Jisoo's POV

A long sigh escaped my lips. Seeing what Jungkook just did after they came back just confirmed my suspicion that the two may be had something going on.

I watch as Jimin carefully sat down beside Chaeyoung while the other still not uttering a word.

Shrugging my shoulders, I put my attention back to my phone when I felt the vibration. From my peripheral vision, I can feel someone staring in my direction.

Yoongi

I gulped.

It's been what? I can't even remember the last time we really talked. I nibbled my lower lip as I focus my attention back on my phone. 

Don't mind him Jisoo.

A small smile escaped my lips at what Do young had said. He was telling us a cute incident on their group's concert abroad. Me, Jinyoung, and Do young had this group chat and we tend to message each other whenever there was something fun that had happened within our day. 

Jinyoung would always tell us how Jackson was being clingy and jealous over us which we just laughed off. 

My body stiffened a little when Yoongi suddenly sat beside me. I moved away a little to make sure our skin won't touch. Regardless of how much I try to hide my awkwardness towards our breakup, it's still not easy for me to simply act as nothing has happened to the two of us. 

Plus, lately, I'm not sure how my body would react now at his touch. I can't breakdown now.

"Who are you chatting with?" I was startled when I heard his voice. It was low and almost a whisper, just enough for me to hear.

I turned to his direction and raised my eyebrow.

"Not you, obviously," I hissed before turning my attention back on my phone.

I heard him snicker but I didn't pay any attention. The more I let myself be used to his presence, the easier it will be for me to move one. Coz that's just it, Jimin being married to Chaeyoung means I'll have to deal with Yoongi forever.

Or maybe I'll get used to him, not if we're not together.

Sometimes I wonder if it's true that there is that one person God had given for you. Coz at this time of my life, I wanna know where he is.

He's taking too much of his time.

"You do realize you're still not allowed to date, right?" he sassed, his arms crossed over his chest. My eyebrow raised at his words.

I know. That's the reason why we broke up, didn't we? I wanted to add but I changed my mind.

But he doesn't have to remind me that because my heart kept reminding me every time.

He doesn't have to double the hurt, does he?

"Says who?" I rolled my eyes on him. We're practically whispering with each other as the others might see us.

"Says your boss. And me," he added and I scoffed.

"You don't have a say on what I can and cannot do,"

"Watch your suitors back off then once they see me," he said with finality and I wanted to explode in anger.

I look at him with disdain and hatred. "Stop talking to me,"

My body almost bolted straight up when I felt his head suddenly resting on my lap, a habit he's used too when we're still together.

I nibbled my lower lip,  unsure if I should be annoyed or what.

"What are you doing?" I asked, my voice stern.

My insides were in a frenzy. I want to get mad.  I want to shout at him.

What does he think he is doing? Who does he think he is?

"Trying to get some sleep," he uttered and I released a long sigh, my eyes starting to sting ad I try to stop my tears.

He can't break up with me when things get hard then act like nothing happened if he sees me trying to get on with my life.

"Move Yoongi," I told him, trying to keep my emotion at bay.

But he didn't budge.

"Please..." I whispered, I close my eyes for a moment. I don't want to have another breakdown when everyone is here with us.

I don't want to be that Jisoo again, the Jisoo who almost lost herself because of a love that is forbidden, a love that seemed not strong enough to risk for a fight.

I opened my eyes and our gaze locked.

No Jisoo, look away.

His eyes, my weakness. Or maybe it's simply him. Everything about him is my weakness. Even the mention of his name, depending on my mood can be a trigger to let myself lose.

He was looking at me intently as if searching my very soul and now I can't look away.

And I felt it, my walls slowly crashing in front of me. The walls I tried so hard to build for the past few months now useless all because of just one conversation.

My lips quiver in helplessness.

"Why did you let me go when you're going to do all this?" I whispered, my head bow hung low as I try to avoid his gaze.

I can feel my heart thumping. Once again, I am that woman who is slowly feeling like there is still some hope between the two of us.

I am slowly getting back to that Jisoo who doesn't care if she gets hurt all because of her love for one guy.

I am that woman again, Yoongi's Jisoo.

When can I just be me?

The sound of someone moaning caught my attention. Even Yoongi looked somewhere but my eyes are starting to water that I did not bother checking what's happening.

Stop showing you're affected Jisoo.

Just then, the sound of the door opening caught everyone's attention.

My heart almost dropped on the floor at the sight of two people who just came in.

I groan internally.

What again?