I can't ever do right
Can't lose this fight
I'm already low
I think the demons are winning

I can't ever do right
I Can't lose this fight
I'm already low
I think I need new beginnings
I think the demons are winning
They're beatin' me up           

                             ~~Eric😞~~

"no I won't" that was all she said before she ran away, I was too hurt to go after her and just like that I was back to my past,I felt like a dark cloak was placed over me,I felt weak, sad, dejected,so I went home without bothering to say goodbye to the others.

I walked into the living room and I kicked off my Crocs as I sat on the sofa,I had lost my appetite so I didn't bother making dinner,I just sat down lost in my thoughts.
I thought she liked me
Well if she did she wouldn't have rejected you so stop thinking she likes you,you don't even like you.

"Eric have you suddenly become deaf?"I grimaced as I heard that thick cold voice,he's here.

"Young Man answer me!"he yelled, "sorry sir "I answered shivering as his voice sent tremors through me, with my head facing the floor.

"Look at me when I'm talking to you"he ordered
and I raised my head hesitantly to meet the same face of Mr James Ayomide, and those cold brown eyes stared back at me intensely,I couldn't take it anymore so I looked away, his cold eyes brought back memories.

She was on the floor half naked as he landed blows on her face he had stripped her of her dignity in front of her child and he still had to beat her up.

"Eric!go to your room!now! "She yelled and as he forcefully took carnal knowledge of her while hitting her and grunting, I couldn't take it,I was scared,I was a child so I ran away and hid in my room shivering with fear as I heard his grunts and I cries..."

No wonder she rejected me I am a mess with a messed up father, a messed up mother and a messed up life..

I  did what my mind told me to do when it was time to face my demons run and I ran to my room and locked my self in ....I think my demons are winning.

                                  ********

                             ~~Ella💔~~
"No I won't", I shivered as my own words came back to haunt,I shouldn't have said that,I pushed him away just because my friend had a silly crush.

Stop lying to yourself you know that's not true, Valerie only mentioned him once so don't blame it on her besides, if he really liked you he would've run after you,you're just a dreamer stuck in a dream,you're a disappointment and you bring pain to everyone around you.

These sad thoughts didn't leave my head, instead they triggered something in me and memories that has been began to resurface

Blood,lots of blood,he was lying dead next to me and my heart was beating so fast, she screamed and held onto me "go inside the bathroom and wash yourself when you're done lock yourself inside your room and don't come out okay?" I love you Emmanuella my baby .

She said she loved me and she's dead because of me.
He said he likes me and I hurt him.
I'm a mess..

My heartbeat increased and I couldn't breathe I was having an attack,I felt weak like I did when his hands were around my neck...

"Ella!Ella! Look at me Ella wake up mum she's having an attack!" I watched in a blur as the voice called "Ella breathe " mum....

"Oh thank God she's awake " I stared at my cousin and my aunt the only family I had left and I saw the worry in their eyes I'm causing pain again and I did what I always had to do when I realized what a mess I am... run...

Well that was sad 😞,it seems our main characters have some secrets that they are not sharing....vote and comment.