Jimin looked up lazily at the other boy who was pulling up his pants quickly and beaming from ear to ear.

"Where are you going?" He drew out lazily.

The other chuckled. "I'm just going out Jiminah" he answered.

Jimin stared at him with eyes full of puzzlement. He had never seen his friend this happy since his ex dumped him for someone else. The other's eyes twinkled like lights and for some reason, it unsettled Jimin.

"You seem so happy. I've not seen you like this in a long time"

The other blushed before flopping onto the bed and laying down beside him smiling so warmly at him, their faces where so close, his cheeks heat up.

"Jiminah...do you remember that guy I met at the new bakery which opened across the street?"

Jimin flinched. How could he forget? He had been spending so much time with that new guy recently. The memory had been haunting him ever since but he pretended not to be affected by it and smiled at Taehyung.

"Yeah...what about him?"

"I've been wooing him..."

Jimin's heart sank "Oh...you have"

Taehyung nodded his head. "And yesterday, he finally agreed to go out with me...we are having breakfast at Danny's this morning"

Jimin blinked at Taehyung, his face reddening. His lips clenched. The pain in his heart was indescribable but he couldn't let Taehyung know just how much those words had hurt him.

"Wow...I didn't know you had gone that far...."

Taehyung smiled dreamily. "I didn't think it was going to work out too. I mean, he's far above my league"

Jimin nodded biting his lips so hard it almost bled.

"But it's great that he's finally decided to give me a chance"

Jimin nodded his head again. "That's good. That's really good" He murmured as he started to get out of bed. All of a sudden, he didn't feel so good. He felt terrible. He picked up his boxer which was lying carelessly on the ground from being thrown aside after a reckless night of endless passion. He put it on and started to walk towards the bathroom but he stumbled, almost falling on his face but Taehyung was there as usual to catch him, holding him firmly by the waist.

"Are you okay?" He asked with eyes full of worry.

"I'm fine. Just go. You don't want to be late for your date now do you?" Jimin said offering him a weak smile.

Taehyung grinned. "No..."

But he still looked worried. "Are you sure you're okay...."

He lowered his voice, face reddening. "Was I a bit too hard last night?"

Jimin flushed. "Go now before I murder you!" He muttered looking embarrassed.

Taehyung chuckled hugging him tightly. "Okay, if that's what you want!"

"See you this evening!" He added and without another word, went out the door. As soon as he was gone, Jimin eventually gave in to all the emotions running through him. He sank to his knees and bawled his eyes out. He knew this was going to happen one day but he wasn't prepared for how much it was going to hurt and damn did it hurt.

After a while, he was finally able to get himself on track again and wiped his eyes. His legs could barely carry him but he managed to walk all the way to the bed stand where he placed his phone. Grabbing it, he called the one person he could rely on at a time like this.

"It's really bad Hobi!" He whispered in a deathly tone.

"You wait right there! I'm coming over" the other responded over the phone before cutting the line

Jimin laid on the ground in a feutus position up till Hoseok arrived. Upon seeing his state, the other wrapped him in a warm blanket, his eyes swelling from trying to conceal his tears.

"What's wrong with you? Why are you doing this to yourself? You know you have to be careful!"

Jimin shivered beneath the blanket.

"I'm sorry Hobi!"

Hoseok looked around with a slightly disapproving glance. "Where's Taehyung?"

Jimin hesitated on talking but seeing Hoseok's anxious glare, he continued "He went out....on a date!"

"What?" Hoseok yelled, eyes widening! Pupils dilating.

"He went out on a date while you're in this condition?" He cried fuming with rage.

Jimin sighed helplessly. "It's not his fault Hobi! He doesn't know!"

The other froze. "What do you mean he doesn't know"

Seeing the look on Jimin's face, he paled. "You mean, you didn't tell him?"

Jimin lowered his head. Hoseok ran his hand over his hair in disbelief.

"Why?"

Jimin swallowed hard and finally met his gaze. His eyes full of sadness.

"Because i don't want him to be with me for the wrong reasons. I don't want it to be because of pity!"

Hoseok shook his head "I don't understand you. He's your best friend. He's obliged to be with you at this time if not he's a shitty piece of crap..."

