At the Moment...

It seems like it's been forever,
yet it seems like it was just yesterday.
It's like I'm connected to you by this long tether,
several months after and it hasn't gone away

Tired of just having to hope,
hearing and saying the same things over and over again
Running out of ideas on how to cope
Gladly looking for a new way to bargain

Having to come up with answers to fill in the empty places
Not knowing whether things are good or bad
It could be a number of different cases
The endless scenarios are enough to drive one mad

Exhausted more each day that goes by
Unable to do anything, but go along
Incapable of saying or doing anything that isn't a lie
Not knowing whether this is even being strong

Left in the dark unknowing about you all
Kept up at night wishing you'll all come back
Wishing for anything; a text, an email, a call
Makes it harder to keep ones life in track

Mind on overdrive thinking about what's going on
No matter what, letting go is not a possibility
Played easily like a chess pawn
My presence is nothing but a liability

It won't be the same when the sun returns
Everything will have changed everywhere
It'll definitely cause painful burns
Unable to be fixed like a small tear

Unable to see what's next
All that matters is being back beside us
Having to deal with more than a long text
It'll heal with time as it all does...

8.17.18 (11:17 pm)