Dedicated to @TheCrazyArtGirl because I love your comments and the fact that you keep screaming and dying. XD Hope you're enjoying this. ;D

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Hi Charlotte.

I hope you get this when you reach home. You never know with Wattpad and its glitches.

I miss you already. I wish you hadn't left. I wish I could eat whatever I want and whenever I want. I wish I didn't have cancer. I wish for a lot of things now but without any hope that they'll come true. I know that sounds depressing but that thought actually calmed me, in a way.

You know, just the other day, someone else passed away too. The doctors were so sure that the patient was going to make it. They were wrong, he didn't make it. He died. Cancer won. Again.

Nothing beats cancer. And once you have it, no matter how serious or otherwise, in the end, cancer beats all. They keep us all under the illusion that we're going to make it, that we should be hopeful. Well, fuck them!

We're screwed. Cancer always win. And there's no reason to believe or even think that it's not going to win this time.

But I won't let it win.

Before it ends me, I'm going to end it myself.

I'm gonna tell cancer to go fuck itself because it's not going to get me. I won't let that happen. I won't die because I had cancer, no. I'm going to die because I wanted to, I'm going to die my way. I'm not going to be one of its victims.

This time, I'll beat cancer.

I have one thing to ask of you, though. Don't remember me as Janette, the pale and weak patient on the bed. Remember me as the sassy, grammarnazi, teasing Janette because that's who I really am and that's how I'm going as.

Goodbye, Charlotte.