Yay!! I was able to do my chapter. Hope you guys enjoy it :D !! Btw I noticed I didn't name this chapter but I couldn't think of anything to put so I left it blank.

Awkward was the best description of this moment.

Payne and I walked silently as we made our way back to the castle. I didn't have a better reply to give him other than a nod to his offer a few minutes ago and then when we once again stood in silence he finally made a gesture for us to head back.

Then we ended up here in this awkward moment.

Yup. There wasn't even a going-nowhere conversation going on, nothing like:

So, have you seen the weather?
It's so sunny and nice.
The air is.... Invisible
Did you notice?

I couldn't help the smile that crossed my face at my silly thoughts.

I should say something, he should say something.
Somebody should say something !!

Or maybe a goat should scream.

What the hell?

Now there was an even brighter smile on my face.

I was too damn happy right now and it was messing with my brain and making me think foolish stuff.

Where did that goat come from?

I think I'd name him Sam.

Now that had me giggling and Payne's silver/grey eyes met mine with a confused expression on his face.

He's adorable.

"What're you laughing at?"

No! He broke the silence and the pieces laid on the ground.

Okay, I just over did it.

"I really don't know. I was thinking about a goat named Sam and I just couldn't hold in my laugh. I'm sorry." I pouted a little and tried to catch a grip on myself but then as I looked up at Payne he had a smile perking up his pink lips.

"A goat? Named Sam? You're fucking ridiculous you know that?" Then he began laughing. My stomach clenched when his deep rumbles echoed throughout the forest. I think it was the first time he laughed this much and it felt good to know I was the reason why. Even if he was literally laughing at me.

"Stop laughing at me. I'm just a little.. I don't know, bubbly at the moment." I stated and he seemed taken back by my candor and his laughter slowly diminished and he forced that smile to disappear.

"Why do you feel bubbly Alexis?" He asked calmly and I just shrugged not going there, we'll just end up in another awkward silence. So I decided to say something to draw him away from that.

"So tell me, where is your home? Please tell me its not another castle like this." I added and I noticed we didn't have much to go again until we left these woods and back to that ugly grey and black castle.

"It's in an isolated area, I can't tell you exactly where because no one other than my sister and I and the two maids we keep there know where it is. Our pack is located a while after it but neither do they know where our home is located either. It's a simple cottage much better than the caslte because my sister did the decorating. You will like it there." He stated but even as he told me about it I could sense his mind was elsewhere. His eyes were no longer on me but out toward the castle we just began approaching.

"So will I be your servant there?" I asked and I noticed I sounded way too happy about that question but he ignored it or didn't bother to say anything on it and just gave me a simple nod.

"Cool." Was my totally lame answer and he didn't even bother to reply me as we marched up the trimmed grassy pathway. The blood and the body of Dimitry was gone but it wasn't like seeing dead corpses affected me in any way. I am a werewolf, weak one probably but I still am one and growing up in a brutal pack even if I wasn't allowed to fight or train, there were bodies when rogues attacked.

A maid came and opened the huge double doors for us before we were able to reach two inches of the knob but Payne's mind was elsewhere and he seemed to not have noticed.

He was in the lead as we made our way in through the long narrow hallways painted in that dull color of grey and as he met his turn to go in his wing of the castle the only words he said before he disappeared down the halls were, "get that stench off of you as soon as fucking possible."

So naturally, I went to my room, then became fully aware of the stench of Dimitry that consumed me and did just exactly what Payne had said.

I was in that bathroom for two hours and then with my body covered in the lavender scents of the soaps and oils in here it dawned on me that Dimitry was dead.

Well shit. Now I felt terrible but then again, I never really cared. He hurt me and even though our last moments weren't completely brutal, they weren't right. The worse crimes didn't deserve death as a punishment though. No one deserved to die. Everyone had their reasons on how they turned out to be. Just as Payne.

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"Is this the first time you're eating down here?" Asked Payge from across the way.

We sat in the same dining room as Payne and I had the other day but she already knew I'd been in here with him.

After showering I had stayed up in my room and was totally bored out of my mind and was more than happy when Payge came to my room and asked me to come down for dinner with her. I had hoped Payne would have been here but as she had informed me he went out for a run.

"Yes, the maid usually drops by with food for me at every meal time in my room." I answered before I took another spoon of the ginger rice, beans and chicken. It was absolutely delicious.

Payge nodded and took a spoon herself. We sat in silence for a while and I used that moment to watch her features.

Payne and her were very identical and if she resembled thier mother it was a wonder how beautiful that woman had been.

Dark hair, pink lips and those eyes... Those beautiful grey eyes they all must share-

"You do know you're staring at me." Payge said and heat crept up my face. I looked away and down into my food, this was embarrassing. "I thought I'd already told you that my brother and I are twins no need to stare." She stated and when I looked up she was smiling at me.

Finally finding my voice I said, "Your mother must have been very beautiful to birth you two with such looks. Not to be weird or anything, I'm just saying."

Payge giggled and took a sip of her wine before saying. "My father also was quite handsome except for a scar running down his face but beside that he was good looking, I would describe him to you but since you're coming back home with us you'll see for yourself."

"How can I see for myself, isn't he dead?" I asked as I began on my next spoon of food.

She shrugged, "Yeah but we kept his head. It was so that Payne would always remember that the guy was truly dead." She stated as if she were talking about the weather.

We ate a little at that moment and then I interjected once more, "Why would he need to remember?"

"Because, after we killed him, even though Payne thinks I didn't know, he had these terrible nightmares about our father and he didn't sleep and if he did, he'd be screaming and yelling while he did it. I felt bad for him and even though we didn't talk much after it happened, I brought up the idea to keep our father's head inside the house with us so whenever he was, you know, he'd wake up and go watch it, then go back to bed." There were lines where her forehead creased as she talked and no longer was that bored tone of hers going off. She really did care about her brother and it affected her.

Interesting that only she was allowed to express her emotions.

"That sounds harsh," I added and she nodded.

"My brother suffered the most between the two of us. I mean, we both got the same treatment from our father but for whatever reason, he was always more, sensitive to the pain, I learned to ignore it until the beatings turned into pinches really but it was like he wanted to feel it, punishing himself really." She stopped and took a sip of her wine and I followed.

These two went through so much, Payne. My heart bleeded for him and it sucked that all these things caused the reason we won't be together but Payge was strong, both physically and emotionally or was that how she just portrayed herself, she never showed weakness and I've never seen her in a vulnerable state other than when she spoke about her brother.
Strange, what if she was just as bad as her brother was but she chose to be distant, well, in that instance, I think Payge would be worse.

Payne wasn't accustomed to his emotions and he didn't know how to express it but Payge, she knew her emotions, she knew how to express it but she chose to lock them away.

When everything bubbled down to silence between the two of us as we finished eating I felt like there was something else I needed to say. I didn't know how to reply to what she said but there was something lying in the air between us.

With my head bent downward and I stared into my mostly finished meal I said in a low voice, "I'm trying."

And to that I could feel she was looking at me but I didn't want to look up to see what was in her eyes.

"Indeed you are."

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