Me and Emily talked for hours, in the short time we spoke I learned more of magic than I have in almost 800 years of living her understanding of it gave me insight into why she was so powerful a witch and I knew with her help that I could help Elena get home. Especially if I save her, she didn't know it yet but they would burn her and 100 other witches in this town but I can save them, I can save her, if I do that I know she would take me to the willow. For the 1st time in 300 years I was hopefully again about the tree, it almost scared me how happy I was if only for a moment to be so close to the tree. I sat in my house looking at the billow in front of me wondering why I had been so happy. Did part of me still wish to go home? Had I buried that desire so deep in me when I lost my magic that now when I see embers of it in Emily that desire has resurfaced? The answer there was so obvious but I refused to say it. To let it be true.

"Bon, what is it" I heard from behind me turning to look back at Kol who stood in the doorway watching me carefully "That girl from the party... she is a Bennett witch, she knows of the tree, believes that she can help me find it, apparently many Bennetts have taken interest in finding it going back 1000 years ago when Ayanna first mentioned it to me. Bennetts are drawn to it, and Emily thinks on her travels with Katherine that she may have gotten close. Of course she's not sure whether or not to help me because I'm a vampire now, but I believe I know a way to completely convince her" he smiled "That's great then. I shall send a letter to Elena and tell her the good news. She can go home" I smiled faintly and looked back at the fire "You do not want her to go" I didn't answer and he came over kneeling beside me moving a stray hair from my face "It's more than that isn't it? You wish to go with her don't you" I turned my gaze to him now and shook my head "I do not know what I want" he nodded and looked down he turned my hand over in his kissing the back softly before standing up.

 "200 years of searching for this tree again I knew this would come. I knew that the stronger the leads got the closer to really having the tree in grasp that your resolution to stay would falter" I sighed "I still wish to stay I just cannot deny the small yearning in my heart to go home" he nodded and looked back at me "I know that's why I'm doing this, I know all those years ago I made you choose but to be fair it's because I didn't fully understand but now that I do, I cannot with the same conviction demand you to stay. You don't belong here, none of this was supposed to happen, it was not to be that we would know each other in this time like this. I will help you go home my love, and I know that when you do I will not remember these beautiful 800 years but you will remember them for me. I have stolen many years from you I can make this sacrifice for you now" I listened to him talk tears streaming down my face, I had never had anyone make a huge sacrifice for me, I'd always been the one sacrificing, giving up everything, to have him say this to me I never loved him more. 

I grabbed his face and pulled him into a sweet kiss, I never doubted how much I loved him, this man was my heart in human form. It would break me to leave him but he was right, I didn't belong here. And now with his blessing I feel comfortable admitting it. This trip to Mystic Falls like, I knew it would, opened up a dark desire I had so desperately tried to ignore, but I don't have to anymore. Kol sent the letter to Elena and now all we had to do was wait. Let Katherine's little scheme play out no matter how much I wanted to interfere. I had to let it happen or I would never be able to "save" Emily and have her help us. When the day came I could almost feel the dark energy, if I was witch still I know I would have, I woke with a jolt to screams to men putting people in cages, women, men, all manner of folk. I watched in horror from my window with Kol wrapped in my arms. He whispered in my ear how he would make sure that they didn't come anywhere near us.

I leaned against him desperate for comfort I would've stayed inside the entire time if I hadn't seen what I did. Pearl and Anna walking the streets scared and confused, I moved before I had even knew where I was going. I could hear Kol coming after me trying to stop me but I wouldn't be stopped. She wouldn't be taken tonight not if I could help it, I grabbed Pearl's arm pulling her from Jonathan who she was on the path to talking to "Do not!" I said shaking her furiously "Are you out your mind he's on the counsel" she shook his head "He loves me he would never-" I cut her off  "He hates our kind if he finds out that you're a vampire he will give you up" she shook her head and tried again to go and talk to him I pinned her against the wall and she glared at me for using my strength against her a promise I had swore never to break "Please take Anna and go" she growled and pushed me off about to go when Kol pinned her to the and compelled her to do as I asked. In a flash they were gone and it was only me and Kol "She will hate me forever for making her do that" I whispered to myself leaning against the wall as that truth sunk in.

