"but are they looking for me?" i looked at my auntie with my eyes asking for hope, "do they want me back?"

my auntie didn't answer but stood up instead, "i just came to say that, i thought maybe you should atleast know." she grabbed her purse, "i'll get going."

and then she walked towards the door and left me. that's it? what would i do with that lack of information?

they came back but they don't want me back. what's the point? i guess i shouldn't feel hope anymore. they literally abandoned me of course, they don't want me back.

i laid my back on the sofa and sighed. i feel so down, and i feel like giving up in life. i can't see the purpose of my life, neither the purpose of why am i still living. should i just die?

my eyes caught a glimpse of my posters. posters of my favorite kpop boygroup. a smile creeped out on my face as i saw them beautifully looking at the camera, they're the only one who can make me happy. they don't know how many times they helped me to over come this loneliness hovering over my soul. they make me happy and feel comfortable.

no, i won't die. not until i marry one of them, i will never die.

i stood up to wash myself up but a knock was heard outside my door. i looked at the clock and it's almost 9 pm. who would it be?

i walked towards the door with nervous steps. i don't know why i felt nervous but i opened the door anyways.

"hi," taheyung waved.

"why are you here?" i tilted my head.

he scratched the back of his neck and jimin suddenly popped out behind him. i widened my eyes.

"why are you two here?" i crossed my arms while looking at the both of them.

"are we not allowed to come here?" jimin chuckled.

"no, it's not like that—"

"it's taehyung's birthday and he wanted to invite you to club. he's celebrating his party there with his friends." jimin said.

i looked at taehyung who was still scratching the back of his neck.

"it's your birthday? why didn't you tell me?" i internally panicked as i don't even have an idea or gifts for him.

taehyung became such a big help for me especially when we were in gwangju. if taehyung wasn't there i would've became insane being around jung hoseok. taehyung was the one who brought me home at the time i needed him to. but now, i don't even have a gift nor knows his birthday.

"is that important?" he laughed.

"of course! you were the one who helped me in gwangju after all." i said but widened my eyes when i realized jimin was there.

"gwangju? you two went to gwangju?" jimin intrigued.

taehyung looked at me, "yes—"

"you know i was in a family trip and cousins decided to go to gwangju then i met taehyung there." i chuckled awkwardly.

taehyung looked at me weirdly and i gave him my 'just go with the flow' look.

"right..." tahyung laughed.

jimin gave me a doubtful look while crossing his arms. ugh, why is he so curious for? he shouldn't know i was with jung hoseok that time. i rolled my eyes and smiled at taehyung.

"since it's your birthday, i'm going." i warmly smiled.

"jimin said you hate parties, it's okay if you don't—"

i cut him off, "wait inside, i'm just gonna dress up." i said and then let them in to my living room.

i went to my room and quickly get ready. no matter how tired i am right now, i can't ditch the birthday boy. i hate parties but i'm going because of taehyung.

i grabbed a simple dress and put on a make-up. it's a club after all so i didn't mind putting my ideal make-up. i put on my average heels and glanced at the mirror one more time before going out.

"y/n! what's taking you so long?!" i heard jimin yelled.

i grabbed my silver colored purse and walked to living room.

"it's not like we're going to prom.........." jimin stopped when he saw me.

i rolled my eyes at him while he just stared at me. what's wrong with him? i ignored him and looked at taehyung but he was staring too. i awkwardly pursed my lips.

"uhm, let's go?" i said.

both of them flinched and looked at each other. they walked towards the door as i followed behind them. taehyung opened the door for us and walked out.

i saw two cars which i believe belonged to the both of them.

"ride in my car y/n." taehyung smiled.

i nodded and was about to walk when jimin grabbed my fore arm while glaring at taehyung who glared back. what the heck?

"she's riding mine," jimin said.

taehyung scoffed and they both started bickering about where will i ride. can i just ride the bus? i sighed and just stood there in front of the both of them while crossing my arms. in the end, they ended up playing rock-paper-scissors. childish i know, but it's cute. i chuckled when taehyung won and put his tongue out to jimin. jimin stomped his feet like a child towards his car.

both taehyung and i laughed while walking towards the car. he started the engine and started driving. as usual, taehyung cracked jokes again until we arrived at the certain club. i was about to go out when taehyung stopped me.

"wait y/n," i looked at him. "i invited jung hoseok, our whole squad is there. i'm sorry." he said.

"hey hey, it's okay. it's your birthday, not mine." i smiled.

we both went inside the club and met his friends. as what taehung said, jung hoseok was there but he was just silently drinking. his eyes met mine for a second but he just sighed and poured a drink for himself then gulped it all. his face was all red and his friends laughed at him for it.

"hoseok, i hope you know you got low tolerance for alcohol." jin laughed.

i sat between taehyung and jimin. they all started drinking and i did too. the loud bass of music irritated me and made me so frustrated especially hoseok was sitting infront of me. hours has passed, my anger built up when i saw him flirting with clubs girls together with their other friends. the girl sat on his lap and i scoffed.

i kept gulping the alcohol as if it's water. everybody looked so drunk and most of them went in the center to dance. jimin beside me was using his phone as if the alcohol didn't hit him at all. i looked at taehyung and saw him talking to the bottle. i was creeped out but my stomach turned up side down suddenly and wanted to puke so badly.

i excused myself and saw hoseok looked at me before talking to the girl who was still on his lap. i felt sick and ran towards the rest room. once i reached the bowl, i quickly vomited. few tears was in my eyes while i was vomiting so i wiped it with tissue as well as my mouth. i put out my mouth wash and washed my mouth with it.

i slowly walked out the bathroom with the support of the wall, i was feeling dizzy and wanted to puke again. i shouldn't have drank, i knew it wasn't good for me. i hate alcohol, ugh.

i went out from the restroom to see jung hoseok leaning on the wall. i tried to ignore him but he grabbed my forearm. i tried to yank my arm back but it looked like he wasn't budging at all. i looked back and saw he looked so drunk as his face was so red.

"why are you doing this to me?" he said and stared at me.

i looked away, "what?" i weakly said since i was still feeling dizzy, "go back flirting there." i said and finally yanked my arms back.

i was about to walk away when he pulled me and pinned me on the dirty wall. my back hit the wall as he pulled me too aggressively.

"what are you doing?! let go of me! you flirt—"

"are you jealous?" he grinned that scared me.

i tried to get out but he was cornering me. i looked at him while he stared at me with a creepy smile on his face. he's crazy, he's totally a psycho when he's drunk, i need to stay away.

"no—"

i was cut off when hoseok kissed me. my eyes widened as i felt him suck my bottom lip. i stood there frozen and felt him put his hands around my waist. his lip started to nibble my lower lips, asking for entrance. i didn't moved my lips until his hands snaked around my ass and squished it. i accidentally gasped and hoseok took this opportunity to insert his tongue. i felt alcohol on his tongue when he started exploring my mouth.

he suddenly stopped and looked at me while we both panted. i admit, that kiss was good. when did he become a good kisser? i stared back until hoseok smirked.

i felt his hands down my lower waist and he smiled at me one more time,

"jump,"

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(Smut next chapter???( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) )

drunk hoseok lmaooooo

i'm sorry for not updating these past few days. i was making (ass)ignments lmaooooo ugh i hate school. this chapter is fucking long, it's almost 1,600 words. i feel like this story is getting boring but it's okay, i'm gonna finish it no matter what.

i feel like i should finish this first before continuing the truth or die???

thankyou for reading and i love you guys so much! goodnight!💜