[A/N:] God, it feels like I haven't updated this book in forever and I'm having severe writers block :((((. I'm trying to update and write, but if the writing's a little crap that's probably why and I'm sorry for all you people out there who bother reading this book😅😅😅

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"Come on Loki!" She yelled behind her, encouraging Loki and his horse to speed up "Darling, we must take a break" He pleaded as the both of them had been on the road for about as long as an hour-possibly more "But-" "The horses need rest darling, come on now" He looked at her softly, silently pleading for her to listen to him. "Alright" She sighed softly until she realised how tired Shanty looked, her beautiful caramel Friesian horse now looked sleep deprived as they had been on the road for hours on end.

"Let them rest while we set up camp" Loki told her while walking around muttering protection spells to keep them safe during the night "You told your family about us leaving right?" Enchessa looked over at Loki suspiciously, who almost choked on his saliva "I have...Not" He mumbled while looking over at Enchessa with his lips pressed thinly together as he silently waited for her to begin screaming...

"Loki...Why do I bother sometimes" She sighed while magicking up a piece of paper and using magical ink to send Frigga a letter to tell her that she and Loki would be gone for an extra few days or possibly a week or two, depending on how long it took the pair to find the strange voices Enchessa kept on hearing.

"Can't a man forget darling?" Loki chuckled while wrapping his slender and venom green coated armour covered arms around her waist from behind, resting his chin on her shoulder as she ignored him playfully and continued to flick her fingers around as the ink-sustained feather pen scribbled all the words Frigga and Odin would need to know for their absence. "Loki!" She whined playfully as he bit down and tickled her neck "Enchessa!" He mimicked her while his fingers helplessly tickled her sides as she couldn't help but laugh and huff at his baby-like behaviour.

The two helplessly giggled in the short evening of sunset, the burning orange of the sun radiating on the both of them, the blazing red and warm colours lighting up the trees and meadows with the colours hanging over their heads as they were tangled in each others embrace, running for their hearts content as the both of them raced as far as their eyes could see, mountains and great canyons below them as they saw their future in front of them...Just the two of them, maybe three.

Listened to Paralyzed while writing this, it's by NF-And the Slowed down Version On Repeat. It makes the chapter a little more emotional? Idk, but it goes really nice with it so?...

"Loki" "Yes darling-" He smiled while she turned around and slowly faced him with a saddened face, causing the once bright pearly whites to turn into nothing but a frown "Enchessa-" "No Loki" His heart stopped beating for a brief moment when those two words registered through his ears...When he heard those two words...Where he heard those two words...The trauma of the memories that caused him his greatest pain. The lonely two words that did everything it could to turn his life into a living hell...The two words that had him gladly falling into an empty and endless abyss of nothingness and cold-...Cold stone that he had buried his heart deep within while shutting off everything and everyone he loved...

Shutting off his every reason to keep living on, shutting off his breath so that he didn't need to longer be in anyone's way. To hide like a cold and frozen shadow under the heat and warmth of everyone around him, he was burden to his own two shoulders and he knew it was always going to stay that way no matter what he did or tried to do to prove himself, prove his worthiness and greatness to everyone around him, to finally be seen for something, finally be seen as something other than a casted out boy who only wanted a loving family as all he ever got was a family with siblings that pushed him into the shadows and shielded him from the greatness he could've withheld for his own.

But no...

Because Freedom is life's greatest lie...

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"Loki?" "Huh-" He snapped out of his trance as the memories of him letting go of the golden staff appeared in his eyes, the moment he looked into Thor's eyes and saw all the love and pain building up as they begged for him to not let go and hold on tighter for longer, just a little longer for Loki as Thor shed his own tears, watching his brother's eyes as all he saw was the hope that was slowly fading away.

"I could've done it father, I could've done it. For you...For all of us"

"No Loki"

He shut his eyes as he could hear Thor screaming his name, hearing him cry out for Loki to not let go and hold on tighter for his sake.