He stared at Jimin suspiciously. "But I don't understand your words. You sound as if..."

He froze for the second time upon getting a grasp of the realization then shook his head. "No! No! No! Don't tell me...I told you this whole friends for benefit thing was going to bite you in the ass"

Jimin had a regretful look on his face. "How was I supposed to know this was going to happen? I didn't plan on falling in love with him...."

His voice broke. "After JK broke off the engagement and eloped with that rapper Suga, Taehyung was devastated. I couldn't bear to see him like that and you know I would do anything for him..."

"So you came up with that friends for benefit thing and now you have cancer and he is going on a date with someone who isn't you"

Jimin burst into tears. "Can you not make it any worse?"

"I'm sorry but the truth is bitter" Hoseok said eyeing his crying friend. He quickly realized he was too hard on him so he embraced him tightly.

The phone suddenly rang immediately. Jimin picked it up.

"Mr Park, you are in great luck. We have gotten a bone marrow transplant. Your surgery will take place next week"

The sorrowful expression on his face turned to one of temporary joy.

"Thank you! Thank you so much doctor....i'm so grateful!"

"It's okay Mr Park. You're really in luck. See you on Saturday"

He ended the call and was hugged by his friend.

"I'm so happy for you Jimin.... You finally got it. This is a miracle" Hoseok said, brimming with happiness but he stopped celebrating when he noticed that the happiness that had been there previously on Jimin's face had completely evaporated. He sighed helplessly stroking his shoulders.

"You have to be better Jimin but you have to tell him the truth... your surgery is in next week. If you don't tell him, then I will..."

Jimin shook his head determinedly. "No! Don't you dare tell him. I will never talk to you again if you do. I can't bear for him to see me in that state!"

Hoseok sighed "What if something bad happens during surgery, what if you don't make it?"

"If something does happen to me, then I need you to give him a message for me"

Hoseok rolled his eyes. He had given up on drilling senses into Jimin's head so he just accepted what ever he wanted.

Taehyung returned from his date with Jin and found Jimin lying on the bed. He went over to him and wrapped his arms around him.

"No, don't do that Tae...." He murmured. Taehyung separated from him and sat up on the bed. Jimin sat up too and looked at him.

"You have someone else now. I don't think it's proper for you and I to be doing this"

Taehyung's mouth was open as if he wanted to say something but no words could come out and that just hurt Jimin the most. However, he continued.

"By the way, I think it will be proper if we start sleeping in separate rooms starting from today. I'll go back to my room now"

Taehyung finally spoke. "Come on Jimin, don't be like this. We already had an agreement...."

"Which I regret now...it isn't right. It was a mistake from the beginning" Jimin said sharply.

Taehyung slumped his head to one side. "But you are my constant Jimin and I'm so used to to having you around...."

He took a deep breath wearing an in genuine face. "If it's about the sex, we can scrap that off. Let's just cuddle and hold hands"

Jimin smiled painfully as he climbed down from the bed and stood facing him"You know that isn't what's going to go down when we are together. Just cuddling and holding hands?" He  scoffed. " You'll manage Tae.... For now, we have to keep our distance"

He suddenly stumbled after saying those words and Taehyung rushed over to hold him but he rejected his help.

"I'm fine now Tae!" He straightened him self and grabbed his pillow.

"Goodnight!" He whispered with a sad smile on his face.

"Goodnight!" Taehyung replied half heartedly as he watched Jimin slowly drag himself away from the room.

Just like that, they hardly spoke. Their apartment was quiet and stuffy but at least it was better for Jimin because that way,  Taehyung wouldn't notice how much he was hurting. He waited until the day before the surgery to write Taehyung a letter explaining the whole thing to him. The day finally came and that early morning, Jimin packed some toiletries. Glancing at the toiletries, he didn't know if he would still be alive to use them. He could only hope. He came out of the room and looked around him taking in the quietness. Taehyung had travelled the previous day and Jimin just felt unlucky.

Jhope picked him up and drove him all the way to the hospital. On arrival, they met with doctor Namjoon. The latter smiled at him and said. "Let's go have your surgery"

"Wait doctor...can you tell me, who was the donor?"

