~Close to Christmas break

~Sirius 

I heard that everyone is going home. I am as well but I really don't want too. I already know what gonna happen. I took a deep breath and start packing. I don't like this. I act like I'm happy to go home but hate it there. I looked over at Remus. He's talking about the Hufflepuff girl Tonks. I don't really like her but have to be nice for Remus's sake.

I shut my trunk and close my eyes. I started to think of what it would be like if Remus would like me the way I like him. I could feel tears running down my cheek. I pulled my blanket over my face so I don't show anyone my tears. I hate feeling so useless or worthless in front of other people.  I heard someone walking towards the bed.

"Sirius," I heard Remus. 

"I'm okay," I whispered.

"Sirius," Remus's voice softened.

"What?" I open my eyes and look at him. 

He cups my cheeks and whispers, "Why have you been so distance from me?"

"Me? Mooney come on you know me better?" I said sarcastically. 

"I do that's why I'm asking," He growled softly.

"I'm fin-"

"Don't you dare say your fine,"He growl darkly, cutting me off.

"Then what do you want me to say?" I growled back.

"Then what is on your bloody mind?" Remus voice raises. 

I coward way from him, "You'll would hate me."

"How would you know?"

"Because I just do," I said,voice trembling. 

"Sirius," He voice soften. I whimpered leaning against the wall. I slide down curls up, "Sirius, "

"Leave me alone," I whispered. 

"Sirius,"Remus whispered. I felt my body shake. 

~Remus

I never saw Sirius like this. I kneel  down in front of him and pulled him close. I felt him shake even more. 

"Sirius," I whispered, "I'm sorry I just want to know why your avoiding me."

"It's because I love you," Sirius said, voice shaking really bad. I was shocked.

"Why didn't you tell me?" 

"Because you like tonks," He whispered. 

"I think of her as a friend, Sirius," I whispered, holding him close. 

"Not what it look like," Sirius nuzzled into my neck.

"Well we are just friends," I said. 

"Alright," He cuddled.

"But that is not what else is on your mind is it?" I asked

"I don't want to go home," Sirius whispered.

"Why?" I asked messing with his hair.

"My family hates me," He whispered yawning.

"Sirius that can't be true," I said. Sirius didn't respond. I looked down at him. I saw him asleep. I stand up picking him. 

"Please stay," He whispered in his sleep.  

"I will," I said laying him down. I sat down by him and watch him cuddle closer to me. I'm still thinking about what he said to me. 

"He loves me,"