"Not happening" Paul said as I reached him

"What?" I asked confused

"Your not dating him or anyone for that matter" he said causing me to laugh

"I'm not joking trinity he's a boy and you know what boys want" he began

"And girls don't" I huffed

"I, I'm trying to protect you" he said

"I don't need protecting Paul, what I need it's my friend not a protector the way you think I do" I said

By this time he was livid and shaking with rage but so was I and luckily we were outside Sam's.

"Why can't you accept it" he growled

"I could say the same for you" I growled back shaking just as bad as him

"What's going on?" Sam asked

"Sam" Emily warned

Paul got in my face and I shoved back causing him to phase and I shifted as well. He rushed at me and tackled me to the ground but I fought back just as hard maybe even harder. I growled loudly at him feeling the ground shake as I ran towards him. I bit his neck causing him to yelp as he threw me off I hit a tree hard. I felt my consciousness slipping but I stood on shaky legs but my body slowly shifted back at a bad time. He ran at me and before he could stop his wolf clawed me dangerously bad.

"Come on don't die please" Jared begged as he held me in his arms

"I'm sorry" I said coughing up blood

"Why aren't you healing" Jared snapped

Honestly I didn't know why, maybe it was a mental thing or whatever but as he picked me up I passed out.

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Two days later

When I opened my eyes I knew I had stitches doing down my right side of my face. Down to my neck, shoulder and down across my stomach, but I didn't blame Paul for this. I blamed myself for it because it was in fact my fault, all of it was it always is. So when the doctor finally let me go I returned to Billy's and lay down in my bed thinking about it all.

"You could have died kid" Billy said as he wheeled into my room

The stitches made me insecure but I knew the scar wouldn't it would add to the others.

"Not the worst case" I said softly

"You pissed him off why?" He asked

"I didn't, well I did but I didn't intend to I was simply protecting my rights and my own life, he wasn't happy with me hanging out with Joshua and we got into a fight about it, but your right it's my fault not his" I said

"I'm not blaming anyone kid and neither should you" he said

"I'm used to it billy, I'm used to taking the blame for anything and everything so it's the easiest thing to do especially now" I said

"Why's that?" He asked

"Father beats me, I'm never good enough for him and I never will be, mum doesn't care and sometimes she even gets mad with me and slaps me around, but I've grown up with it, it's natural to me and there's nothing anyone can do to change it not until their dead" I said

"Oh kid I'm sorry I didn't" he began

"You wouldn't have known but I know the doctors informed you about my other scars right" I asked

"They did" he said

"Which is why I'm telling you this, so you know but there isn't a damn thing you'd be able to do about it" I said softly