"sometimes i even wonder how i'm still alive you know? it all seems like this, all seems like that, but really, everything is so hard in life. how can someone live just like this you know?" he asks and laughs. "i ask if humans are really humans or just robots under human skin."

so uhm,, these are my everyday thoughts. everything in my life just gets weaker and more vulnerable. please don't pity me. don't ask me if i'm okay or feeling well, i'll alarm all of you if i ever feel bad about myself, don't worry. i just don't want people to ask me things like that. everything just gets deeper from here. believe me i've gone through much harder scenarios in my life. all i want to say is whenever i update this and feel like shit. do not ask me if im doing okay, i'll just feel worse.