Chapter Ten

“Where do you want us to go?” Dawn grabbed my hand and caressed it while his left hand was busy at the steering wheel.

I squinted my eyes while thinking about it but I don't have any ideas. “You don't have any plans?”

I turned my head to him and I saw him nod. “I want you to decide.”

Ugh, I really don't have an idea on a date—or should I call this a date? Well, he is caressing my hand so does that mean? Hmm, maybe this is just part of his personality. I saw him with a girl lately so what about her? I'm so stupid of letting myself to be with him.

“It depends on you. I don't have any idea on dates.” I said a fact.

Well, aside from going to a night bar. Since I got to my legal age, I got addicted to night bars. Actually, I don't have any special memory of my first kiss. I was drunk at that time so I wasn't able to see his face. I just woke up from a hangover the next day and accepted the fact that I really just lost my first kiss on a random boy.

He nodded to me and I sensed that maybe he had his plans already. His own choices, eh? He smoothly drove his car too—wait, we were heading to our building? That was it? He just drove me here? Bringing me home literally?!

“Where are we going?” I asked curiously when in fact it was obvious that we were already at the parking lot of the building.

“To my unit,” he said casually and never dared to leave my hands.

I glared several times until I figure out what he said. Oh my goodness, I'm going to his unit again! Of course, I can't help but feel grateful since he seems the type of man who wouldn't let a random person go to his unit, not even letting someone go there for the second time. Now that he said it, it feels like I'm slowly knowing a bit about him. It feels so good. I really can't predict this man as well as his moves and his actions. His thoughts, of course, that's natural because I don't have powers of telepathy. He is the type of person that I badly want to predict but I can't.

His thoughts are really different from other people that I've met. He is different. He is a rich man, a really filthy rich but he didn't use that word to drag everyone down. He doesn't even brag about it. He has the spotlight, almost everything. He has it but still, he remains his feet on the ground.

He doesn't want popularity for himself, that's what I observed. He made his life a private one unlike me, I enjoy impressing everyone around me. I want their attention and I hate to admit that but yes, I really want it. Never in my life that someone did tell me that they are proud of me since I haven't achieved their expectations for me yet.

Dawn's unit was just stepped away from mine and I was a bit shocked. If I did know how near they were, then I might be gone to his already! While we're heading there, there's a part of me that feels warm because until now, he hasn't let go of my hands yet.

“If you're tired, you can take a nap in the guest room.”

Maybe he saw me yawning as I collapsed on the couch.

I nodded. Somehow, I want to enjoy this moment even though I am really tired of everything. Not just because of this day, I got tired of being with Ethann.

“I'm not tired, though.” I denied.

I massaged my nostrils and sniffed. I am really tired but I don't want Dawn to worry about it. I want to tell him that I want to stay with him the whole time but heck, that is embarrassing.

I saw him heading to his room and I thought he was going to change his clothes but he came back after just a minute. He was holding a pair of clothes and went to me.

“Change your clothes, you are sweating a bit, Helly.”

I didn't know that. Is it really that evident? Eww, what a disgusting Helly. But wait, why the heck he have a pair of girl's clothes with him? By his girlfriend again?!

“Whose clothes is this?” I asked and managed to be casual.

“That was Eriesyl's. She stayed with me here for the whole week.”

My brows furrowed and I bit my lower lip. Who is she? Eriesyl? I know that I don't know much about him but he should make it clear. I feel like I am his mistress. Yuck.

“Who's Eriesyl? Girlfriend?”

I swear I don't sound like a jealous random girl who admires him. Damn, why did he even mention his girl's name to me?

“What?” He chuckled a bit. “No, she's my sister.”

My mouth fell. Damn, that was a pain in the ass. I just nodded and I went to his comfort room to change my Suneast shirt. I also want to hide the embarrassment. Every time that I'm with him, there's always an embarrassment.

It was a simple black printed shirt, the print was sunset and they really look good in my eyes. He also let me borrow his sister's dolphin shorts.

I only hung the shirt and pants I used lately on the extra hangers there and went out.

The comfort room was near the dining area so I was able to smell the food that he was cooking. I automatically smile when I realize that it was my favorite food. A chicken curry. In my excitement, I can't help myself but go near him.

I suddenly blushed when a thought pops up in my mind. We look like a couple here.

“I cooked your favorite,” he said.

Oh gosh, I am blushing so I don't know how to respond. I remember that I told him about it. All of my favorites and that includes my favorite food.

“Woah, I didn't know you're a good cook.” Because the last time he cooked for me, it was just breakfast and I know this one is harder to cook than those.

