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"You know I love you, right?"

It's been a few years sense he's seen her, a few years of pain and suffering, a few years of wishing for the sweet embrace of death to be reunited with her just once more. Letting out a strained laugh, Ichimatsu stood up and looked down at his feet as he debated on what to do at this moment in his depression. He'd read stories to advert his mind, he'd been through therapy sessions, he even talked to Karamatsu about his deep grief.

You had died a few years ago, Ichimatsu always told you he would let you do what you thought was right, and after a huge fight the two of you had... Inhaling sharply at the painful memory, Ichimatsu shut his eyes tiredly, being sleep deprived had its disadvantages.

"It'll all change, Ichimatsu."
He remembered those words as clear as day, eyes glazing over with self hate as he chuckled softly to himself, slowly sinking to sit on the window sil with a solemn expression. "I didn't mean to get you killed, I didn't mean anything I said.." He said softly, gaze resting on the cemetery a little ways away from their dinky little house. "I didn't mean it....." He whispered again, forehead resting against the brittle glass as he shut his eyes and went into a comfortable silence with himself.

His brothers had left in the pursuit of jobs, even Todomatsu offered jobs to Ichimatsu so he could get back out into society. But who'd want to go back to reality when their girlfriend committed suicide by his words? He laughed with himself in the silence, tears welling up beneath his eyelids as he fiddled with the locket you gave him a month before the fight.

"You're such a goofball! Oh right--!! I got you something, I hope you like it!"

He sighed and pulled away from the window and opened the locket gingerly, eyelids heavy as tears began to roll down his cheeks and onto the photo inside the locket. "I can still hear your voice, it hurts, [ Y/N ]..." He said softly to himself again, blinking and allowing tears to burst from his eyes as his form began to shake, hiccups erupting in large spasms from his body as he laughed painfully.

"I never meant to hurt you!"

"I know.."