Pain. What is pain? Is it a small feeling that comes when you get called names or when you fall or when someone forgets about you. Is it a deep feeling that you can't escape no matter how much you reach out. Why reach out to a world that made you feel this way. Pain can go on a wide range, it can be as a small as a memory from years ago or it can be as big as an elephant standing infront of you. It can leave an emptiness in you, making you numb. Making you forget how to feel anything other than pain. Pain can be emotional, physical,mental. Yet if feels like all three are there at the same time. What kind of pain is this? Depression, the feeling of drowning in a hurricane of emotion leaving your heart to ache wanting some relief. But everytime you get back to the surface, everytime you say to yourself " everything is going to be ok!" It drags you down into the abyss. you struggle to get back up, but struggling makes you tired, but you can't sleep. The voices keep you up telling you everything you do wrong. You curl up and cry yourself to sleep, but they are there in your dreams. Biting at you until you give up. You think giving up is the answer to get better, because maybe if you stop fighting it will leave you alone. But you were wrong. If you dont fight it will continue until you can't take it anymore and you end it anyway that you can, but you fail and they send uou to a place with no windows and crying and scream in the background. You're left with your thougjts alone. What a danger. Once in a while you woukd leav to talk to a nice lady about how you feel then she will tell you to take some antidepressant pills that only numb the pain and the emptiness that is in you. After a few weeks or months they release you, for most they stop taking the pills and they cycle starts over again. Depression is not something that you get when you're sad or if your life sucks, it will hit anyobe it can. These people feel alone because no one likes to talk about it, or they get made fun of because they are "too sensative". They get told they are only acting like this for attention, but most of the time that isnt true. But what others say about you will never be as bad as the voices in your head.