“Just wait for a minute, it's almost done.” He gazed at me, lips forming a line, a smile.

I smiled at him and watched the view of his back from where I was sitting. I grabbed my phone and captured his back. I understand that he is so private so I edited the photo and made it blur. I captioned it ‘my favorite’ and that has double meanings. That's for my followers to think about.

When he finally finished cooking, he put the food on my plate. I managed myself not to drool when my eyes sparkled the moment I saw the chicken curry, and when I tasted it, it tasted so good to the point that I wanted to scream.

“This is so good, Dawn. Really good!”

He was just staring at me for the whole time, a ghost of a smile on his lips. “Really? I'm glad you liked it.”

“Of course, I would! It's also an effort.”

I continued complimenting the food he cook because they deserve all the compliments that existed in the world. The smell of it, made me crave them even though they were just right in front of me. The taste gave me goosebumps, that's how delicious it was.

“Eriesyl is actually my half-sister.”

I gulped when he said it.

“I see.” I nodded. I want to ask things but I might cross the lines and also I don't want to be insensitive towards him. I realized that he started to open up private things about himself but taking advantage of it feels illegal.

“My Mom cheated while she's with Daddy. And heck, they were actually married but Mommy isn't faithful enough. The girl I've been with lately was Eriesyl. The result of it all. She's a year older than you. When Mommy admitted that she cheated, I almost can't believe it. It was very hard to handle. My trust issues went up. Though she had those kinds of histories before and Daddy thought that he can tame her but he's wrong.”

I slowly swallowed my food and figured out what he said. I can't help but compare my Mommy to his. My mom was the best woman in the world that I know. She never tried to hurt Daddy, except on the part that she passed away.

“Dawn, if this is hard for you, I would understand if you won't open this up to me.” I caressed his hands this time not to flirt with him but to make him feel that I really won't mind if he won't tell this to me. If it's hard, he doesn't have to. This topic is—I don't know how to describe it but it might affect him, remembering those hurtful memories.

“No, Helly. I don't want to be unfair. I know everything about you and you deserve to know me too. You told me, we're f-friends right?”

Friends, we are friends. I was the one who befriended him but why is it that word can ruin my day? ugh, I don't know.

“I'm not forcing you to do the same, Dawn.”

“But I want to, Helly. I want you to begin knowing every bit of me.” He assured me with a smile and he caressed back my hand.

“My Mom and Dad, they were not on good terms until now. My Mommy wants to file for a divorce but my Daddy doesn't want to. He got fooled and blinded by this thing called love. He said, even though I grew up now, I still need a complete family to lean on. I badly want to hate Mom because, how did she do that? Cheat on his family nth times and never felt guilty? She just said sorry and then that's it. Do the same thing after weeks again.”

I can see the pain in Dawn's eyes. Say sorry and then weeks after, do the same things again? That was shit.

“She said, as a girl who's been sticking to a one man for a long time feels sick, she has her own needs. She admitted that it sucks sticking to one. So yeah, we are not enough.”

I bit my lips. The girl has needs, well I admit that I also do kissing with random boys but not because that is what I need. Is it because I am curious about the feeling of being kissed? That is how it all started. Because of curiosity.

“The reason why I didn't pick a girlfriend. I have so many trust issues.”

“What about me?” I voiced out and oh my, what have I just said?!

Instead of laughing at me, he just looked down. “I-I don't know, Helly. Well, it is my first time being friends with a girl. Since my school days, I've been an outcast and nerd. However, no one bullied me as they said, I am almost perfect to be bullied. I don't believe that. I'm not perfect, there's a piece I'm looking for to complete me and that is genuine and faithful love from someone.”

I wish I could be that someone. I almost voiced out.

If someday, I am going to marry someone, I promised that I will stick to him and even though I have a making-out history in my past, that is because I wasn't in love. I haven't met love. Daddy told me that I am free to marry someone who loves me and someone I love and I'm grateful for him for letting me do that.

I will be faithful to my future family, I will love my husband every minute that passes by. I will stay on his side and I will choose my feelings and choose him over and over again without any regret.

“Sorry to hear that. Well, maybe someday, if I am going to marry someone I will be faithful because I'm sure that I will love him, right?”

As I was busy muttering words, I glanced at Dawn who was now looking at me straightly as if he saw paradise in my eyes. His dark eyes were sparkling.

“Me neither. I will also be faithful to my wife in the future. No matter who she is, I will love her and shower her with my undying love.” He said while looking me straight in the eyes. Damn, my heart fell maybe under the table.