22| i'm scared

depressive gays + hoseok who is bi💅

you added loml❤️ to the
group chat

loml❤️
euhm...hey

worldwide handsome
PRINCE CHARMING ARRIVED

hyung with brain
HEY KOOKIE

tae
kookie?

hyung with brain
you always call him that

tae
doesn't mean you can do so too😤
only i can

sprite's spouse
oop

yoonglez
jungkoooooooooooooook

loml❤️
whos that?

yoonglez
doesn't matter, ever thought about
recording a song?

tae
HYUNG?

loml❤️
guess you're yoongi
idk never thought about it
can y'all maybe say who u r?

worldwide handsome
worldwide handsome

tae
jin hyung

worldwide handsome
🙄

yoonglez
yoongi

sprite's spouse
hoseok

hyung with brain
namjoon

bestie💖
jimin

hyung with brain
so you're back

bestie💖
wdym

yoonglez
nvm

loml❤️
hey jimin🙃

bestie💖
hello jungkook🙂

sprite's spouse

worldwide handsome
THE TENSION

yoonglez
you just want the tension,
you don't want my heart

hyung with brain
it's you just want attention hyung

yoonglez
i'm the music hoe here

tae
why are you bringing
charlie puth into this???😫

yoonglez
because of his song 'the tension'

hyung with brain
is no one gonna support me?

loml❤️
i -as the real charlie puss stan here-
say it's the tension

tae
listen to my hubby,
he knows what he's saying🥰

bestie💖
🙄

loml❤️
can't wait to hear hubby
coming from your voice

worldwide handsome
I-

tae
😳

hyung with brain
IT'S NOT THE TENSION

yoonglez
it is period

bestie💖
anyways, jungkook?

loml❤️
what?

bestie💖
you're tae's boyfriend?

loml❤️
any problems?

worldwide handsome
😬

bestie💖
no 🙃

loml❤️
good😙

yoonglez
jungkook's provocative, he's my new
favorite member of our group

sprite's spouse
hmm and what's with jimin?

tae
oh oh

worldwide handsome
HOBI

hyung with brain
🤦🤦🤦

loml❤️
?

bestie💖
?

yoonglez
i'll kill you sunshine

tae
hoseok you better run run run

sprite's spouse
i am running bitch

hyung with brain
so jungkook, when r u coming to school

loml❤️
don't know, within this week ig

tae
COME TOMORROW!

sprite's spouse
YES

bestie💖
let him go when he wants

hyung with brain
jimin🙄

tae
pretty please kookie🥺

loml❤️
oki fine angel

tae
i love you!❤️

loml❤️
love you too❤️

worldwide handsome
my single ass feels lonely😔

yoonglez
YOU AND NAMJOON ARE
LITERALLY A COUPLE
and taehyung and jungkook you already are
in the i love you stage?😏

hyung with brain
jin and i are no couple

sprite's spouse
no, jin and you just flirt the whole day over, forget everything around you when you are with each other, blush whenever the other talks and jin is permanently sitting on
your lap in school and probably doing
the same right now🙂

worldwide handsome
IM NOT SITTING ON HIS LAP

hyung with brain
he's leaning against my shoulder

sprite's spouse
🤦

loml❤️
you live together?

tae
they're roommates

bestie💖
guys you down for a party tmr?

sprite's apouse
gosh, yes

yoonglez
yessir

worldwide handsome
gosh yoongi
yeah party sounds nice

tae
i don't know yet,
you know i hate parties

bestie💖
pretty please tae, you're my best friend

tae
i'll think about it

bestie💖
cmon tae it'll be fun! you barely ever
went to a party:(

tae
i'm sorry
i just can't

bestie💖
whyy, a party without my best friend
isn't a party🤧

worldwide handsome
jimin don't force him

bestie💖
i'm just asking

hyung with brain
you know what happened

bestie💖
what happened?

loml❤️
everything alright baby?

tae
i'll tell you next time, kook
can y'all stop talking about it?
please

yoonglez
you didn't tell jungkook?

sprite's spouse
jimin doesn't know either?

bestie💖
what?

tae
i tried to forget it hyung and i
did for a time

worldwide handsome
why are y'all bringing this up again!

hyung with brain
guys stop it

bestie💖
what happened?

sprite's spouse
tae are you alright?

loml❤️
what the fuck is going on?

bestie💖
what the fuck is going on?

yoonglez
tae you okay?

loml❤️
tae baby, answer please

loml❤️

loml❤️
taehyung?

angel❤️
can you come over please?

loml❤️
are you alright?

angel❤️
i'm scared

loml❤️
stay home, i'm coming

jungkook slid his phone in his pocket, put his leather jacket on and stormed out of his flat, down the stairs and ran. maybe he's too dramatic, but whatever happened has taehyung feeling scared and his first priority is to be there for him. he hates to see taehyung sad or scared.

arriving in full speed at taehyung's house, he ringed the bell making the fragile boy inside flinch and shudder. he felt suffocated first, but he knew it was jungkook- his boyfriend, the person he loves so much, he fell for so deep. he slowly gets up, still hesitating first, but finally reached the door, opening up with tears stained cheeks.

and before everything could be registered, the ravenette pulled taehyung's shaking frame into his embrace, holding him tight against his body, while taehyung let out small sobs.

"shh i'm here, angel" the younger of them whispered, while brushing his hand through the boy's hair.

"k-kookie." taehyung sobbed, curling his hands onto jungkook's jacket. the younger gently picked him up and taehyung wrapped his legs around jungkook's waist, holding onto him tightly, while he carried him to his room.

