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Disclaimer,
- fluff
- long chapter
- kissing
- a few curse words

Sorry if you don't like romantic shipping between the members but remember that this is make believe and Daewon is just a character.

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'He's my group mate, the leader of the team. This is wrong' Daewon tries to remind himself that the possibility of him and Soobin being in a relationship was pretty slim to none. They couldn't date, not with the possibility of their relationship disrupting the group dynamics and even if everyone was fine with it there was still the company. Sure they don't have a dating ban but imaging was everything and he's sure that two members dating was not the image the company had in mind when they chose the members for debut.

So with these thoughts in mind, Daewon felt at a loss. It was hard acting like he was Soobin's best friend when he wanted to be his boyfriend. To hold his hand, to hold him when he's had a rough day, cook him dinner, play video games, kiss him. The last thought had been in Daewon's mind for a long time. What would it be like to kiss Choi Soo-

"Daewon! Have you lost your hearing or something?" Soobin says, shaking Daewon by the shoulders. Daewon snaps out of his daze, eyes focusing on the person in front of him. Choi Soobin.

"I- um" the words get jumbled in Daewon's brain, not quite making it to his mouth to speak them. He just stares into Soobin's eyes without saying a word but had the softest look on his face. His brain reminds him of his previous thoughts and Daewon breaks eye contact to glance at Soobin's lips. What would it be like to kiss Choi Soobin?

"Hey, are you ok?" Soobin questions concern laced in his voice. His lips curl into a pout as he runs his fingers through Daewon's fading blue hair. Daewon's eyes flutter closed as he basks in the feeling of Soobin playing with his hair. It always felt so comforting.

"Dae, are you falling asleep?" the leader questions. Daewon shakes his head, eyes opening to look at Soobin.

"No. It jus feels really nice" he mutters. Without thinking he turns his head kisses Soobin's wrist and smiles at him. It was only after he noticed a blush on Soobin's face that Daewon's brain caught up with reality. He just kissed Soobin's wrist. Not exactly what he had in mind when he thought of kissing Soobin but he never really had any intentions of kissing Soobin in the first place.

"I uh- I...BATHROOM!" the oldest of the two exclaims as he jumps up to his feet and dashes out of the room. Without stopping Daewon rushes to the bathroom and stands in front of the mirror. Taking a look at himself he could see his faded blue hair, partially messy from Soobin playing with it, his cheeks were dusted pink hiding his freckles and overall he looked a mess.

He turns the sink on and cups his hands under the faucet collecting cold water to splash on his face. Looking back up he could see the water droplets run down his face until his vision became unfocused as he got lost in his thoughts.

Daewon knew he wouldn't be able to work through this on his own. Unfortunately, he'd have to call for reinforcements on what to do about this because clearly his feelings were getting out of hand and it was too much to deal with alone.

"I'm going to regret this" he sighs as he gathers a few paper towels to dry his face.

Returning back to their practice room Daewon spent the rest of the day with Taehyun and Kai, avoiding the hyung line (and Beomgyu) entirely. He didn't speak much unless it was work related.

When they finally returned to their dorm the members collapsed onto the couch but it wasn't long before two of the member's relaxation time was over.

"You, you, bedroom now," Daewon demands as he marches back to his room. Yeonjun and Beomgyu give each other a knowing look before following after Daewon who was already pacing around.

"Dae" Yeonjun starts but Daewon holds up a hand silencing him. He'd had all day to think through how to bring it up to them but when they're here in front of him the words escape him. His anxiety flooded his body, putting his thoughts on hold.

"Just relax hyung. It's just us" Beomgyu says, grabbing hold of Daewon's hand and pulling him to the bed to stop his pacing.

"Just speak when you're ready," Yeonjun says as he sits shoulder to shoulder with Daewon. Through the course of their friendship, they were used to this with Daewon. Whenever he was ready to come to talk to them they were always so happy with his development, that he would actually come to talk to them. And they knew every time was different, some days he'd be so wrapped in his anxiety that he couldn't tell them what was wrong and other times he'd lay it all out on the table. No matter what situation it would be, Yeonjun and Beomgyu were always there for him and would wait for as long as it takes.

"I like Soobin. I mean like um romantically and I don't know what to do about it" the second oldest admits and Beomgyu lets out a cheer.

"I knew it!" he exclaims and turns to Yeonjun with a smirk.

"You have to buy me dinner now" he sing-songs and Yeonjun rolls his eyes.

"...Did you two bet on me again?!" Daewon exclaims looking back and forth between his friends.

"No of course not...we just um took a risk with a dinner payment on the outcome of your crisis. Soobin or homesickness..." Beomgyu explains and Yeonjun hits him on the head.

"Idiot, that's the definition of a bet," Daewon says with a laugh.

"Ok fine we placed a bet on you and I won because it is painfully obvious to anyone with eyes! You quite literally have heart eyes when you look at him...it's the same way you looked at..." Beomgyu stops talking and looks toward the floor.

"You can mention him Gyu, it's fine," Daewon shrugs and it was partially correct. He had moved on from Yeong-jin for the most part. There was nothing he could do to change the past and he was miles and miles away, the only logical thing Daewon could do was heal and move on from his ex.

