"Jimin, I just don't understand why you think I'm jealous." You respond to Jimin while you two come into his house from work. You start to reach your hands up and undo the bun on your head, causing Jimin to lean against the doorway as he stares over at you.

"Because you are jealous." He states nonchalantly, tugging his tie off as he stands in front of you, watching as you start to get undressed. "We've been together for four months and I've known you for longer. You think I won't notice?" he questions before he sets his tie on his couch, plopping onto the couch as he starts undoing the top buttons of his work shirt, allowing his upper chest to get air. You roll your eyes as you start undoing your blazer.

"I'm fine, Jimin." You respond. Jimin looks up at you, lifting his eyebrows as he silently stares at you, giving you the stare that makes you want to tell Jimin everything. The stare that made you fall for this man in the first place. You let out a soft sigh and run your fingers through your hair before shrugging. Your fingers get caught in a knot in your hair and you start to undo the knot while speaking. "Alright, fine. I'm jealous, is that what you want to hear?" you question. Jimin furrows his eyebrows before shaking his head.

"No, I don't care about being right," he starts before he steps towards you, cupping your face in his hand as he stares into your eyes while you try to shy away. Jimin lowers himself and bends his knees so that you have to look at him. "I care about your feelings. I don't care about being right. You told me about this in the past and said that this is why you don't think you're good at relationships but being jealous doesn't mean that. Why are you jealous, baby? Talk to me. The only way we'll fix it is by communicating." You stare at the man before deciding to speak.

"She kept touching you and I just... I didn't like the way she was so close and touchy with you." You respond. He nods his head and merely smiles at you.

"I mean... that's understandable," he responds before moving his hand from your face to gently place both of his hands against your shoulders. He stares down at you, searching for a solution in your face as he continues talking. "Do you want me to remind her I have a girlfriend and tell her it makes me uncomfortable when she's touching me like that?" he questions. You glance down and start to think as you shrug.

I want you to tell Mr. Jung that she's touching you and get her fired for inappropriate work conduct.

"I... um..." you bite onto your lower lip before shrugging. "I want you to tell her that you have a girlfriend and..." you drift off, causing Jimin to persist for a solution.

"And?" he questions before pressing his lips together. "Baby, I don't want you feeling jealous, because there's nothing to be jealous of. Tell me what you want me to tell her, and I'll do it."

You won't like the words that I want you to say. You'll think I'm a bad person.

"I want you to tell her that you have a girlfriend and that you don't like her touching you," you start before you continue on. "But I also want you to point out that it's inappropriate for a coworker to be touching another coworker like that. Mr. Jung is a cool guy but doesn't take inappropriate conduct lightly." Jimin nods his head before softly smiling.

"You really are jealous, bringing Mr. Jung into this," he states with a soft laugh. When you frown up at him, he nods his head before moving his hands down to yours, holding his hands in yours. "But, if that makes your jealousy go away, I'll do it." He responds.

"Thank you." You quietly respond as you release his hands and instead wrap your arms around him, moving in closer to him. Jimin smiles softly as he feels your arms around him, wrapping one arm securely around you before he gently runs his fingers through your hair.

"Now, to tackle the next problem," he responds before pulling away to look down at you. "What the hell are we eating for dinner?" he responds before you roll your eyes and gently push him away from you. He laughs and takes your hand, leading the way to the kitchen. "I'm serious, what do you want to eat, baby?" he questions while he stops in front of the fridge, opening the large appliance as he gestures towards the food inside.

"Hm," you say, scanning the fridge before leaning back against Jimin as you glance at his backyard. "I'm really craving Korean barbeque." You state while gesturing towards the barbeque in the backyard. Jimin furrows his eyebrows as he stares down at you.

"You do know that Korean barbeque is better at a Korean restaurant, right?" he questions, causing you to smile widely as you giggle and shrug. Jimin rolls his eyes playfully before he leans down, pressing his lips to your neck. "Hm, a spoiled brat, huh?" he teases, causing you to gasp and place your hand on your chest.

"I'm offended," you respond before turning to face the man. "I'm not spoiled." You retort. Jimin immediately laughs and shakes his head before he reaches in and presses his lips onto yours. He immediately reaches past you while kissing you, reaching into the fridge as he grabs a pack of meat. Pulling away from the kiss, he waves the pack of meat in front of your face, causing your eyes to sparkle in delight. Jimin laughs as you grab the pack of meat from him, rushing towards the doors leading to his backyard. He trails behind you before opening the door for you as you walk towards the grill, immediately checking to see if it's clean.

Upon seeing all of the dirt built up on the grill top, you hand Jimin the meat and immediately start walking back into the house.

"Where are you going, baby?" he asks, furrowing his eyebrows. You glance back at his confused expression and softly laugh to yourself. Jimin has his lips pouted out as he asks where you're going, causing you to secretly admire how cute he is.

