Peeta's POV
I'm sitting in my bed waiting for something to happen. Yes, That's what I'm doing right now. It does sound stupid but there's really nothing to do. I'm still in the Capitol and I really dont like it. It kinda scares me. So, I dont leave my room very often. Not that I really got somewhere to go, but just being outside the door of my room lives nervous. Reminds me of when I was being tortured, though I'm not even in the Training Center where I was held captive.
I sight. I feel so lonely. I can easilly count the people I have left in this entire world. None. Well, there's Johanna that sometimes comes and visits me but she already left for District 7, and Annie to. I feel so had for her, Finnick dead to save me, and Katniss. He saved her and cared for her during the rebellion. And That's something that I wish I could repay him. I'll try my very best.
But the only person I trully need and care about is Katniss. It's always been her. It still kills me to know that I've hurt her. That I was ever bad to her. I really hate myself for that. I wish I could get her back, but I know it's to late. She is probably afraid of me. How could she not. I cant even recognize myself. I've turn into a monster, a mutt.
I run my finger through my hair and look down at my hands. They have burns on them just like the rest of my body. Just another reminder of all bad memories. Reminders that I'm a killer.
I can already feel the Anger boiling inside of me. I'm about to stand up and hit something but I'm stopped by someone cleaning their throat.
I look up and see Dr. Aurelius.
"Good morning Peeta, how you feeling today?" He asks politely.
I just shrug. Dr. Aurelius is a good guy but I haven't felt very talketive lately.
"Not very shatty, huh?" he says.
Again I dont answer.
"I got good news for you, you get to go back home" he seems pretty happy but I really cant understand. Where's home? There is nothing to live for, no home.
"Home?" I ask.
"Yes, district 12" he clarifies. "Go to Katniss and Haymitch. Would you like that?"
A small smile creeps in my lips as I think of Katniss. How I miss her. her silver shiny eyes and her dark braided hair. Then again, she probably doesn't want to see me. But I'll always have Haymitch. It might seem stupid but that guy grew on me. He's almost like some sort of father, since I dont have mine.
Just now I notice I turned off. Dr. Aurelius chukles.
"Well, you can start packing. You'll be getting the next train to 12"
"Thank you, sir"
He nods and leaves the room.
I start packing. I really dont have barely anything with me, besides a few clothes but I really dont want them.Of I could, I would burn all clothes that remind me of the rebellion or the Games. And I'll probably do that when I get back to 12. So I just pack my medicins. They are just some pain killer and a funny smelling ointment for my burns. The ones for the hijacking weren't trusted to me. There was a nurse That's come every day and bring them to me. I think they were scared I would try to commit suicide or something. Yup, another perk of being labelled 'mentally unsafe'.
I pick up my stuff and searching for my jacket but since I cant find it I'll just leave it. I'm starting to get anxious to leave this place.
The moment I open the door I start to get nervous. 'Focus Peeta' I start pacing really fast and some seconds later I'm running. For no particular reason. It's just an habbit.
I run to the train station and buy a ticket to District 12, ignoring the stares that I'm recieving from the crowdedd around me. I see people pointing to me and all. I can feel eyes burning on my back. Everyone stares at me because I'm 'The' Peeta Mellark that won the Games, was tortured and went nuts.
Now I'm starting to sweat. This is the most crowded place I've been in months and I'm feeling a litle claustrophobic.
For my luck, the train arrived pretty fast. This is not like that train I was during the Victory Tour. This is a public train, and seriously, I like it better that way.
I go in, take my seat and paciently wait for the ride to start.
After a while I notice we are already speeding throught a tunnel, leaving the Capitol and its nightmares behind.
Well, nothing like a fresh start.