This was hidden in my draft for so many days ,I finally decided to bring it up . Just a short tale which would end within three or four chapters ,maybe.

Annika- papa plss , I don't want this marriage now. It's my final decision and that's it !

She vented out insisting him to understand her decision ,and walked past her father who held her hand immediately.

" bass annika , ab aur nahi . You're giving the same answer whenever I initate an alliance and it's already been five years since you remained denying each and every man whom I chose for you . What's in your mind ? Even if you love someone, it's Ok . I ain't like those who would oppose their child's wish , and I'm sure if my daughter has selected her future , it would be the perfect decision. I trust my annika . So plss be honest beta. You would have chosen to open up if your mother was here na ...? I feel like ,I failed , till when I have to wait annika ? "

Her father asked caressing her sleek hair while she stood tongue tied. Anger and love are two extremes which when daggered may emerge the same feel from the other . Only if he had scolded and shouted at her for hurting him she would have managed somehow, but her father has chosen to attack using weapons of concern and love for her. She couldn't act rude now rather she has to please him . But how? Will any parent remain compromised regarding his/her child's marriage when they had already practised it for the past 5 years ,without even knowing the reason for the opposition? She felt guilty for troubling her father who has been her source of strength and support after her mother's death . In fact her father is a person whom she treasures the most ,true that for every girl ,her father remains a hero and she wasn't any exception . His entire world revolved around his daughter , and he was so happy it did . After completing her UG she wanted to persue her second degree at States and he agreed half heartedly. Not that he opposed it rather just that being away from her was literally the least thing he would want from life . And after that ,she went for PhD. He accepted everything with a smile , why wouldn't he ? Her simple wish and he's already ready to fulfill it ,taking it as his honour.

Like this, she used to come up with reasons everytime when there's a conversation on her wedding . He decided to be patient till she agrees but her approval was something which he could never get .

Indeed ,it saddened him .

She looked at his disappointed face which had all the power to hurt her .

Biting her upper lips and scrolling her teeth through it harshly, she nodded .

A- don't think like that papa ,I love you so much and I know ...there's none like you . My marriage will make you happy right ? Fine , I'll meet whoever-it- is .

She watched that slowly emerging smile on his face which went wide within seconds that he was already jumping in happiness now .

" thank you annika , thank you ! Tum dek ,your papa will bring a beautiful life for you !"

He hugged her , and she swiftly held him letting a faint smile cover her face .

Five years ago,

A- hello ? Hello shivaay are you there ?

Shivaay- ji .

A- tum teek ho na shivaay? I ...I had a dream last night in which you...you were shot and , ...pata nahi kyun aisa ...huwa.I'm very scared shivaay , plss can you ask your senior to relieve you from any operation atleast for two day ,plss. ...shivaay ?Why aren't you speaking something ? You're fine right ?

He closed his eyes, moving the mobile away shielding himself from her shivering voice which he knew will automatically turn to sobs in a few minutes .

How will he ever tell that she was right about her dream ? He did face something like that last night, to his luck and her prayers which would get the utmost credit ,it wasn't very crucial as the bullet just traced along his skin near his arm.

He doesn't believe in such things ,but after knowing that she had actually sensed everything beforehand , he wants to believe that the nature of love binds true soulmates even if they're separated like ...miles away . Their relationship was built such that, both themselves were certainly unaware of its depth .

Her tears were like sharp daggers for which he possesses enmity much more than the unknown opponents with whom he fights , to serve his country .

A- hello shivaay , why aren't you speaking ? What's it shivaay?

S- annika plss , stop it !

She blinked quick and her shoulders automatically bumped slightly listening to his suddenly peaked shout which seemed so rough .

A- Why are you shouting shivaay ? Tu...tum teek hona ? Tuje( interrupted)

S- This !! This is scaring me annika , muje dar lag raha hai .

He spoke emphasisingly and she frowned being confused .

A- dar ?

S- annika , you yourself know that joining the army was not just an ambition for me. It ...it's my entire source of passion which I believe to achieve was the very reason for my birth . From childhood I had dreamt of serving my country .

She knew ,they weren't any mere words which he spoke rather his true emotions gathered together .

A- I know shivaay, your ambition ...your passion ! I know what it means to you .

She sounded calm and composed while he spoke again .

S- Par annika , muje ab bahut dar lag raha hai ki what if I loose ? What if I can't fulfil my duty ? I'm scared,

She chose to stay quite knowing there was more still,

S- when I joined the training ,I didn't realize this but through days when ...I mean when our squad is given an operation ...when I'm present on spot with the rifles ... and I see my opponent aiming me to take the shot ... I could sense your worried face . For a second, I get feared like hell ! What if I couldn't make it and then ? Tum , tumhe kya hoga ? I know how madly you're in love with me , even if I'm leastly hurt the pain which you go through is much high and intense. I've sensed that many times , tum mujse kehthi nahi ho par I understand everything annika. I know ...that each time I go for a mission , you suffer much more than me . If I'm hurt by wounds and injuries ...you are hurt by the love and concern which you have inculcated for me. Your wound is more intense than mine annika . That's why I'm scared!What if something happens to me ,then then you ....
I never want to be the reason for your pain annika and that very thought just haunts me . This fear is halting me back everytime I step towards a risk . I'm scared annika...I'm scared that what if with all this around me ,will I be able to serve my country ...will I fulfil my duties? And If I don't that'll be my biggest failure annika , it'll be the end of my whole ambition for which I've strived hard since childhood . I can't afford loosing that , mera passion ...mera kaam ,mera duniya hai annika !