"I'm sorry but that's patient confidentiality. However, if you survive this, you'll know"

Jimin was taken to the theatre.

"Fighting!" Hoseok said with tears in his eyes.

"If I don't survive, make sure you give my message to him" He whispered. Hoseok just nodded.

The last thing Jimin remembered was his vision going dark as a mask was placed over his face. He may have been mistaken but he thought he heard Taehyung's voice in his ear.

His eyes opened and reacted instantly to the light. He turned his eyes and saw that figure beside him looking down. Jimin smiled to himself. This was heaven. At least, he gets to see the person he loves the most. But wait, something wasn't right. Why was the other wearing a hospital gown?

Someone entered and a familiar voice rang in his head causing Jimin's ears to ring.

"He's awake"

The figure beside him shifted. Jimin looked and noticed that the other's eyes were red and sunken. Suddenly, Doctor Namjoon come appeared. He checked him up for a while until he finally relaxed into a smile.

"The worst is over. He'll be fine"

The figure beside him reached for his hands and grabbed it. Doctor Namjoon looked at Jimin. "Jimin, you said you wanted to know your donor. Well, he's right here with you"

Jimin was starting to put the pieces together as he stared at Taehyung who was grabbing his hands and crying.

"Thank God you made it. I don't know what I would have done if you died" He murmured.

"I don't understand...Tae... you...."

Hoseok quipped in "He's your donor Jimin. He donated the bone marrow. He knew all along Jimin...he knew from the very beginning" he choked.

Jimin stared at Taehyung in shock. "You...knew?"

Taehyung sighed. "How would I have not known? We've been together for a very long time. I know everything about you. Inside and out. How could I have not known you were suffering? Even if you hid it from me, I would have still found out"

"I discovered that you lost so much weight. Whenever I held you, I could feel your bones. I could tell you kept on loosing weight so I did some sneaking around and discovered you mostly called Doctor Namjoon so I called him myself and found out about your situation. At first, I was sad you didn't tell me but I figured you had a reason so I tried to find out how best to help you"

"I ran some tests and it was discovered I was the best donor for your bone marrow transplant but I knew you would never let me do it so I had to hide it from you. In other for you not to suspect me, I made up an excuse that I was seeing Jin but the truth was I was actually visiting Doctor Namjoon"

Tears escaped Jimin's eyes. This felt like a dream. "Why...why would you do something like this for me?"

Taehyung laughed painfully. "Why else? Because I love you silly. I have loved you for a very long time."

Jimin's eyes were wide open"But what about Jungkook?"

"I had feelings for him but I also cared about you as well. However you didn't seem like you wanted me as anything other than as a friend so i accepted to be in a relationship with him. However, when he left me for Suga, I didn't blame him because my heart was torn between you two. The only difference is that I can live without him but I can't live without you"

Then he smiled. "Did you really think I would have accepted to be in a friends for benefit thing with you if I didn't have feelings for you? I did that because i thought it was the best I could get to being close to you..."

His face shone with happiness. "But then, Hobi gave me your letter and it was everything I had always wanted to hear"

Jimin's face turned red as he covered Taehyung's bigger hands with his own. "I'm sorry Taehyung. It's because of my feelings for you that I was scared.  I didn't want you to be with me because of pity. It was enough that I made you into a friend for benefit. But I didn't know you felt the same and that it was enough for you to...."

He broke down and Taehyung kissed his hands softly.

"All that doesn't matter anymore. Now, we have another chance. A second chance so let me give you my own message"

He cleared his throat and looked deep in his eyes. "Jimin, you are my best friend, my soulmate. You are the only thing that brings meaning into my life and even if we encounter another life and death situation, I would gladly trade my life for yours because i really love you Jimin and I will love you forever...my constant"

Jimin nodded, already a mess in the head. "I love you too Taehyung... You're my constant"

With the little strength, he had left he pulled him closer and kissed him leaving the other two watching them full of emotions.

"So bitter sweet" Doctor Namjoon said amidst tears. But the lovers were lost in their own world looking forward to a new beginning with each other.

Does such a love exist in this harsh reality we call life? I really hope it does but it's hard to encounter such love so we can only imagine