based on a true story

1. Must be, shouldn't be.

Ice. I must be Ice.

I wished for warmth,

but when it came down to it,

it really wasn't a big deal.

And,

I didn't feel particularly,

warm.

So, I must be Ice.

My heart frosted over,

reaching my lungs,

tightening them.

But I felt nothing.

Even when warmth melted the frost,

I felt nothing.

I must be Ice in my core, too.

I didn't feel warm.

I didn't—I just didn't care.

He smiled—oh sure, cute.

But do I want to,

kiss him?

Not really.

He looked at me,

did he notice me?

I wish he would talk to me—

the "Introvert Girl with the Glasses".

I can't make conversation well.

But at least I can make it, right?

Why do I need to be warm?

Why can't I be Ice?

What's wrong SOCIETY with Ice?

But something is wrong.

I shouldn't be Ice.

* * *

2. I am Ice.

I am Ice.

I don't feel warmth.

I just don't care.

I find guys I like,

but no further.

Do I want to kiss them?

Not really.

Do I kiss them?

Well, it's standard procedure.

...and it is nice, I guess.

But nothing beyond that,

oh, please no,

nothing beyond that.

But it seems like,

I should want to go beyond that.

It's normal to want to.

But am not normal.

I am Ice.

And it's fine.

(It's not, really,

I so do wish to know,

what it's like to be warm,

inside and out and,

want to kiss him.)

* * *

3. eureka moment.

I am Ace.

I don't feel warmth.

I just don't care, really.

And I don't want to go beyond.

Oh, please no.

But I still find a way,

to be...well, to be,

semi-warm.

To feel, a little bit,

what love is like.

I am Ace.

I AM ACE!

I almost burst with joy,

revelation,

(enlightenment must feel like this)

eureka,

oh, god,

it was good to know,

I was not Ice after all.

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Thank you for reading :) This poem I wrote based on my experiences of finding out I was ace. Yes, hence the cover. It's the ace flag, for those of you who are not so familiar. I did think I was a cold person for not feeling the way "normal" people feel when they are with someone they like. But when I found out I was ace, I realized it was perfectly "normal" for me to feel this way. Nothing unusual about it.

I'm putting "normal" in quotes because, hey, what is normal these days anyway? :P