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The look of hurt and surprise quickly wore off and before my mother could talk again my father came in front of her.

"Alex I-"

I held up my hand. "Don't even waste your precious fucking breath!" Eyes wide from my use of obscenities I immediately regretted it but I was too pissed to care.

Payne was trying to hold back his hysterics but I'd deal with him after.

"Speaking of precious breaths I'm surprised you even have any. They said you were dead! Do you have any idea what I had to go through? Do you even care about what they did to me?!" I almost screamed but I knew better than to draw attention to us, despite how infuriated I was.

With a sudden angry look my father spoke again. His low rumble of a voice exactly how I remembered it. Despite the few grey hairs growing at the roots of his chocolate brown hair he hadn't aged a bit.
"What did he do to you?" He demanded but I waved him of with my hands.

"Don't even act like you care!" I spat back but the concern was obvious on his face.

"I'll kill him." He growled out and Payne rose his hand with a broad smile on his face.

"Already done."

I turned and faced him with the hardest glare I had but the smile on his face seemed to only grow wider. He looked gorgeous smiling but I wanted to punch him in his eye.

Turning back to my parents I aimed my glare at them.

"How could you?" I had to try my hardest not to let my words quiver. A lump was forming in my throat and I fought my hardest not to cry. "Do I mean nothing to you? How could you leave your only daughter in the hands of a disgusting Alpha. He's a man! Didn't you care what he could have done to a little unprotected girl?" I felt Payne stiffen in his seat and he turned to me, the smile was gone all left behind was murderous rage.

"No. He didn't." I assured him and I saw him physically relax. Turning back to my parents I said. "But that's the only thing he didn't do to me. Everything else... " I let the statement say for itself.

My mother unexpectedly burst into tears and tried to wipe them away. She was ruining her makeup. She looked nice in a pale blue dress and dad matched her in a blue dress shirt and slacks. How well they did without a care or second thought about what could have happened to their daughter.

"We had no choice!" She cried out and my father stood beside her trying to calm her. Staring at the two I couldn't bring myself to feel sorry for them. They chose this and now they had to pay the consequences.

"Your father and I got mated here, we were born and raised in this land. While I was pregnant with you we'd gone for a hike, he told me it'll help make you stronger if I did lots of excerise. What it did was induce my labor while we were passing by the Redmoon pack and the Alpha agreed to let me deliver you there. We wouldn't have made it back here in time." She paused crying and I stayed silent waiting for the complete explanation. "You were born prematurely and you were very small. You weren't supposed to live much longer. The price for using his hospitality turned out to be him keeping you until you died. He'd said there was no use for you since you would be weak and here," she waved motioning to around us, "weakness isn't brought up here, they'd kill you and get rid of the problem. We stayed with you as long as we could but people from our pack were searching for us thinking we'd gone rouge. When we'd returned back here to clarify everything we couldn't leave to come back to you and even if we could of, it wouldn't have made much sense since we'd have to leave again." As she continued to weep into my Father's shoulder he flashed me a sympathetic look.

"We thought in the other pack you'd at least have a childhood. We didn't know you'd survive this long. I'm so sorry."

I didn't notice a few tears had escaped until my father tried to wipe them away and I batted his hand away. "Don't touch me. Forget you ever saw me. Keep the idea that I'm dead in your head same as I'd keep the memory of your death in mine."

"Go." Was Payne's request and they both looked at him stunned and he rose a brow as if challenging them to disobey an order.

As they walked away everything fell into place. All the stories they told, despite its truth was to prevent me from stepping on Vincent Territory. They didn't want me to search for them. They cleaned up their tracks. Perfect for them.

As more tears and a complete break down begged for release, Payne as if sending how I felt got up and took my hand forcing me to follow him.

"Where are we going?" I asked with a shaky voice. Without turning he said, "to the house."

He wasn't walking too fast but he had a strong grip on my hand. It was the only thing preventing me from crumpling to the ground.

"Payne." I said in a weak voice. We'd walked far away from the crowd and we were the only persons in view. There were houses littering the grassy place and other than the moonlight there were lightpoles at every four houses.

I stopped walking and he followed and turned to face me.

I couldn't even meet his stare. I looked to the ground and I let the tears fall uncontrollably. Sobs racked my chest a while after and a warmth wrapped around me taking my breath away.

Payne was hugging me.

"Don't cry." He said sincerely and I shook my head in his chest.

"They left me because I was too weak. They thought I'd die. What if I still die? What if I'm dying!" I cried into his chest and his arms stiffened around me.

"You're not dying Alexis. You're fine. Everything's going to be okay."