"At least she will be alive. Besides, you're going home, she won't even remember this" I sighed and nodded walking with him back to the house only to freeze seeing a man outside of our home. Jonathan. Kol walked up to him but I grabbed hold of him pulling him back from the man, it was too late he noticed us and was coming this way. I was panicked I knew what he held in his hand he would out us if he got close enough for that compass to scan us. I pointed over at the Salvatore House and as they carried out Katherine and yelped causing his attention to pull away from us. While he was distracted we vanished watching from afar as the town burned the vampires, or at least so they thought. To see all this in action, to be here for the betrayal, I understood now why the tomb vampires wanted so desperately to kill all the members of the counsel. The screams were so haunting and frightening we left shortly after unable to take the noise. 

"You know how the humans fear us" I nodded "Rightfully so but it's just sad to see people burn for just trying to live with the cards they'd been dealt" he nodded and sighed absent-mindedly running his fingers through my hair "Forget all of that now darling, we're safe" I nodded kissing him softly appreciating the moment with him. In the morning I looked for Emily everywhere, I knew she survived all this but I wasn't sure how to find her or where she could be. I gave up after a while I'm sure when the time came I would find her or she would find me, without Katherine leading her around she had no place else to really be. Walking around town was lonely without Pearl but I did what I had to, she would've been sealed up and starved for all that time, no reason for her to suffer like that. The thoughts of my second oldest friend brought me back to thoughts of Elena, I wonder if she missed me. Likely not since she's known where I was and refused to come see me. 

"Bonnie" I froze in place turning to Jonathan Gilbert "Jonathan" I said calmly, last I saw him we ran from him, he had that compass and even now I could hear it ticking in his pocket "The town is much quieter now wouldn't you say" I nodded "It is indeed, peaceful, in light of everything that happened last night I would say kind of strange" he frowned and shook his head "No that is precisely why it is so peaceful now, now all the evil has been driven out of this town. But I have not come to discuss such things I wished to ask of my dearest Pearl, I haven't seen her at all and I was hoping you would know where she'd gone off to" I sighed and looked down, in a way I felt bad for what I was about to say to him but at the same time he would've had her carted away like a animal muzzle and all. His love for her was mere infatuation "She took Anna and left last night, after the horrors that took place she couldn't bare to stay" he frowned and sighed "She just doesn't understand but I would love to explain it to her you'll tell her that I want to explain" I thought about it what my next answer should be but I realized mid thought that the ticking was getting louder and Jonathan was getting closer.

"Is that one of the Fels" spotting one walking into city hall, Jonathan turned his attention to where I was looking and I took the chance to dip away leaning up against the wall in an alley breathing heavily. Keeping your identity a secret with that stupid compass is so god damn hard in this time. I sighed and I was about to walk away when I was pinned up against the wall by a familiar face "I saw that" Damon said holding me by my neck "How did you survive last night? Where is Pearl really" I raised an eyebrow at the newly formed vampire "Pearl was Katherine's best friend she would never leave her" I scoffed and smacked his hand away the ease in which I did surprising him "I'm no baby vampire Salvatore. And Pearl was more my friend than anything to Katherine, Katherine doesn't care about anyone but herself a fact you'd do well to memorize" he growled at me and I growled right back pinning him up against the wall now.

Having him pinned like this, I thought back to the Damon of my time how afraid I used to be and now to have him here like this I couldn't be more at ease "Listen to me. Pearl left as I told her to and as you should this is no place for a vampire anymore if you wanna live get out of here, forget about Katherine and never come back" I said baring my fangs at him before pulling away and walking away just as I began to hear approaching voices. The longer I stayed the more it became clear to me that it was time to leave this God forsaken town and get to that tree.