(Optional: Play "Mika's Song" by Yiruma on repeat)

I don't know how or when it happened. It could have been the very first second I met him. All I knew was that one day I just suddenly realized that I, Mikasa Ackerman, was in love with my best friend.

-

I suddenly woke up from the sound of the front door closing. Realizing it was just Eren, I burried my face onto the sofa pillow.

"Sorry to wake you," Eren rustled my hair while passing by. "I'm going to the game store really quick. Do you want to come and go grocery shopping?"

I groaned and slowly got up, "Won't the cashiers get scared of my face if I go now."

He sat down next to me. Eren cupped my face and wiped the drool that was on the side of my lip, "You look beautiful, go get ready. I put your clothes in the washer so just borrow my jacket."

I walked into his room and had to kick clothes out of my way to clear a path to walk. I picked up what seemed to be the cleanest jacket in his room and put it on. Reaching into the pockets, I felt a tube and took it out. "Ambochlorin?..." I whispered.

"Are you still coming?" Eren asked.

I spun around hiding the tube behind my back, "I'll just stay home... I have stuff to do."

Eren nodded and said he would come back soon.

This is a prescription for cancer...

-

The phone rung, snapping me out of my daze. How long have I been sitting here? An hour?

I still couldn't accept if this was reality or a bad nightmare.

I ran to answer the phone. An unfamiliar voice spoke, "Is this Eren Jaeger's house?"

"Yes."

"You must be his wife. Well Eren is at the hospital and he collapsed not too long ago."

I felt my chest tighten. It's happening all over again. I don't want to lose my family again.

-

I ran down the hall to his hospital room. Once I heard his voice and I felt more at ease.

"This is the 4th time you've passed out this month. You're getting worse. You need to take the therapy more seriously," the doctor remarked.

"What's the point. I'm on my fourth stage of cancer. There's no hope at all. All they do at therapy is tell me not to be depressed about dying soon and I'm not depressed. I have Mikasa... Please doc, just... don't tell her. I can't stand seeing her cry, and she won't be able to focus on work or school while taking care of me. I can go through this by myself."

I couldn't take this anymore, I ran away not wanting to listen anymore. I wanted to scream, I felt like I was dying. I ran to an empty hospital room and collapsed against a corner. I didn't know how to deal with these emotions. It was the first time I cried like this ever since my parents passed away.

I was scared that Eren was going to leave me. I was angry that he couldn't keep his promise to stay with me forever. I was sad that I am losing my best friend... and the man I love.

-

I eventually got a hold of myself.

I walked into the room and he was lying on the bed reading a book. "Hey..."

"What's wrong with you." Tell me... please.

"Nothing I just have a slight fever and got dizzy at the store." He smiled rustling my hair.

You idiot...

-

"Why didn't you tell me. Why did you keep this a secret from me." I felt my voice raise as I talked to Armin.

His eyes were big and frightened, "Eren is worried about you. He knows that you would fall apart if you found out."

If I tell Eren I know, it would stress him out. I should just pretend to not know. I promised to myself that I will stay by his side till he's gone, and do everything I can to make him happy.

"He has one thing he's most worried about though... He's afraid that you'll be alone when he leaves. He doesn't want you to be alone ever again so he said he will keep fighting to live until he sees you get married."

-

I planned to keep my promise.

I picked a man. I went on a date.

I came home to assure Eren that I would be fine and told him I was in love. Of course it wasn't a total lie, I was in love.

-

I watched outside my window waiting for Eren to come home. Ever since I found out, I always had to wait for him in case. I had a fear that I would recieve a call from the hospital instead of Eren coming through the door.

I saw him walk in front of the apartment, and then he continued to walk straight ahead.

I went out the house and followed behind. I came across a snack store and quickly bought ice-creams. It was our tradition.

I saw Eren sitting on the bench, I could sense that he was sad. It was my last night with him... I want to tell him how I feel.

I sat next to him and he took the strawberry shortcake ice-cream, "This is for girls."

"I know," I faked a smile, feeling myself beginning to get choked up.

I'm going to miss having these conversations with him.

I looked up at him from the side. C'mon Eren. Tell me about your cancer. Tell me not to get married tomorrow. Ask me if I love you, cause I do. Kiss me... please, at least once.

I felt tears fall onto my palm. I rested my head against his shoulder to hide them. Eren, anything at all, just please say something.

