Surprise, surprise, I woke up hungover as fuck the next day. Everything was still spinning slightly and my stomach was tied in knots that kept doing back flips for fun. I knew right away that it wasn't going to be a good day, even if I could calm the sick feeling. 

"Morning, Dori." 

I groaned in reply, talking was just too much work. My neck was stiff from the way I had slept and rolling over to face Todoroki took a tremendous amount of effort. 

"Advil," he said, just as something hit me right in the chest. From the jingling noise it made, I knew it was the medicine he had promised. 

I didn't sit up, somehow managing to pop the cap off and shake out two of the little pills. I knocked them back without any water, needing them to kick in as fast as possible. "Thanks," I croaked, the word dry and shaky. 

My eyes traveled around the living room. Todoroki was leaning back against the arm of the adjacent couch and Hitoshi was sitting in the armchair. He was awake, but wouldn't look at me. 

It hadn't been a dream then. Wonderful, add it to the ever-growing list of shitty things in my life.

I grabbed my phone out of my back pocket, ignoring my surprise that it had managed to stay there all night. I couldn't deal with the awkward silence that had enveloped the room and needed something to take my mind off of it.  

I didn't have many notifications, a few texts in my group chat with Ei and Kats, and then a message from my mom. 

Mom~

Hope you're having fun with your friends

Love you <3

I read the message twice before releasing a sigh. I still hadn't talked to her since everything happened with my dad. Knowing that she'd finally stood up to him and kicked him out for good had changed things though. I decided to try and reconcile when I got back. 

Izuku~

Love you too

It was the best I could do for now, but it was something. I moved on to the group messages. 

Ei~

Text us when you wake up :)

Kats~

Tell half and half to lay off the tequila next time

That advice also applies to you

Especially when I'm not around to carry you

Or beat up people who are trying to roofie you

Ya know what just don't drink without me around next time

Ei~

Kats

My love

Are you ramble texting? 

Kats~

Shut up

My hangover wasn't enough to stop the smile from forming on my lips at their texts. I couldn't help it, I was just so stupidly in love with them. 

I sent them a quick good morning message before setting my phone down on the couch cushion and turning to Todoroki. "Kacchan says to lay off the tequila." 

Todoroki's eyes flashed to mine from over his phone. "It was one drink, I wasn't even that drunk." 

I raised a brow at him, shifting my arm under my head to prop it up. "You called me your spirit brother again." 

"And I'd do it sober, I don't see how this proves your point." 

"Whatever, Roki." 

Then the talking was done and I was left with silence again. Todoroki seemed to be avoiding interaction and I wasn't about to strike up a conversation with Hitoshi. I would rather just stare at the wall in front of me until Uraraka or Ashido woke up. 

That plan lasted all of ten seconds before my phone was ringing. I grabbed it quickly, welcoming the distraction even if it was just a spam caller. Eijirou's contact name and photo were brightly displayed, causing another smile to stretch across my face. I missed him too much for it to be healthy. 

"Still alive," I said as I hit the accept button and brought my phone to my ear. 

"How'd you know that's why I was calling?" he teased. 

I rolled my eyes, despite the pain in my head. "Because you live with Katsuki and he probably thought I tripped going up the stairs or something." 

"That's actually... exactly what he was worried about." 

"He's so sweet," I mumbled sarcastically, letting my forehead rest against my arm. The light coming in through the windows was going to give me a migraine. 

"How drunk were you last night?" he asked in a leading tone. I knew he wanted to know if I was drunk enough to not remember everything. 

"Not drunk enough." 

"You wanna talk about it?" 

My eyes glanced over at Hitoshi, who had now decided that he could, in fact, look at me. "Can't," I said into the receiver, redirecting my gaze to the couch. 

"You can always text if you need to, darlin'. Kats and I will keep our phones by us all day." 

"Okay, thank you." It was practically a whisper, how he heard me I had no idea. 

"Of course, darlin', and I wasn't kidding last night. We can come get you today if you want." 

"We head back tomorrow, it'll be fine." 

"You sure?"

"Yes, don't worry." I knew that telling him to not worry was as effective as them saying it to me. It would do nothing to calm them. 

"Call if you need anything." 

"Duh." 

"I love you, darlin'." 

My cheeks involuntarily grew warm. There was no need for it, Eijirou had told me he loved me nearly a million times, but I couldn't help it. Him loving me still felt strange and magical and like a dream I'd have to wake up from eventually. 

"I love you, too. Give Kacchan a kiss for me," I added, remembering when he'd asked Eijirou to do the same for me. I knew he'd love it regardless of his reaction. 

