(Emma's P.O.V)

 I woke up feeling very happy because a week ago after the enterprise party Pavel asked me to be his girlfriend and I of course, said yes, and now we were back on the ship ready to get back to work. I showered and pulled my hair up and got in my usual medical blue long sleeve uniform, did my make-up, and basically skipped to work in the med-bay. "Morning Dr.McCoy." I chirped picking up my PADD and stopping to talk to nurse Chapel. "So...," she exaggerated "Tell me everything." I began telling her the enthrilling story of how Pavel came to be my boyfriend when McCoy pulled my aside and into his office. "Ow! What do you want?" I yelped pulling my arm back. "Pull up your sleeve." 

    'Oh no I am in trouble now. I knew there was no point in lying so I felt tears brim my eyes and just blurted out my life "I am sorry Bones I didn't mean to I was just so upset I didn't think it would make such a habit on my life- I-I'm s-so -s-sorry." I hiccupped beginning to sob. He pulled me into his chest as he sat down on a chair rocking me back and forth slowly. "Emma you still have to let me see." He tells me softly I nod and pull up my sleeve slowly "Shit.."

(Bone's P.O.V)

  I watch as Emma rolls up her sleeve and I am expecting to see scars and cuts but what I see is worse they are becoming infected, "Emma baby these are infected you know." She looked away from me and said "I wanted to stop it's just a habit," and then I felt my heart stop at her simple request "Please don't tell Jim..." I sighed and pulled her closer "Em you know I have to I'm sorry darling I have to." She pulled away and looked at me with panic in her eyes "I-I p-p-p-Promise I-I'll stop p-p-Please B-b-b-Bones H-h-he'll hate m-me" She all but sobbed I realized she was having a panic attack and I started to feel slightly guilty but Jim was her guardian she was under 18 I had no choice .

     "Em come on try and breathe for me please?" I tried to coax her into calming down but she wasn't having any of it she was hyperventilating now and I was really starting to worry. "Em come on he won't hate you it'll be ok I promise." I told her by now nurse Chapel had come in hearing the commotion I signaled her to get Jim and within 10 minutes he was here rushing over to Emma. "Emma, nany what's wrong come on look at me look at uncle Jim come on please?" He was nearing hysterics almost like she was. "P-p-plea-se d-d-don't hate me...." Emma sobbed " What baby I could never hate you why would you think that Emma I love you." I felt Emma release my medical shirt and drop her arm right in front of Jim I watched him pale a bit at the cuts and scars littering his baby niece's arm "Oh Emma come here." And with that Emma was off my lap and on Jim's in the next chair as I got up to get supplies to clean her arm "Emma, Darlin' this is gonna sting a bit okay?" I said as I took her arm to disinfect it she nodded in response and didn't even flinch when I put it on it took me 10 minutes to clean all the cuts and bandage her arm luckily none of them required stitching but she was half asleep on Jim so I told him to take her back to her room and let her rest for awhile.

(Jim's P.O.V)

I picked Emma up and carried her back to her room she was very light for a girl her age and I started thinking when is the last time I saw her eat something on this ship? And I started to wonder if on top of everything did she also have an eating disorder? Just what she needs right now more problems I had known about her panic attacks and slight depression but I never expected it to come to this me finding her sobbing into my lead medical officer's shirt afraid that I'd hate her for feeling so sad and alone like she had no other choice what kind of guardian am I if I neglected to see that she was hurting inside? As I laid my niece in her bed and walk away I can't help but want to break down and cry in the hallway this is my niece I get she had a hard past back on earth with George being upset all the time about dad dying and Frank was a heavy alcoholic.  

   Nobody took my dad's death well I was to young to remember just born I don't know why but I do know Emma was bullied a lot in school and abused at home I didn't have to be there to know these things because they already happened to me. That's why I left I couldn't live like that I have no idea how Emma put up with it for so long. But I could not start dwelling on my past now I had a ship to run and a niece to look after. And with that I stood up and went to resume my job as captain of this ship.