His cracking voice clearly mentioned his state listening to which her eyes had welled up already . He closed his eyes , retaining his tears.

A- my love is standing an obstacle from achieving your passion , is that what you're trying to say ?

She asked with an utmost fear for his answer,

S- annika , I don't want to blame you. It's my fault.

He sounded guilty and her fear grew more.

A- your fault ?

S- I should have forgotten about my ambition when I started loving you or ...

She remained silent without any response  .

S- or after knowing that there's no exact guarantee for a tomorrow in my life ,I should have .... I should have not... loved you . Everything is my fault ,

He stammered much and she fell numb .
Both had constant tears just flowing down continuously .

A- shivaay , weren't all this known to us when we both got committed? In fact, I was proud of you  !

She insisted holding the mobile with both her hands where the second hand gripped the first's wrist tight , while tears ran down her cheecks  remaining unhalting  .

S- if I had only known all this would happen ...

He halted without completing it and she grew eager ,

A- happen ...? Seems like you've already thought of something?

She asked and pressed her lips in a line .Only he knew what it took for him to give a reply,

S - ham , let's...I mean . We both

She cutted him at once before be could complete .

A- you want to break up with me ?

He sensed her chocked voice which made him shudder hard . Why does love hurt so much? He remained silent .

It felt as though she underwent a harsh stroke that panged right ,bringing a dominating pain in her heart. His state was no less , this second would remaine the worst moment of his life ,the instant when he knew his flesh dugged to a bullet ,didn't pay this level of agony even.

The pour of tears remained so seasoned today as both cried worse.

The long span of silence alarmed that when it comes to their relationship ,both were cowardly sensitive to face anything which could stand a obstacle for them .

He heard her taking more sniffs to finally speak .

A- this is how we had to end ,maybe. I don't want to see our relationship shattering through each step that's why I ain't trying to convince you now. If you yourself had decided that we shouldn't happen, then what's left for me ? Par , before anything...I want to ask you this , will you be able to forget me ever?

A long beep .

No ! He couldn't answer that question when he himself had no idea of it . His eyes had turned all red with the tank of tears draining mercilessly .

He felt unlucky,

Scooping her entire self into a small thing she cried hugging her knees close to her chest . That was really a terrible feeling .

She has actually dreamt the damn full future with him , her love , her one and only love ,then suddenly everything returns back being actual dreams itself .

A pain which couldn't get any sort of medicine to be healed ,is what she could sense growing within her .

She knew the meaning behind that long beep was that he couldn't forget her , she knows . If she loves him like none , certainly he does too . There was no way she could doubt on his love ,but what even is this situation that made both of them to hit break off !

She couldn't give any word to convince him as she knew the crucial fear which engulfs her whenever he's at stake ,he was right . Her pain and fear was too vulnerable.

So,is break up the only solution? She grieved, doesn't her love  stand a place to withhold things back?

Her breath hovered high and down , as her tears seemed unstoppable.

Reason of being a man between shots of life and death ,has mercilessly played the role in parting their ways . She sighed weakly ,

Are all men in army unmarried or don't they have people back home  waiting for them ? She was irked , what could justify her state now ? 

Both lacked a strength , and she realized it now.

Indeed, she remembers how hard those days tend to move when she knows that he's up there fighting in betwixt bullets and explosives .

She heard the door clutched open , it was her sweet little brother Rudy with his ever so favourite shake gripped between his palms.

Watching his dear sister in a crying mess ,he instantly ran to get on the bed beside her .

R- didi, you're crying?

She ,once looked at that chubby cute face of his's and scooted close to lay on his lap .

Her eight year old baby brother had all the content to make her feel better ,be it in any situation. Being born after nearly fifteen years, that lil bean was her source of happiness after her mother left this world .

And for him ,she was his entire world. The person whom he has got used to from the day he had landed on earth is his didi . Anything to her ,and he's ready to stand a superman . For her ,

R- who made you cry didi ? You know right? I'm practicing karate ,I'll punch them to nuts ,tell me didi...!

He insisted while caressing her hair ,when she could just press her lips together, to hold on those rushing cries which seemed uncontrolled.

R- dadda ne kuch kaha ?

She remained silent, and he understood that this was not the time to interrogate.

Her lips curved up slightly, listening to her baby brother trying to chain up words of the lullaby song which she had sung for him before years,and still she does sometimes when he doesn't get to sleep.

Before she could realize ,she fell asleep with some random flashes of her moments with shivaay visioning from within like they were some beautiful dreams.

Can some magic occur that she could know that everything which happend before some minutes leave off ,being her nightmare? She begged ,

Fate could have been a little lineant with the two souls , who can find no solace without their love by side .

Present

After all these years ,where almost everything has changed from the shades of her room till the frames fixed on all sides of the mirror, it was only her whom she knew was the same old girl, crying over her lost love  .

Everything took turns to get renovated ,but that fist sized organ in her was still beating...yearning for the same person . She found herself in the same position on her bed ,crying all over again . Literally ,the change of numbers in calendars seemed false as she still held herself in that very long day .

Precap

Annika meets the person ,

I really don't know what it is ? Just brought my imaginations , would be glad to get your honest reviews.

I'm still dubious on this one, so just be frank . Negative comments are also accepted:)

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Would continue if you want me to,