So... Its still 2015...
And I updated
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"You people are crazy!" I exploded whilst following Payne up the long staircase.

"Maybe from an outsider's perspective."

I wanted to keep yelling and arguing about how twisted what just happened was but I knew it'll get me nowhere. There was a headless body in front the mansion whose blood was probably flowing in the beautiful fountain and all these people here just seemed to be happy to get to the food. I'm sure the body was still there.

"What about the body?" I demanded and he just shrugged once more. "If you don't care about the man's life at least pretend you care about your niece or nephew growing up without a father!"

To this he turned and faced me with cold unforgiving eyes. "I really don't care about whether or not the baby has one. Honestly its probably better off without one." Turning and continuing up the staircase he muttered under his breath, "father's are overrated."

I decided against putting in a, "you should know" to that because then I'd probably be the next dead body on the ground.

"Where are we going?" I asked suddenly tired from going up what? Twelve steps already!

Without turning he said, "To get you dressed up for the party outside. You look casual in that outfit. A dress would do."

"What?" I asked suddenly nervous about the change of wear but then it dawned on me that I needed to fit in and look like one of those people. Those sick people.

"Just shut up and follow me."

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I emerged from the dressing room wearing a blood red dress that made my paper white complexion look even paler and made me feel to throw up because of how similar the red color was to Blondie's blood.

I wore a black ballet flats since I didn't know how to walk in heels and luckily my hair made it into a messy bun with some of my honey blonde hair falling into my face.

I felt to throw up once more but this time it wasn't because of the decapitated man downstairs.

Payne had left me in this room which he'd claimed was Payge's when she stayed in the pack house, which was apparently the mansion we were in. It made sense overall with the massive amount of people I'd seen in here earlier, all dressed in beautiful outfits and acting oblivious to the body outside.

I shuddered a bit.

My biggest problem at the moment however was leaving this room. What was he wearing?
Is it possible he'd wear a suit?

A blush crept up my face at the thought. He'd look amazing in a tux.

Looking at myself in the huge body lenght mirror I stared at myself and saw nothing much. Small but noticeable curves, normal sized boobs, my face was okay? Well, compared to the looks of Payge and many other girls I've seen I'm basically average.

I huffed out a sigh and sat on a nearby stool.

Raising a finger to my lips I traced them remembering how Payne's lips had felt against mine. How heated and intense the moment was. His touch had made me feel something I had never felt before and I felt incredibly stupid for wanting more.

The kiss was a once in a lifetime thing for Payne and I and I guess I'll have to leave it at that.

Picking up as much pieces of my pride that I still had left I exited the room and met Payne sitting on a windowsill on the hall way wall.

He was dressed in a black long sleeved sweater with matching black jeans and a pair of Vans shoes. He'd had the civility to brush his hair so the side part made itself visible in his wavy black hair. Even though he wasn't in a suit he looked impeccably handsome.

Sensing my presence he sat up but as soon as his eyes fell on me they darkened dangerously. I didn't notice I was holding my breath until he finally looked away an I felt my lungs burning from held in air.

What was that look for?

Fear crept into my head and I began feeling nauseous all over again. This night was going to be a complete disaster.

I probably looked hideous in the dress. He probably didn't even like the color. What if I'd over done it or maybe I'd underdressed?

What was it now?
What did I do wrong again!

"Whats wrong?" I asked trying to hide my humility but I knew it shone bright with my burning red cheeks.

Payne got up from the window seat and walked towards me, his height towering over me.

"Let's go." He said calmly and I noticed his eyes had returned to normal once more but something was more intense by the way he was watching me. Something was wrong here but it was in my best interest to just drop it.

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Outside the mansion in the gorgeous grace of midnight there were grassy fields in every direction. Small houses, big houses, parks and even business places. The entire place was like its own town or village.

Payne and I walked side by side on the grassy pathway walking toward a massive crowd that seemed to center by a huge main park.

Music pounded from numerous sterios littered around the area And hanging from posts and the majority of people were dancing and swaying to the beats.

As soon as Payne and I were in close view of the crowd people began turning to face us. By the time all eyes were on us the music had stopped and the only thing that could be heard was the almost silent gasps from people.

Payge's voice for once saved the day as she arrived in front of the crowd wearing the same black dress but there were no blood stains or even a loose thread in the material. Almost as if she hasn't gotten in a fight at all.

"Everyone! Gather around to welcome my brother back ! You're asshole of an Alpha is back people!! Make some noise!"
The crowd erupted but knew better than to add any comments to Payge calling her brother an asshole. They knew who their alpha was and how he'd react so with respect they howled and greeted him, no one daring to disrespect him in any way.

With a blank expression Payne gave his people a tight nod and we joined the crowd in silence.

Drinks were nearly in everyone's hands and there were no kids in the crowd. A littering of young adults and adults were all you could find in the massive bunch but after all it was a party, couldn't let the kids see whatever tonights activities were including.

Standing a few feet away from Payne to not look suspicious a few eyes landed on me. Some with confusion and some with approval.

A wave of anxiety would hit me every time someone looked my way. I had no idea what they would do when they noticed I wasn't from here but I assured myself that if I got found out Payne would come to my rescue.

It was my first party and despite the fear and anxiety riding my back I couldn't bring myself to enjoy my surroundings.

The wild, reckless activities with carefree actions seemed surreal and sick.

