Look, I'm salty they’re not listening to or including Logan as much as they should and I will keep complaining about it.

Warnings: logan is feeling a bit low and ignored, otherwise soft, they're soft

Also I am playing an unnecessary amount of 8 Ball Pool and Hay Day lately lol

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Apparently Logan really expected no one to notice how he became more and more distant over the course of a week. Every time Virgil would find him it’d be with his face buried in a book, or some video. Virgil felt as if Logan was doing his best to distract himself from ...well, Virgil did not know that part yet.

Whatever it was that was upsetting Logan he clearly did not want to focus on it nor want any one else to know it was bothering him. Virgil had noticed the change in his behaviour though, and he’s worrying about him. How could he not? Anything that might mean his boyfriend is hurting would worry him.

Virgil had meant to talk to him today but it was already evening and he had yet to do so. At least he had the chance now, had had for a while actually.

He'd came to Logan's room about an hour ago, sat down on his desk chair and played a game on his phone. During the whole time Virgil had been there Logan had been sat cross legged on his bed, reading a book that Virgil thought might be about cats from the look of the cover.

Virgil stood up from where he sat, making his way over to his boyfriend, sitting down in the same position as Logan and facing him. Logan did not even look up, making Virgil roll his eyes. He pulled the book he's reading away from Logan, leaned in and pressed a soft kiss to his lips before he could make a noise of complaint, making Logan's eyes flutter shut for a moment. Virgil would never get over how soft his lips were.

Virgil pulled away and Logan smiled a little at him, which was an improvement, before reaching for his book again. Virgil shook his head, grabbing Logan's bookmark, putting it in the book and then placing the book on Logan's nightstand.

"Hey." He said. He wasn't sure how to get the conversation started or how to make Logan talk to him. If Logan didn't want to share his thoughts and feelings then there was nothing Virgil could do. He’d just have to hope for the best.

"Salutations." Logan replied, raising a brow and probably wondering why Virgil would be greeting him now when they've been in the same room for an hour already. "Can I have my book back now?"

"Not until you tell me why I've only seen you with your face down a book every single time I've seen you for the past week. I know it's not only because books are interesting. We've barely talked lately and I can see on you that something is bothering you." Virgil said quickly, revealing what he had on his mind.

"I just want to read." Logan tried. Virgil huffed, giving him a look of disbelief.

"Please. Talk to me, Logan. I recognize an unhealthy coping mechanism when I see it." Virgil said.

"I don't know what you are talking about." Logan said, sounding so sincere that Virgil almost doubted himself. Then he shook those thoughts away. He knew something was up, just not what that something was.

"Logan." He said, one second away from begging. Logan gave him a pleading look, sighing deeply when realizing Virgil was not going to back down.

"I would rather not talk about it." He said.

"And I would rather not have you hurting, yet here we are. Look, I hate talking about feelings just as much as you, it makes me feel vulnerable and maybe the person I'm talking to won't understand. It's still important though, even if it sucks." Virgil said, knowing that everything he said had to resonate with Logan from the sheer fact that what he was saying made sense and Logan knew it was true.

Virgil could see on Logan that he'd reached him, because Logan sat silent for a moment, thinking over what he'd said before opening his mouth to speak.

"I simply… feel that things are quite hopeless at times." Logan said quietly, reaching out and taking Virgil's hand in his, entwining their fingers. Virgil squeezed his hand reassuringly, needing Logan to know he was there for him.

"What things?"

"Everything. I have so much input to all of Thomas' struggles. I might not be able to find the best solutions from every point of view, but I feel that the logical side of every issue is also quite important. My job is to be the one who looks at it from a purely logical standpoint." Logan stared down at their clasped hands as if it was them he was talking to.

"And I am, I am doing my best and I am happy with what I manage to work out. But I can't help feeling that all I do is for nothing." Logan went quiet for a moment, glancing up at Virgil.

"Thomas never listens to me, and what good am I if I am not listened to? Almost all I say is disregarded, if I am even being heard in the first place. It is quite demotivating to do your best when your best means nothing." Logan said. Virgil wasn't really sure what he could do to help him.

"Is there anything I can do better?" Virgil asked carefully, needing to know if there was something, anything, he could do to make him feel better.

"Well, you're certainly not the biggest problem. You usually listen to me and I am grateful for that. Your attention makes me feel important." Logan said. Virgil smiled at him, free hand reaching to cup his cheek. Logan leaned into the touch and Virgil had to bite back an 'awe' noise that wanted to escape him.

"You are important, and don't let anything convince you otherwise. Okay? I know how you feel, and it is important we bring up this with Patton and Roman because I don't think they're aware that they are doing this."

"That is what I believe too. I know they would not intentionally hurt me, but that knowledge is not stopping me from feeling… hurt." Logan admitted.

"We'll take this up with them tomorrow, does that sound good?" Virgil asked. It was probably not a good idea to interrupt the others of whatever it was they were doing in the evening. Virgil would rather not have to wake anyone up.

"Yes. That would be… adequate. I suppose that it is indeed for the best to not ignore how I feel for too long." Logan said, sighing as if that was a very unfortunate thing. Though, to be honest, it kind of sucked to feel sometimes, Virgil would agree with that.

"I'm proud of you." Virgil said quietly, squeezing his hand again.

"...For what?" Was all Logan said, sounding like he didn't think there was anything about him to be proud of. Virgil cupped Logan's face in his hands, maintaining eye contact as he spoke to him.

"For talking to me, and for letting me be here for you." He said, smiling when Logan ducked his head to hide the faint blush on his cheeks. Virgil leaned in and kissed the top of Logan's head, putting his arms around him in a hug that was a bit uncomfortable with how they were positioned.

Logan wiggled out of the embrace, still looking a bit flustered. "Can I have my book back now? It is actually very interesting."

"Sure. Can you read for me?" Virgil said, falling backwards into a lying position, sprawling out on the bed to be somewhat comfortable. Logan laughed quietly, which was a beautiful sound to Virgil.

"Of course, love."

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Written: 3rd April 2019
Published: 11th April 2019
Words: 1400

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there is a lot of you. so many kiddos!! :D

I'm still surprised these oneshots are so popular lol, but I'm so very happy to have you all here <3 <3

...also, I might be working on something ;) heheh

(I'm trying to keep it a secret but I wanna spoil everything lol help)