Wow, it's been another long time. I was in the middle of an apology when a stupid tornado was spotted and never got to finish my thoughts. That was about a month ago and I never updated or let anyone know what was happening.

First of all, the tornado didn't touch down or anything, so everyone is fine. Thank you all for your concern and advice! It really helped me feel safer while I waited.

Now to finish my apology/explanation/resolution thing.

I have not been very active on here in over a year and I'm really feeling it. Pretty much the whole community is gone and it really hurts. I never felt more supported or accepted than when this community was in full swing. My time on here has been some of the best that I've had yet and I hate that it's all slipping away.

One thing I'm going to do is start writing again. Pretty much everyone is gone now, but I always said that I would never leave anything unfinished and I won't. One reason I stopped writing was because it's been over a year since I watched or listened to the full Newsies soundtrack. I love Newsies and recently a few songs came up on Spotify and I remembered all of the reasons I fell in love with it in the first place. All of the good feelings finally came back. For a long time, I didn't feel connected to the characters I was writing about because I couldn't stand to think about the show.

The first time I saw Newsies it was the original Disney movie and I watched it with my best friend. It became one of the movies we watched every time we had a sleepover. Then when Newsies Live was released in February 2017 we went to see it together. The morning after that we spent half an hour before school going on and on about the show. That was the last day we talked before school because after that she spent every moment she wasn't in class with her boyfriend. As two years passed and our relationship had highs and very extreme lows, Newsies was something hard for me to think about. It was a reminder of what I'd lost.

Then, of course, came college worries. Luckily, I filled out applications and have applied early to my top choice, so those worries are put aside for now. This gives me so much more time, even though senior year is actually very very stressful.

Most of you have moved on by now, and that's cool! But I'm going to keep writing for me. I am going to finish what I started and keep this community going for as long as I can. I'm also not going to allow my friend's hurtful actions to spoil something I loved.

Thank you all for the support and love you've given me over the past 2 1/2 years. I can never explain how grateful and I'd love to keep in touch in any way you feel is best and that you are comfortable with!