"They, they betrayed me Josh, they lied to me and not just about what they did to you but about more than just that" I cried as he pulled me into his arms

"I'm sorry, sorry for everything love" he said

"I left, I left without a word, letter or text, I left and spelled myself so they can't find me again, I left Hogwarts, I left my home, my friends and family behind, I couldn't bare it anymore" I cried

"Come let's go to the beach, see the pack maybe that will help" he said

I nodded grabbed my stuff and walked down to the pack house with Josh's holding my hand.

"S...Sam" I called out

"Oh Sam isn't here, who are you?" The girl asked

"Trinity and you?" I asked

"trinity it's been so long I didn't recognize you, it's Rachel black" she said

"Rachel what are you doing back?" I asked

"Well, came to visit and turns out I'm Paul's imprint" she said

"Oh that's good, keep him in check for me" I smiled softly

"He told me a lot about you, what he did and all, oh come in Emily's inside too along with Kim" she said

"Kim? Jared's imprint" I asked nervously

"Yeah she's super sweet and shy but you'll like her" she said

"Emily look who's here" Rachel called out

"Oh trinity it's good to see you, what have you been up to?" She asked

"Well I, let me start from the beginning" I said

By the time I ended my story the pack had arrived and was shocked to see me here.

"Oh dear I'm sorry that they did that" Emily said

"It sounds like" Kim began

"Why do you smell like a leech?" Paul growled and stepped closer to Rachel in a protective manor

"She was forced to turn by the Voltouri but she didn't entirely turn she's a primordial hybrid both werewolf and vampire now" Kim said

"You were turned?" Jared asked nervously

"It's cullens fault really" I said softly

"How? How or why?" Sam asked

"I was in Italy when they saw me and they attracted the Voltouris attention to me" I said

"I'll kill them" Embry said

"It's pointless really, I'm stronger then anything in the world right now even if I hate to admit it, but it's true" I said

"So you drink blood then?" Paul said

The way he looked at me hurt, he used to look at me with hope in his eyes and brotherly love. Now all I see is disgust and hatred towards me and what I was forced into.

"You realize it wasn't my fault, it wasn't my damn fault I hate myself as it is so stop looking at me with hatred and disgust please" I snapped standing chest to chest with him

"Trinity" Sam said softly

"No, he needs to understand" I said

"I don't want to understand, all I see is a leech in front of me not a sister, not a friend absolutely nothing" he growled

"Great I've not only lost my friends, my brother but you as well, I hope your happy I'll be leaving now" I said and stormed outside

"Trinity" Josh called out

"No, it...it hurts to much Josh, no one wants me anymore, no one tells me the truth anymore and I...I just want to die, but I can't, nothing can kill me anymore" I cried

"Don't listen to him you don't deserve this, you can't die and there's a reason for that" he said trying to convince me or himself

"I'm fucking immortal Joshua, I won't die and if I ever find my soulmates they won't live long enough with me, they will eventually die and I'll be alone again like always, my parents don't want me, my friends don't want me, my own twin brother doesn't want me, and now my good friends don't either, I'm worthless, I'm unlovable and I should just disappear, turn into the monster they see all the time" I snapped

"Turn it off" Nadia said

"No" I said shaking my head

"It will be better, just turn it off" Nadia insisted

"I...I can't Nadia" I cried

"Master needs help, Nadia says turn it off make it better make yourself numb, Nadia is to serve master please master feel better and turn it off" she said

"Trinity don't I know what your thinking" Josh said

"I can't take it anymore it's my only option" I said

"Don't please, you only numb it when you turn it back on it all comes rushing back in harsh waves" Joshua said

"What's happening?" Sam asked

"She's going to shut off her humanity, turn into the monster everyone sees her as" Joshua snapped

"Jellybean don't" Jared said

"You, your mean to me, I, I loved you, you your pathetic and hate me, you your love wasn't enough for me, your weak" I shouted trying to push them away like I do best of all things