"stop crying angel... show me your pretty smile, hm?" jungkook said softly as he sat on the edge of taehyung's bed, the silver haired now straddling his thighs.

he then wiped taehyung's glistening tears away, pecking his forehead and smiling when the older did. "see pretty."

taehyung only placed his head on jungkook's chest, his familiar scent calming him, the familiar warmth letting him forget the pain for a second. jungkook wrapped his arms around the silver haired and pulled him closer, nuzzling his nose into his hair. "thank you, kook."

"i'm always there for you angel. do you wanna talk about it?"

taehyung nodded and lightly pushed jungkook on the bed, only to lay next to him and cuddle him. jungkook pulled the blanket over them and then wrapped his arms around the older waist, pulling him as close as possible.

"t-two years ago i went to a party with my ex boyfriend." taehyung shuddered at the thought. "i thought he loves me, but it was only one sided and he used it as his advantage." jungkook tightened his hold and taehyung took in a shaking breath.

he thought he never needs to think about this day again, never has to mentioned it, but he needs someone's comfort and he knows jungkook wouldn't hesitate- and of course he never would, he rather wants taehyung to tell him every little detail of his life, happy or sad, euphoric or threatening- jungkook wants to know it all. if taehyung let's him.

"he would've act sweet to me when everyone else was around, but when we were alone he was always angry and pissed because i... i wasn't ready for the big thing. " taehyung clutched his eyes together as he snuggled closer to jungkook.

"i wasn't mad at him, i thought it's my fault because i didn't let him touch me. i thought i deserved to be shouted at." taehyung sighed.

"we were a couple for a year already and everything was fine in the beginning, but as time passed, i started to hear rumors that he slept with someone else. i didn't believe them and tried to blend them out, i was so convinced that he loved me. and only me, with all the flaws i had.

"anyways we went to that party together and he got drunk. very drunk. and he shouted at me again... he praised my body, told me how he would like to touch me and feel me. i-i felt so disgusted when he did that in the middle of a friend's party.

"so i told him i wanna go home... i just left."

jungkook brushed his hand through taehyung's hair, kissing his forehead all over again, while the older's chest was heaving up and down rapidly.

"th-then on my way home, he passed me with his car a-and stopped on the side walk i was on. i didn't notice him first, but did when he honked. i-i was surprised to see him and h-he apologized and i believed him. i believed he meant that.. nonetheless i didn't want to enter his car when he offered me a ride home. he was drunk and i told him he shouldn't drive either...

"b-but he got furious when i refused and stomped out the car and p-pulled me into the backseat a-and-"

taehyung sobbed quietly and jungkook pulled him onto his chest. "it's okay, angel, take your time." his calm voice was the complete contrary to what he was feeling inside- anger and hate. he hates this person for hurting his taehyung, for making him cry, for letting him spill just the smallest tear.

and the feeling only intensified when taehyung continued. "h-he held m-my arms and p-pushed me on t-the back seat and started kissing me and h-he wanted to u-undress me. i-i was so scared, kook and i cried so much while he kept shouting a-and telling me to sh-shut up."

"h-he tried t-to r-rape me, b-but i ran away." taehyung covered his face with his hands, crying quietly.

jungkook's hands clutched to fists, nonetheless his body stayed calm as he just wanted to be there for taehyung to cry and hold onto. "he didn't deserve to have such a beautiful creature like you by his side, tae. don't worry about him, if he ever comes near you, i won't hesitate to kill him." jungkook said, the first time he let's the anger inside of him show.

"i'm the only one who can touch you." he added and taehyung never felt this protected this safe, never with his friends and never with his ex boyfriend and that's what makes their bond so special. they let the other feel things, that no one else can.

"you can kill him, i wouldn't mind." taehyung chuckled, wiping his tears away and placing his shaking hand on jungkook's cheek. "j-just promise me you'll stay with me.."

jungkook's lips formed into a small smile and he blew taehyung's hair from his forehead. "just if you promise the same." he said and taehyung felt tears of happiness brim in his eyes by the few words. "i promise."

"i promise." jungkook said back and taehyung immediately connected their lips into a small soft, but fully poured with love, kiss.

"tae?"

"hm?"

"does that mean... with me... it was your first time?" it was curiosity making him ask that, but also a little ego had its fingers in the game as his heart seemed to beat out of his chest by just the idea of it.

taehyung blushed and covered his face with his hands. "yeah... it was." and now jungkook's heart seemed to explode and he let a small laughter out, before his lips touched the skin of taehyung's forehead. "you were so good though." jungkook whispered, a shiver running down taehyung's spine.

"i-i wanted it to be good for y-you." the silver haired mumbled quietly, turning to look away in embarrassment, while he still hid his cheeks under the warm palms of his hands.

jungkook ran his hand through taehyung's hair and while taehyung was being embarrassed of something, jungkook was calm, because he and taehyung seem to have something in common there.

"a perfect first time for both of us."

with a big thud, taehyung's heart started escalating and he looked up to jungkook, meeting his dark brown eyes. "what?!"

"baby, you can't expect someone who hasn't talked to people since he was 10 and then isolated himself from others by the age of 14 to not be a virgin." proud was the best word jungkook's mood could be described, knowing he was taehyung's first. and that taehyung is his first.

taehyung was so surprised because jungkook looked so experienced when he wrecked- made him feel good. "but y-you w-were amazing." the silver haired whispered, quickly switching the lights of the night lamp off, so jungkook couldn't see his reddened cheeks.

he snuggled onto jungkook's body, being the little spoon, loving it so much. "we should sleep now." he whispered in embarrassment. jungkook pecked taehyung's cheek, glad the older forgot about his pain from before.

and sometimes it's only them that can make each other forget their pain, their worries, their fears. a small touch already feels so warm, just like now again, when jungkook's arms are wrapped around taehyung, holding him in the most gentle- yet secured way.

"goodnight, angel."

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