"So Dae, what do you wanna do about your feelings?" Yeonjun questions changing the topic. Daewon sighs and runs a hand through his hair.

"I like him but I don't think I should do anything about it."

"Why? Don't you wanna date him?" Beomgyu questions not following Daewon's thought process.

"Well yeah but...this is bigger than me. What if he doesn't-" Daewon gets interrupted by Yeonjun.

"He does. Trust me he feels the same" the information has Daewon stunned for a second but he quickly moves on.

"But what about the group? The company? This is bigger than just me"

"Dae I didn't ask about everyone else. I asked about you. What do you want to do?" Yeonjun says repeating his question. Daewon huffs in frustration grabbing the roots of his hair.

"I don't wanna get hurt...I don't want to go through that again" he whispers. Instantly Beomgyu attaches himself to his hyungs side nuzzling his head under his chin.

"S ok hyung"

"You still didn't answer the question. What do you want to do?"

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Daewon sat on the roof, a cup of colored pencils to his left and a sketchbook in his lap. It was a fairly nice day out despite it being summer and he decided to take the opportunity to enjoy the weather. Just as he was shading the side of the building he drew he could hear the door to the roof shut causing him to turn and see who it was.

"Hey. Thought I'd bring you a snack" Soobin says, holding up a snack and a bottle of water. Daewon pats the spot beside him and Soobin walks over sitting down. He hands the snack over to the artist and gasps at his drawing.

"Wow. I haven't seen you draw in a long time. This is really good Wonnie!" Soobin says taking the sketchbook and looking at the details up close. The praise has Daewon scratching at the nape of his neck.

"Thanks. Whenever we drive home it always looks pretty. Thought I'd get a different perspective."

"It looks good"

"Thanks.."

"Um Dae..?" Soobin mutters. Daewon hums his attention still on the drawing.

"You know you can talk to me right?" the leader says, his "serious leader voice" as the others call it, making an appearance.

"Huh?"

"I know you're closer with Gyu and Junnie hyung but you can talk to me too if you're going through a hard time or anything" Daewon looks over at Soobin seeing him pull at the lobe of his ear, one of his nervous habits.

"I know that. I just really needed to talk to them."

"About the person, you're interested in right?"

"W-what?" how did Soobin know? Surely Yeonjun and Beomgyu didn't tell him, right?

"I um overheard them talking a bit and overheard Beomgyu say that you were thinking of asking someone out but...you were scared to c-cause it's a group member."

"Well um yeah...I am."

"That's ok! Just go for it! I'm sure Taehyun feels the same way" Soobin says trying to sound encouraging but there was a hint of disappointment in his voice that Daewon didn't catch. The boy nods his head agreeing with Soobin's sentence before fully realizing what he actually said.

"Yeah...wait Taehyun?" he questions in astonishment.

"Yeah...it is Tae, right? I mean that's why you've been hanging out with the maknaes a lot more recently....or maybe it's Kai?" Soobin wonders, now feeling a little confused. He wasn't more confused than Daewon because what? How could Soobin think he has feelings for one of the maknaes. Gross. 

"Soobin," Daewon calls, gaining Soobin's attention, and once he has it, Daewon's brain short circuits and all he can think about is kissing Soobin, yet again. Now was not the time for Daewon to wonder what kissing Soobin would be like but his brain was very keen on reminding him of his silent desire and being a man of science Daewon was itching to test if his hypothesis is correct.

"You still there Dae?" Soobin questions with a chuckle as he waves his hand in front of the older man's face. Daewon blinks back to reality and smiles sheepishly at Soobin.

"Oh right um...well. Soobin I really hope I'm not crossing a line here but I like you-you're smile," Daewon doesn't know why he suddenly changed his sentence, maybe he was still holding onto a bit of his fear but he recalls his conversation with Yeonjun, and continues on.

"You have a really pretty smile and I like it when you smile at me. Makes me feel all fuzzy. A-and I like how you puff your cheeks out a bit when you're frustrated. It's really cute. You also do it when you eat and I think you look like more of a squirrel than a bunny like MOA think you are but that's just me...and I like when you play with my hair, and-and hold my hand. I know you hold the other member's hands too but I like it when you hold mine and hang out with me and I-"

"Daewon takes a breath jeez," Soobin says, holding Daewon's face in his hands. Daewon takes a ragged intake of air and continues speaking, feeling as if he'd explode if he didn't get his next words out soon.

"And I wanna do more stuff with you, the kind of things boyfriends do."

"Daewon."

"I like you Choi Soobin. I like you a lot" Daewon says and then it was done. He'd confessed his feelings, they were out and in the hands of Soobin now and Daewon just hoped he wouldn't get his heart broken. Soobin doesn't say anything for a minimum of fifteen seconds and they were the longest fifteen seconds of Daewon's entire existence.

