does it ever feel like your life is actually a terribly written movie?

like seriously, i'm so close to looking for cameras that are filming me. all the people in my life are just paid actors following a script to make my life has horrible as possible.

take today, for instance. it's my birthday and i had a really great first block, like everyone was wishing me happy birthday and it was just fun in general. i've had a really bad month, so it was nice. and then i got to my second block class and everything just went to shit.

one of my best friend's (the friend i've been having problems with, if you've been following my drama) forgot my birthday. completely. even though yesterday we hung out at school and i mentioned that it was tomorrow, she forgot.

and then she and the other friend i've been having problems with didn't say a single word to me that whole class. so yeah, i cried, but it's alright because nobody noticed.

see what i mean? that sounds like something that would happen only in a terribly written movie. but it happened. i'm at the point where i thank people for treating me somewhat like a human being. how fucked up is that?

and then the rest of the day was horrible, and i came home crying. but i mean, happy birthday to me.