i f orgot i needed to vent abt art related things so heres 1 of the other 3 drawings that were left

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hoo boy l emme rjs lemme star t ehajskfkcsklac

caution: lots of cursing and swears and also bad words

ok so

my da dkeeps

showing my ahit off to people??? as if its the ost magical thing in the world???? w ithout my permission????? which already is a problem????

ok b ut

they keep

f orc inf me to draw them????

first it was my dad??? whcih is weird??? because i succ??

but lets

its a semi realistic art thing right??? not my usual style but what i use to draw older real people??? it takes about 3-4 maybe even 5 days if i spend 4 hours every day working on it ((minimum!!!))

s o it

it takes a fucking while

and it does a huge number on my back and i dont h ave that mych time when i get home from school so it takes up any remainder of my day that i have???? or else itll take longer and those fuckers will rush me non stop????

but t he worse fucking oart aboht this shit is that the only people who have ever taken advantage of what i (badly) draw are fully grown adults (so far all male)) and

first it was my dad and

he d id not leave me the fuck alone.

if i started working on something that wasnt his face hed get mad

but af ter i finished that shit

he goes off and shahdjakd

he shoes the pastor???? our pastor?????????? like not even a week later the pastor??????? asks me???? to draw him?????

i cant turn that shit down??????? fucking sh it

and he gave me the worst possible picture to work off of????

and i can t decline b ecause hes my fucking pastor??? and him and bis family came to eat at our house for like 3 days straight and every fu cking second him and my d ad kept stabbing me in the toes as k ing if i had finished it yet

but i finally finished it, and it was

noticably of lower quality than the one i did of my dad but still ok

and he just says

"woowwow gracias"

so im

im
at my limit

id decided that drawing real people who request themselves to be drawn was too much work and pressure and i dont want to go through that its not good for me mentally or  physically

but then

this fat ass fucking piece of shit friend of my dsd comes over

and im on my way upstairs because i needed to work on shit

and my dad just like yelss at me to show him my sketch book and im??? like ok????? and i do and

g uess who the fuck asks me to draw him

the piece of shit friend my dad brought over (( he has a wife n like 4 or 5 kids who arent that bad but he treats them horribly)) a sks me to draw him

n k no

no he did not ask

neither did the 2 previous fully grown adult men

he told me to draw him

and i

i knew that it wasnt healthy for me??? because im not used to working too much???

so im like

"hhhh it ta kes so long i really do nkt want to" as polite as possible

and already my dad is

ready to kick my ass (( not literally))

but the guy goes

"haha no do it haha

haha

how hard can it be haha!!i believe in you!!"

f uCKING BULLSHIT HOLY SHIT HO L Y S HIT A FULLY GROWN HUMAN IS DOING THIS SHIT TO ME, A PERSON WHO IS BASICALLY A TODDLER

H O LY SHIT

AND I CANT TURN IT DOWN BECAUSE MY DAD IS LIKE OH YEAH SHELL TOTALLY DO IT

FUCK YOU

HOLY SHIT I HATE DOING THINGS AGAINST MY OWN WILL????????????

SO HE SP E DNS A GOOD 5-8 MINUTES TRYIG TO TAKE A PICTURE OF HIS FACE BECAUSE THIS MOTHERFUCKER CANNOT HOLD AN IPAD AND H IM ALREADY RILED THE FUCK UP IM READY TO DRINK A WHOLE GALLON OF BLEACH I DONT GIVE A SHIT

HE TAKES LIKE 40 AWFUL SELFIES AND FINALLY DECIDES ON THE UGLIEST PIECE OF SHIT PICTURE THERE IS

FUCK YOU

FUCNEVSKSNSABNFCKS

i get it if

a kid wants me to draw their favorite tv show character

they r smol and do not realize that there are people whk are ten million times better than me and they dont know anything abt the economy thats cool ill draw u starfire even if it looks ugly as shit thats cool im cool w that

if i ask for requests or recommendations thats cool im cool with that

im not cool with adults forcing me to to things for them at the cost of nothing but my own health????? you know damn well not to take advantage of people????? especially kids??????? fucking pieces of garbage?????

im

im fin e

im just real pissed

and really tired

and i kind of want to cry

but im cool im alright and i just need to get this shit over with