"No"

Shutting his eyes tight as he could hear the pain in Odin's voice as he continued to fall down the abyss...Viewing the bridge and Asgard for the last time as time around him seemed to slow down as he turned his body away from Enchessa and covered his ears harshly with his hands, trying not to see or hear his mother's voice of pain as he felt the angered tears bubbling in his eyes "Loki-" "NO!" He screamed as everything around him silenced themselves, sensing his rage and regret as they were sure to stay clear of the heaving God that was on the verge of a mental breakdown, ready to destroy everything around him, only to just let go of everything he held within.

"Loki-" "I COULD'VE DONE IT" He screamed once again as he dropped to his knees with the soil now digging into his clothes, the soft brown solid bending to his will as they maneuvered around his body and held him. His ink black hair falling across his face, covering him with a curtain of darkness as his knuckles turned pale from the iron grip he held onto the marl and dirt. His eyes shut tighter than he ever thought they could, suppressing his tears as he was choking on the sudden thin air that seemed to float around him.

"No Loki"

Ignoring everything around him, he let go of everything he could've possibly held onto, only managing to let out pained gasps as he just didn't want to hold onto his memories any longer "I could've done it-" He cried out once again as the tears found their way out from his glazed eyes as they slid down his cheeks, solidifying into ice on their way down onto the soil beneath him. Even to the point of leaving small crystalled droplets of tears as they slowly melted back into liquid form only for the land to take it back...The leaves even on the trees and life around him shook like a hurricane, thrashing into nothing and flailing themselves around, almost feeling Loki's anger and rage as they tried to talk and comfort him-trying to tell him that everything was okay and that he had everyone he could ever want around him, the one he loved the most by his side and a loving family that could help him heal all the wounds he kept hidden, even the ones that never seemed to want to heal...Even the ones that left the biggest scars...The ones that haunted him and forever continued their painful torment...

"Loki-" Enchessa grabbed his face into her hands as she just stared into his eyes, ignoring everything else around them as all she wanted to do was calm him down "Loki, Loki please-" She begged softly, eyes ready to pour crystalline as her breath staggered from the emotions bubbling up and popping inside of her. She scooted closer as she leaned forward and rested her forehead on his, cupping his cold and damp cheeks in her quivering palms as she slowly wiped away the endless stream of tears that seemed to fall from his eyes...Only giving him the soft relief as he too closed his eyes. But his lips shut tight, causing him to bite on the skin and rip it open as the blood slowly leaked onto his tongue, tasting metal and iron...Only for the smallest sob to escape and he turned his head around and pushed it into her neck harshly as he was the quickest to ever reach out and hug her, pulling her in lightning fast as she too wrapped her arms around his shoulders...Holding her to him now as he sobbed into her shoulder. Tear upon tear falling as all Enchessa could do was hold him and let him break down everything he held down. Allowing him to let go and rid himself of the burden he carried on his shoulders; Himself.

"Loki I'm sorry, whatever I have done to wrong you, I am truly sorry" She whispered softly into his hair before placing a warm kiss on his forehead, stroking his raven locks as all she could do was hold and comfort him "Loki it's okay" She laughed softly as her voice trembled, herself thinking of her late mother that passed as she too began cry...Letting out all the emotions she let bottle up inside of her, her raw emotions leaking as she held him tight with purpose to never let go "Please, please be okay" Enchessa whispered against his hair, clutching onto him tighter as her body tried to push herself closer and closer to the man currently bawling in pain from the memories she had just brought up.

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"Loki?" "Hm..." He sat staring at the fire Enchessa watched him from his opposite direction, eyeing carefully, Wearily as she was slightly concerned for him and his mental state. She had somehow provoked an unwanted memory and Loki's sudden silence was worrying her far too much than what she was used to "Loki please talk to me, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to bring back a bad memory of yours" She walked over and kneeled beside him, rubbing his back softly as she begged with her eyes as Loki paid no attention.

"I want some sleep, we'll talk in the morning Enchessa" He mumbled while walking towards the 'tent' that resembled a small hut of some sport, providing the right protection from anyone or anything throughout the journey of the night that was ahead of them.

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This was going to be a long night...

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[A/N:]

This writers block is going to be the death of me, I want this story to actually be good. But this writers block is-It's so Frustrating!!!