Jisoo's POV

"What's happening? I thought everything was settled?" I paced back and forth as the girls try to pacify me.

It hadn't been two weeks after Jennie and Taehyung revealed their relationship to the public and here we getting the biggest downfall on our careers after my relationship with Yoongi had been revealed.

"Unnie..." Chaeyoung was looking at me in worry while Lisa and Jennie checks on the articles online. They were using Lisa's laptop.

It was there, on every social media platform, photos of me and Yoongi,  from our dates when I was a trainee, those days when we got back together, and even those days when we already broke up.

Everything was there and it scares me. I just woke up and everyone was in panic.

I thought it has been taken cared of?

Yoongi was not here and was still in their company. Our managers had gotten our phones because everybody has been contacting us.

Fans are possessive. Imagine finding out Chaeyoung's marriage with Jimin. That was more than enough to shake our careers. Then here's the revealation of the other two members.

In Korea, it's impossible to have a girl group with all members dating. That's like a suicide.

So now that people know that all of Blackpink are in a relationship, it's like the end for us. This is the last straw. I know we said that we're ready to lose everything after revealing Chaeyoung's relationship but it's not that easy.

"Why is nobody telling us what's happening?" Jennie hissed before standing up probably to find any manager who can enlighten us.

We don't even know what's happening.

"This is a big mess," Lisa bite her lower lip in worry.

It is because now, people already found out that Yoongi and I had been dating since my trainee days. You know people are so easy to build judgment by these facts. I saw one article earlier insinuating that everything might have started because of us, the relationship by other members. Heck, they don't even know that all of these relationships were kept as a secret to one another.

My eyes were glued on the door in front of us when it suddenly burst open. A few of our staffs came rushing in. One took Lisa's laptop.

"What's happening?" Chaeyoung exclaimed after we realized how even our make-up artists are all coming in. It was as if we are on a tour or something.

This is too much. What exactly is going on?

Was the situation really that messy?

Worry filled my system even more.

What about him? Is he okay? Is he doing fine?

"Manager, what's happening? And where's Yoongi?" I asked in worry, biting my lower lip along the process.

This situation is so bad. Yoongi had always been elusive and doesn't really want his personal space to be invaded. But everything, it was all because of me. I know he'd be willing to throw his personal space for me. Because that's just how he is. That's how much he is willing to sacrifice for me.

Just how much can Yoongi take? Just how much more does he need to sacrifice for me?

One of our managers came in and all of us, except for Jennie who's out gathered in front of her.

"A press conference will be happening two hours from now. You guys will be briefed about it but for now, you have to prepare," one of our managers exclaimed.

My heart started to beat faster.

Is this it? Do we announce our disbandment?

Or do I have to deny Yoongi to the whole world?

Who do I save now? Which one?

My dream?

My team?

Myself?

Yoongi?

My eyes started to moist as my chest tightened. Five years... I'm not even sure if I am counting the years correctly but it feels like it has been forever. It's been so fucking long but the closest we have to happiness is by being with each other.

I just want one thing - be with him. But why does it feels like everybody was against us? Why do we always have to fall apart? Why do we end up breaking each other apart?

Why can't the two of us be happy?

Why can't they let us be and be happy?

These years have been stressful. We always have to hide. We always have to comply with what our company wants.

Why can't we simply be happy? Is it so hard to love these days?

Everything used to be easy even with complications. We love,  we fight,  we break up, get together,  we hide and love again. I stopped whining about it as long as I have him. But why is it always us against the whole world?

"Jisoo?" I heard my manager calls me and I look at her still lost in my own thoughts. She looks at me in worry. I feel so bad for causing her a lot of trouble. She's one of those managers that had helped me before over my crazy antics and midnight escapades with Yoongs.

She walked straight to me and I can recognize how she is trying to empathize with my situation.

"You know I always wish you happiness, right?" she smiled at me and my stomach started churning. It must have been the stress and overthinking but I keep on feeling so weird lately. " You need to prepare, Jisoo..." she stated again and it's like her words kept floating on my ears.

Is this it? Will this be the end of Yoongi and I?

Just then, Yoongi's sweet gummy smile filled my eyes, his mere images making my heart flutter, it's indescribable. How he has that impact in my life, I don't know.

All I know is that I can't let this happen.

Yoongi had given up so much. He's given too much. It was as if I took every inch of him without me knowing and I can't afford to take up to the last drop of whatever that's keeping him altogether.

I can't fail him. Not this time. Not ever.

So at this moment, I know I have to do my part. I have to do this. For him. For me. For the both of us.

With that in mind, I quickly turn on my heels and headed straight outside, my manager following.

"Jisoo!"

Everybody kept on calling me but I didn't care.

Yoongi, this time I want to think about him. Only him.

I didn't know how far I have gotten but the moment I got into the lobby, I felt a hand on my shoulder turning me autopilot.

"Kim Jisoo!" I was startled when I saw how worried my manager looked.

I bit my lower lip in frustration.

"I'm sorry manager-nim but I have to do this. I need to see Sajangnim," I told her, and confusion filled her eyes but that didn't make me waver even a bit.

For him.

I saw her sigh.

Somehow, I was hoping that she'll understand. She saw it, how everything began.

"Okay, you didn't think of going back to the office riding a cab, do you? Coz that's offending on my part Kim Jisoo," she smiled and I had to jump and hug her in happiness.

In no time, we were already inside the van heading towards the company.

I was fidgeting, shaking, and basically restless at this point.

What do I say to him?

A lot of things filled my thoughts and I didn't even realize that we've already reached the company.

We had to move faster ad there are a lot of reporters camping outside rather than the usual.

I saw a few employees getting startled when they saw me. I was in a rush and didn't bother thinking why until I reached his office.

I was about to knock when the door suddenly burst open revealing Hanbin. The moment our eyes locked, his eyes widened.

"Yah, noona! What are you doing here?"

I bowed to him in greeting and smiled. "Sorry but I need to see Sajangnim. You just talked to him, right?"

"Yeah but,  aren't you su-"

"Sorry, but I really need to talk to him right now. Catch up with you later," I smiled to him and headed straight to the door. After knocking three times and hearing his words allowing me to come in, I twisted the door handle without any regret.

I didn't know that doing so would make me wish I headed to the conference instead.

I shouldn't have gone here.