"You're crazy, you know that?" Soobin says with a chuckle and Daewon feels the smallest crack in his heart. Was Soobin going to reject him now? Had he made things awkward by confessing? Daewon feels the tears starting to form in his eyes as his anxiety rushes in and punches him straight in the gut. The feeling quickly morphs into confusion and slight gay panic when Soobin pulls him forward resting their foreheads together.

"I like you too dummy," he whispers. "I actually came up here to confess to you. Never thought you'd do it first"

"Hey!"

"What I'm being honest. Sorry, Dae" Soobin shrugs and Daewon rolls his eyes.

"Wait...if you thought I liked Taehyun, which gross ew, why would you confess to me?" Daewon questions. Soobin's cheeks dust pink and he awkwardly rubs at his nape.

"Um...I was going to confess to you before you asked Taehyun out and try and seduce you" Soobin answers honestly and Daewon bursts into a fit of giggles.

"You're so fucking cute you know that?" he questions pulling Soobin in for a hug.

"You're cuter, so will you be my boyfriend?" the taller of the two questions, and Daewon gasps.

"You just, how could you...I was supposed to ask you that!" Daewon exclaims "I gave a whole speech and confessed first! That was supposed to be my question"

"You took too long...but are you going to answer or..."

"No"

"No, you're not going to answer?" Soobin questions and Daewon shakes his head.

"No, I won't be your boyfriend," he says with a pout because how dare Soobin have the audacity to even ask him that?

"But you confessed to me!" Soobin exclaims but Daewon waves him off.

"Yeah so?"

"So now we become boyfriends!" Soobin says with a determined lilt in his voice and Daewon breaks down.

"Fine! I wanna be your boyfriend and I really wanna kiss you. I've wanted to kiss you for weeks and it's all I can think about so-" Daewon's rambling gets cut off by a pair of lips pressing against his and wow. So this is what kissing Choi Soobin feels like. Soobin mainly kept control of the kiss, one hand on the back of Daewon's neck, the other gripping his shirt. Daewon brought his hands to Soobin's face cupping his cheeks in his hands and tilting his head a little. The kiss ended all too quickly and Daewon and Soobin both were a blushing mess.

"S-sorry, I just really wanna kiss you," Soobin says with a sheepish smile.

"I think I got that," Daewon says with a chuckle.

"I've wanted to kiss you for a long time actually...like a long time"

"O-oh"

"Hmm. But like I said I thought you liked Taehyun so I never did anything about it"

"Pabo," Daewon says, pecking the boy's lips just to kiss him again. "You can kiss me again if you want since you've been waiting," Daewon says teasingly. Soobin wasted no time placing his lips back on Daewon's and kissing him again.

They kissed for a while, the snack long forgotten. Eventually, their group members went looking for them and once they found the two up on the roof kissing like there was no tomorrow they figured out everything they needed to know. Daewon and Soobin were stupidly in love and Daewon finally figured out what he wanted.

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2 days ago. Yeonjun and Daewon's room.

"You still didn't answer the question. What do you want to do?" Yeonjun says repeating his question. Daewon groans as he stands up and begins pacing again.

"I wanna date him! I wanna be his boyfriend and be there for him when he's happy and when he's sad and make sure he's eating ok and cuddle him and buy him things just because and I really wanna kiss him and-"

"Yeah yeah I think we got it, lover boy. But see. You know what you want, you're just scared" Yeonjun says and Daewon groans because Yeonjun was right. Yeonjun was always right.

"Being in a relationship means being vulnerable, Dae. you're going to get hurt sometimes and sometimes things won't work out but then again maybe it will work out but you'll never know if you don't try" Yeonjun says bestowing words of wisdom.

"I think you'd be cute together" Beomgyu chirps from the sidelines and instantly the serious atmosphere is shattered as Yeonjun turns around and nods excitedly.

"They really would! Like they'd be so awkward and lowkey annoying but super cute"

And while the two gush about a relationship that may never happen Daewon sits on his bed silently. Beomgyu picks up on his hyung needing some alone time and urges Yeonjun out of the room.

"I just need your help ok," Beomgyu whines although no he did not need help doing the dishes however tricking Yeonjun into doing most of the work was one of his favorite hobbies.

"Fine fine," Yeonjun says, giving in and following Beomgyu out the door.

"Oh, Daewon?" the oldest member says before fully leaving the room. He watches as his dongsaeng lifts his head up looking at him.

"Yeah?"

"Don't worry about the company. Hoseok and Minwoo have been dating just fine for three years," Yeonjun says and with that, he leaves Daewon alone. Now equipped with this information Daewon lays in his bed rethinking everything and by the end of the day, he knew exactly how to answer Yeonjun's question.

He wants to be Choi Soobin's boyfriend, even if it means getting hurt in the end. 

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ೃ⁀➷ ꒰ a/n꒱ and there we have it. finally daewon and soobin are together! i can't believe it took me so long to actually write how they got together but i hope it was a good chapter for you guys. it was fun to write this and i even had to recycle old ideas from when i first wrote the book but finally it is done! for those of you who don't know minwoo was my 8th bts member but i have decided to discontinue his book since i couldn't generate enough ideas for him. as always hope you guys enjoyed this chapter! have a great day blue jays💙༉

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