"I love you..." Eren said.

"Me too." I had a million others words that I wanted to say, but just those two words came out.

Those three words were all I needed.

-

The curtains opened, and Eren was on the other side. His eyes widened and it was the same look that he always gave me when he was about to tell me I'm beautiful. He didn't say it this time though.

I forced a smiled, and he smiled back.

We walked down the aisle. I looked straight ahead, but I couldn't see anything. My vision was too blurred from tears. Every step made me feel overwhelmed with happiness. Me and Eren, walking down the aisle... It was what I've always dreamed of since I was little. I thought to myself that we actually made it, we actually became a real couple because we made it down the aisle.

We reached the end too quickly. I looked at Eren, hoping that he wouldn't let go. My fiancee held my other hand motioning me to let go. I looked at Eren one last time, hoping he would look up and stop me. The warmth of his hand disappeared and he turned around and walked away.

I wanted to follow after him. But I couldn't.

I hope I made you feel at peace, Eren. You don't have to worry about me anymore, I'm getting married just like what you wanted.

Love is when you want someone to be happy.... even if it's not with you.

-

(REQUIRED: Please play "All Myself..." by Yiruma. Play it for the full fan fiction experience please.)

I sat restlessly against the outside of his door. Ever since he was emitted into the hospital I've been here waiting with him.

A loud beeping noise started coming from his room. I called the doctors feeling myself beginning to panic.

After the doctors checked up on him, they walked out and told me that it was going to be his very last few minutes and that I should go in now.

I hesitated at first but eventually built up the courage and inched my way toward his door. I paused at his door with my hand fixed on the cold handle. I'll tell him everything.

I walked in, and the sight of Eren was unbearable. It was the first time seeing him ever since the wedding. He was pale white, you could see the cheekbones in his face and his arms just looked like bones. It felt like reality was punching me in the gut.

"Hey..." my voice started shaking.

He stared up at the ceiling with his eyes half open. I don't think he could hear me, but I went ahead and confessed anyways.

"Eren, I love you. I never loved that guy... you were the only one I loved since I was 9."

He blinked slowly, still looking unaware.

I placed my hands on both sides of his face and made his eyes stare directly into mine. I began to yell, feeling fustrated, "You're my entire life Eren. Please don't go. I never wanted to marry him, I only want to marry you! Just don't go, we can still get married. Does that sound good Eren?! We can get married right now, just don't go!"

The nurses began to walk in, hearing my frantic cries.

I took off my ring and placed it on his finger. I raised his hand in front of his face so he could see.

"We're married now, you see?" I smiled.

My heart skipped a beat, when I felt his other hand rustle my hair gently. He smiled and slowly worded the words, "You're beautiful."

I nodded and smiled. Tears ran down my face endlessly.

His hand fell, and his eyes closed. The sound of his heart rate stayed at one tone.

"Eren..?" I shook his hand that dropped from my cheek.

"Eren? Wake up. We just got married... what're you doing?" I touched his face.

I kissed his lips, trying to wake him up and no response. I kiss again harder this time, still no response.

-

I don't know how it happened, or when. It could've been the very first second I met him. All I knew was that one day I just suddenly realized that I, Mikasa Ackerman, was in love with my best friend.

- end -

Thank you for reading. I didn't plan on writing a second part but there were so many requests for a better ending. (100+ requests) So I had to do it.

Just to answer some questions that I think some of you might ask:
-Eren didn't hear anything. He only saw Mikasa's "smile" but only thought it was a dream. It was mentioned in the end of the chapter of Eren's POV.
-Mikasa's ending is up to how you want it to be.
-Every year on the anniversary of his death Mikasa goes to the same bench and continues the ice-cream tradition with the flowers (Eren arranged to give her every year) by her side.
-Eren worded the words "You're Beautiful" because those are the first words that comes to mind when he sees Mikasa. (Referring to when she woke up and her in the wedding dress.)

Credits:
Characters owned by Isayama Hajime
Author by Admin 2 of @mikasaackermann on instagram (moe-kasa.tumblr.com)
Edited by Admin 1 of @mikasaackermann on instagram (sixpackerman.tumblr.com)
Music by Yiruma
Side Media Art by daydream24-7 (tumblr)
Book Cover used with permission by yuuba.tumblr.com