"Of course," Ei said with a quiet chuckle. "I'll talk to you later?" 

I hummed in reply and then the call ended. A long sigh was dragged from me as I set my phone down. The battery was getting low and I'd need to find a charger for it soon, but that was future me's problem. 

"Should I be offended they thought I'd let you die while babysitting?" Todoroki asked with a lazy drawl to his voice, letting his own phone fall to his side. 

My eyes narrowed at him. "First off, you were not babysitting me. I don't need a babysitter. Second, they think I'll die every time I leave their sight, don't take it personally." I chose to ignore the week of babysitting everyone had done while I was recovering from my bender, hoping he'd follow suit as well. That was the last thing I needed to be reminded of at the moment. 

"That feels like a therapy session waiting to happen." 

"Says you!" 

He shrugged, not bothered by the jab. "We should consider group therapy." 

I nearly cackled at the idea. "Our therapist would need therapy after that." 

"Sounds like fun, I'm in." Uraraka's voice came from the stairs one second, the next she was hopping over the back of the couch and landing next to me with a huff. 

"How are you not hungover?" I asked her in utter disbelief. She had to have been more drunk than me last night, right? 

She tapped her head and squinted her eyes. "I've trained myself to withstand them." 

"I have not," Ashido grumbled, rounding the couch and face-planting into her girlfriend's lap. Uraraka quickly started to comb through her bubble-gum pink curls with her fingers. 

I looked between the two of them, amused with their opposite dispositions. "How late were you two out?" 

Uraraka hummed while she thought over the answer. "Only 'til two or three, but we got back and all three of you losers were passed out on the couches." 

I shrugged, bumping my shoulder into hers. "I told you, I'm lame now." 

"That's so lame," she whined, throwing her head back against the couch cushions. 

"I'm sorry, I can go back to snorting coke if you'd like," I deadpanned. 

"Don't even joke about that." It was the first time Hitoshi had spoken all morning, at least since I had been awake, and that's what he chose to say. Wow, okay. 

My mouth shut instantly, unsure of what to say next. Was I supposed to brush it off? Should I tell him to fuck off? What would I have done yesterday day, before I'd found out about Monoma? I couldn't figure it out, everything involving Hitoshi was now clouded with uncertainty and hurt. 

"Okay," Uraraka said, dragging the word out. "What the fuck happened last night?" 

"Chako," Ashido said quietly, trying to reign her in before she went too far. 

"Don't Chako me," Uraraka scolded, her hand stilling its movements. "You do the same shit when it's your two friends he's fighting with. Let me meddle." 

"There's nothing to meddle with," I told her, avoiding eye contact since she could sniff out the lies on me like a bloodhound. She had some freaky superpower that always let her know when I was hiding something. 

"You won't even look at Shinsou, so don't try to lie to me." 

"Oh, that's because Shinsou slept with Monoma after Dori moved," Todoroki said casually, picking a piece of lint from his shirt. 

"What?!" 

I abruptly stood, no longer wanting to be in the room. "I'm gonna go shower," I said, already heading for the stairs. No one tried to stop me. 

I could faintly hear Uraraka's voice from upstairs, but couldn't make out what she was saying. My guess is she was laying into Hitoshi. She knew as well as he did what Monoma had done. Even if we had never gotten back together and just stayed friends, it still would have hurt just as bad. It wasn't the act itself, just who it was with. 

The worst part was knowing he'd done it just to hurt me. 

Or maybe that wasn't the worst of it, because from what Monoma had said, it happened more than once. 

A one-night stand fueled by anger and hurt, I could have forgiven. What I had done was shitty, I knew that and accepted it, I deserved at least a little bit of payback. A reoccurring hook-up, though? Hitoshi actively choosing over and over again to sleep with the guy who had made me want to die? I wasn't sure how I was supposed to get over that. 

I wanted to get over it. I wanted to move on and not let it ruin what Hitoshi and I had finally found. I was in love with him, and happy, and everything had just started to get back on track. I didn't want to let Monoma ruin my life any more than he already had. 

But Uraraka had been right, I could hardly look at him. Every time I did, all I could see was him with Monoma, touching him, and kissing him, and everything in between. I felt sick and it wasn't from the hangover. 

I didn't know how to get over it. 

Important thing to note, seeing as I am a BakuDeku shipper and can't just add a middle school bully without defending myself, the difference here is the fact that Monoma hasn't changed or expressed a want to change. He is still a terrible person with no remorse. Just felt the need to put that in there because I know there's gonna be at least one person in my comments pointing out the parallels between Monoma in this fic and Katsuki in canon.  Anyways, thanks for coming to my ted talk.