laugh too in another room. "Sure, but he doesn't know what you look like naked, so his opinion doesn't count."

"My opinion counts. For all you know she thought I was you once," Cameron says, joining us again, a bag of Doritos in his hands, munching on a chip.

I glare at him. "Cameron, thread fucking lightly."

The bastard smooched his lips at me. "Don't worry, I'm joking. If we slept together, you'd have noticed the difference. You'd remember."

"You're both useless," I whine and turn around, ready to leave now. I hadn't expected to stick around anyway.

"Hey, wait. Where are you going?" Trevor asks laughing.

"I'm going to see the next guy on the list. Maybe he won't be telling me bullshit," I reply.

"Truth hurts baby!" the twins say together in the exact same tone of voice.

I flip them off. "Burn in hell, both of you!" I yell and leave their house, not without laughing a little bit alone the second I step out though.

Idiots.

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A/N: Hey guys! Sorry if this is a little later than I intended. Today was a little eventful! If you haven't seen it yet, I Sold is getting published by Wattpad Books! :D So I've been distracted reading and answering all of your kind and encouraging words. (I talk about it more in dept in the live I did today on my Instagram at instagram,com/kaygiard if you want to know more details)

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