How could people celebrate and party when not even a day or even two hours passed since someone was killed.

Everything was just wrong here.

Seriously wrong.

Feeling like I would be stiffled by my guilt I began walking out of the crowd. I'd lose Payne but it was hard to believe that he'd be in that crowd for much longer.

He'd walked in and that was it.

He most definitely couldn't be dancing and behaving like everyone else so wherever he went, probably was away from these people.

A wooden bench came into view and as I made my over to it and sank into its comfort I let out a deep breath of air.

"Calm down.. Breath... Breath." I repeated to myself cupping my face into my hands and trying to steady my breath. I couldn't cry. I barely knew the guy who died but it was horrifying to see.
Payne had done something similar to Dimitry but that was different. Dimitry was a stink, evil piece of shit and although he didn't deserve to die one could say it was coming to him, Blondie however, all he did was laugh at Payge and that was it. He wasn't even given a chance to apologize.
What if I ever got on Payge's bad side? Would she kill me too?
Would Payne allow her to?

I was pulled out of my thoughts when the bench I was on shifted and sunk a bit letting me know that there was another presence with me.

Raising my head with dread forming in my heart I almost jumped when I saw the person but then instinct calmed me and I felt reassured.

"Hey." I said first greeting Payne but his face held a distracted look on it. "What's wrong?"

Lifting up his right hand to reveal a clear plastic cup filled with a clear substance that could pass as water but I knew better than that, he took a sip of the clear liquid and let out a long exhale.

"I thought people weren't supposed to see us together." I said.

He shrugged and took another gulp.

"What is that?"

"Happy juice." Was his gruff reply and by the sound of his voice and the way his jaw tensed I could see he wasn't in the mood to talk.

Something was bothering him.

Looking back at the crowd we must have stayed there for a while. Sitting in silence.
Both lost in our own thoughts.

Then I heard the shuffling of ice in his cup drawing attention to its emptiness.

I looked over at Payne. Dressed so nicely with a cold expression on his face.

I'm sure this was the usual way his pack saw him and nobody seemed to want to get on his bad side.

Loud laughter filled the cold night air and I shivered a bit at the tone. Strangely the voice sounded familiar.

But that was impossible.

Looking around the area I didn't see anyone that rung any bells.

Ignoring the sound I continued to look forward toward the crowd once more.

I shook my head. Resting my face in my palms instead.

Sick.

"Alpha. Welcome back home!" A cheerful voice rung out from in front of us, it was the same voice that had sounded familiar only moments ago and my head instantly snapped up.

My breath caught in my throat and my eyes grew wide with realization.

"O my God." The woman gasped and the man at her side turned to see what she was looking at. He too gasped.

"Alexis?" The voice asked in surprise. Tears sprung to my eyes. It had been so long since I'd heard that voice but despite the happiness that grew inside from seeing that face once more, rage overpowered the emotion and I glared heavily at the woman before me.

Through gritted teeth I fought to keep control of my emotions but I was overwhelmed with anger, "Mom?"

Payne, finally acknowledging the people before us and catching the words of the conversation sat up analyzing the situation.

"These are your parents?"he asked baffled and he tried to hide the smile off of his face but I couldn't catch the joke.

Looking between us he first looked at me then at the woman before me. I had taken the majority of my looks from my mother and as I stared at her now I felt as though I was looking at a stranger.

Part of me wanted to get up and hug her and never let her go but the other part wanted to spit on her.

All these years. Everything my previous Alpha had said about my parents leaving me because I was a useless weakling rushed to my mind and I tried to hold in my tears. How unfair that the only thing he got right about me was about my parents leaving me.

Turning to Payne and addressing his question I sat back and relaxed in the bench. This changed my view on everything. Especially them. Holding my mother and my father's stare I simply shrugged.

"My parents died when I was thirteen."

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Ahh !!
2016 is right there!
Two more days.
I hope everyone's got their new years resolution ready and has gotten everything done that they wanted to get done this year.
The saying, 'life is too short to waste' is seriously crap and I refuse to agree to it. Life is literally the longest thing we'll ever experience until the day we die.
My point is, you don't know when you will die, you don't know when its the last time you do something and you definitely don't know what comes next. God works in mysterious ways and life is a mystery that you never quite figure out because there is no answer for the question why?
Why does something happen to you? Why does it have to be you?
Why did certain things happen the way it did?
Why didn't something work out when it should have?

I honestly don't know why but I do know that life has a plan for us and every mistake and lesson we learn is all to build us for the future.

So for 2016 my advice to you is enjoy life, be greatful for what you have and what you don't because there's someone out there wishing for life to have as much mercy on them as life has had mercy on you. There's someone out there that is dreaming about things you don't even notice is a luxury. We are all privileged and blessed with so many things that we take for granted so next time you want to throw away a phone because it isn't in style anymore, think about the people that are struggling to get the bare necessity of electricity far less a phone.
So .... With all that in mind I wish everyone a happy and prosperous new year.

Concerning my book, I have absolutely no idea when I'll update again but I hope it'll be soon.

Btw

Did anyone else notice that my book is on the what's hot list in werewolf books?

Omg!! I never thought it would have reached this far but I'm thankful that you all enjoy it and I'm thankful for all the feedback I get.

Thank you all !! ❤❤❤❤

Xoxo
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