Apparently you admire for too long.

"Or would you rather have me for dinner?" Jimin smirks as he then crosses his arms across his chest, his cute expression now turning into a mischievous one. You bite onto your bottom lip before shrugging.

"You're dessert, not dinner." You respond before turning back around. "I'm just gonna clean the grill, it has some old food built up on it." You respond before heading into the house. You furrow your eyebrows once you remember that you don't know where the cleaning supplies are.

Turning on your heel, you prepare to start walking towards the patio door again. You start walking towards the patio door, still glancing back at the kitchen as you then bump into Jimin's tall figure. There's a smug smile on his face as he leans against the open patio door, staring down at you.

"Bottom of the pantry." The short sentence leaves his lips as he then backs away from the patio door, making his way towards the grill once more as you stand there in shock, eyes locked on him as he walks away. You softly smile to yourself before turning around to head back into the kitchen.

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"I'm so glad you had some meat to grill." You say before stuffing your mouth with some bacon. Jimin laughs before shaking his head as he grabs some of the meat with his chopsticks.

"Me too, I don't think I've ever seen you eat this much." He responds before smiling as he reaches over the table. "I'm glad you're finally eating enough to keep you full." He states before placing his chopsticks directly in front of your face. You look up at him as he silently pleads for you to take the bite of food from his chopsticks. You roll your eyes before taking the meat from his chopsticks into your mouth.

Glancing down, you realize that you had eaten more than half of the food while Jimin had less than half. You look up at him, feeling guilty before he smiles softly at you. He wipes the corner of his mouth with a napkin before getting up and walking towards your side of the table as he takes your hand in his. You stand up with him and follow behind as he leads the way to the couch. He plops onto the couch before pulling you onto his lap as he turns the TV on. You lean back against him and rest your head in the crook of his shoulder.

"I thought we're having dessert." You state before glancing back at Jimin. He parts his lips while lifting his eyebrows.

"Dessert?" he questions before looking over at the fridge for a moment, most likely remembering if he had any dessert in the fridge. You stare at him as realization hits and he arches an eyebrow, slowly turning his gaze back to you. "Oh... that dessert... we are." He responds before quickly adjusting on the couch so that your legs are now near his left arm. He then slowly stands up from the couch, lifting you along with him as he starts making his way towards the bedroom.

You wrap your arms around his neck until Jimin places you on the bed. He hovers over you for a moment before starting to press his lips against yours, his hands gripping tightly onto your hips.

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You and Jimin are now lying next to each other, panting heavily as you stare at the ceiling. Jimin's arms are wrapped around you, his head tucked in the crook of your neck as he places soft kisses on your neck every now and then. Your legs are still wrapped around Jimin's torso and you press your lips together.

Being in Jimin's arms should be giving you a warm feeling inside. You're trying your best to feel warm inside. You're trying your best to be content and happy in his arms. Unfortunately, you can't help but shake the feeling of uneasiness in your stomach.

Yes, Jimin didn't show any affection back towards Sowon. Yes, he was backing away from her during every single one of her attempts to touch him. However, you just can't seem to find it in yourself to be relaxed about it.

You know Jimin wouldn't hurt you, if there's anything he's expressed towards you, it's that.

However, when Jimin's holding you in his arms, you realize that the problem isn't the jealousy that you've been scared of. It's you not being able to fully put your trust towards someone. Even if that someone is Jimin.

It's the time when Jimin falls asleep in your arms and you're awake, unable to fall asleep when you realize it: you are broken. Your trust was gone. You don't have any trust to give to Jimin, even if you wanted to give it to him.

You stare down at the man who's fallen asleep in your arms and run your fingers through his hair for a moment.

No matter how perfect Jimin is, I'm broken. That's the problem. I'm the problem.

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I know that update days are Monday's and Thursday's..... buuuuuut I wanted to post something in honor of my friend Serendipity_Studios finishing her most recent story on YouTube! Congrats, I'm so proud of you! 💗

Also, I figured everyone could use a bit of cheering up. I've noticed a lot of people who are feeling a little down lately, so I figured I should make all of you happy by posting this. I was pretty sad yesterday and realized that 1 thing that always makes me feel better is reading your comments and seeing your reactions to my writing. So that's another reason I'm posting a day early. (There's still gonna be another update tomorrow too).

I watched George Floyd's funeral yesterday and that really upset me watching his family and friends say what a good person he was while crying. I hope his family and friends know he's watching over them.

As always, continue to spread the word. I'm going to keep repeating this because we're not done yet. We've made 1 step forward but there's so much left in this marathon.

I love all of you.

Stay safe, stay happy, stay healthy.

- Kim. 💕