(Emma's P.O.V)

   I woke up sore and tired, I looked over at my clock to see that it was about 4:30 which means Uhura would be off soon as will Spock which means she'll probably be out tonight and I won't get to vent to anyone. 'She doesn't want you bothering her anyways' I realized my inner thoughts again were right she'd come back and want to talk about Spock and how awesome he is and how she wants him to be more romantic and blah blah blah. And then I thought of how it would go if I vented to her blah blah blah sad sad sad poor pitiful me. It sounded so selfish so I decided to cover it up and put on my long sleeve black sweater with peach hearts and leggings and my starry night socks and cover my tear tracks with make up. And most importantly 

      I WOULD NOT VENT AND BURDEN PEOPLE ANYMORE. Nyota came back at around 5:30 "Hey Em you missed dinner aren't you hungry?" I quickly think it over ' NO you've had too much to eat already today...' I respond with a carefully threaded lie "No me, Jim, and Bones. had a big lunch..." I respond as I finish with my makeup making sure there is no evidence of sadness at all, I put on a fake smile and walk into her room and lie on her bed as she picks out an outfit in her bra and underwear "Oh that's why I didn't see any of you at lunch ok." She said thankfully buying my story "So I was thinking Em how about a girls night in?" I froze I was hoping she would go out tonight I can't play this facade all night long "Um... actually I was gonna go for a walk maybe check out the new virtual reality room.." "Oh ok, then I guess I'll take a nice bath while you are gone." she said grabbing her bath stuff. "Ok bye." I said slipping into my room but her voice stopped me "Are you ok?" she asked looking into my eyes "Of course I am never better." I said flashing my bright smile "Ok you'd tell me if you weren't right Em?" She asked arching an eyebrow at me "Of course Nyota you're like my bestfriend." I said "Ok love you." she said as she slid the door shut." I breathed a sigh of relief and grabbed my PADD and sent a text to Pavel.

Emma A.: Pasha I am sorry I can't hang out tonight I am hanging out with Uhura... Love you

Pasha_10: That's fine have fun ;)

     I sighed I hated lying to him but I just needed space. I walked out of my room and stealthily snuck to a corridor I know no one ever walks down and I just sat there staring at the wall just letting the voice tell me what to feel. And I started to think to myself what has my life become I lost everything my mom, my dad, my home, my dog... I have nothing anymore. As I thought about this I could not help but feel tears start to sting my eyes I was alone I had no family no life I was nothing anymore.

(Spock's P.O.V)

   I was ending my spare time in the old science room on board after cleaning up some experiments I shut the lights off and made sure it was locked so no nosy people would get in and cause trouble. The science lab was in a complicated area of the ship basically nobody went down there except for me usually. But as I was walking I heard gasping breaths and shuddering sobs which could only mean one thing, someone was obviously distressed. I quickened my pace and as I turned the corner there she was all messy hair and crazy illogical socks, today they appeared to be van gogh's starry night. Head burried in her knees as she sobbed uncontrollably she obviously believed no one was around her I sighed usually I am not good with these types of things but something about her sadness I felt we had something mutual causing it, so as quietly as I could I walked over and sat down I put my arm around her and she did not even flinch, strange. 

    "Emma I know you may not feel like talking but I am asking permission to look into your mind to see the state of your distress please?" I begged hoping she would let me in so I could understand this thin string connection I feel to her sadness. She faintly nodded her head and lifted it ever so slightly so I could see the smeared makeup running down her pale face I gently  I took my hand and placed it to the right side of her temple and I was seeing and hearing what was going through her head. The loss of her parents the pain of abuse, and bullying, this poor young girl had gone through what I went through but with all of her emotions in tact and I sat back and pulled her on my lap my human side was aloud when no one was around which usually only happened with Nyota. "Shhhh Emma it is OK, it may not feel that way but soon it will not be OK." I was surprised when she did not pull away but instead curled around me crying harder, if that was even possible "I-I have no one I am a-alone I have n-no family." She hicupped and I sighed "Emma," I said as I picked up her chin "We are your family." I said softly as I stood with her still nestled in my arms. "Now let's go find Uncle Jim and Bones OK?" She nodded softly and off we went.