Removing myself from his embrace I pushed him away. "Are you kidding me? Everything's going to be okay? What kind of crap is that!"

My emotions were a wreck and even though I knew Payne was trying to be sincere I found myself blaming him too.

"You think I'm weak don't you? Is that the reason you don't want me? Is this the big answer revealed?" A dry laugh escaped my mouth and I tried not to shudder. It was suddenly freezing out here.

Payne stared at me in this unreadable way but I could tell I'd cracked the case.

"That why you don't want anyone to know about me because they'd laugh? The great Payne Vincent with a weak little girl!" I was going hysterical and my body felt numb in coldness.

"Maybe I should die? Don't you think? I'd be doing you a favor isn't that right? You'd be free of a 'weakness' huh?!"

I'd never exploded like this before but I knew there was no stopping me now. "A relationship with you is doomed anyways. Maybe you stuck to your word in the end. When we first met you said death was too good of a punishment, I had to suffer. Is this it? Is this my suffering? Loving you and knowing the feelings won't be reversed. Ever. Is this it? 'Cuz trust me. I think I've suffered enough, kill me now." Cold dread washed over his features and he shook his head.

"Kill me Payne!" I yelled at him. There was nothing left of me now. I was completely gone. Broken was an understatement and I couldn't be fixed. I'd learned that after all these years I've always been the one thing I fought not to be. "I'm weak. I'm ruined. I've suffered. Kill me already."

"Alexis-" Payne drawled but I stopped him.

"Don't try to reason with me."

After a beat of silence,"Fine. I'll give you what you want." He growled out and as he took hold of my arms I didn't miss how dark his eyes had gotten.

He dragged me back to the crowds but I couldn't recall the entire journey. My mind was too far to even care.

He'd do it publicly.

I wasn't surprised.

He'd probably announce that I'm a trespasser and hand me over to someone in the crowd. Make it easier for himself.

I couldn't find myself feeling any dread.

Numb was the best description for me right now.

Walking through the center of the crowd all eyes fell on us and the crowd part in two. Payge sat on the stage talking with a group of girls dressed lavishly in beautiful dresses. They all looked up at us and a look of confusion covered Payge's face.

"What's going on?" She asked getting to her feet and staring at Payne and I. We'd made it up on the stage and it was no question that the hundreds of people gathered around had trained their attention to us.

Tugging me to the center of the stage I looked to the ground. It wasn't from shame. I was afraid that if I'd looked up everyone would be able to see through me.

Payne released my upper arm and clasped my wrist instead.

I didn't even think much of the warmth or the tingles I got from his touch. It was all going to be over soon.

"Look at me." He demanded and I turned and faced him.

The crowd was silent and the music had long been turned off.

Staring directly in Payne's eyes I decided to hold onto this memory. Of him. His amazing good looks that never failed to interest me.

From his jet black hair and the way it always gets messy despite the side part that would always remain, to the way his lips were a pink plump cushion on his face.

"I'm going to kill you now." He growled out and there were gasps from the crowd but I ignored them. His eyes were stormy and dark. No longer a silver but an almost black hole in his eyes but they weren't from anger or hunger to kill. Something else floated in his eyes.

The crowd went in silence once more and the anticipation was so thick in the air I could punch it.

Payne locked his hands on my neck and the thought that he was going to kill me like how his sister had killed Blondie was strong in my mind.

His fingers were soft on my skin however and they surprised me as they cupped the back of my neck.

I wasn't about to argue with how he'd kill me so I ignored the strange feeling and let him go on.

I looked him dead on in his eyes and a smile tugged his lips. It wasn't a demonic or evil grin before you'd kill someone, it was a warm smile and it could have easily passed for a blush of the sorts.

Payne leaned down and I held my breath expecting the last sound I'd hear to be my neck breaking but instead was greeted warmly by his lips on mine. My eyes flew open and his hands went deep into the back of my neck and went to my hair.

The crowd gasped and I'd be lying if I said I didn't kiss him back after the wave of surprise wore off.

Cheering and whistling filled the area and Payge was yelling something beside us in a fit of joy.

It was as if all my worries, everything that had worked me up tonight had all drained from Payne's kiss. Sucking me into him and he was protecting me from the pressures and the reality of life.

When he released me the crowd erupted once more and my face was heated with a blush. I turned and looked at him and he too himself looked flushed in front of everyone.

As if feeling my eyes on him he leaned down to my ears with a playful glint in his eyes and whispered. "I killed you with my kiss..... now, you're dead."

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I'm done. I can't even... . Ugh!!
I want a Payne ... Who's with me?

New years resolution:

1. Find Payne Vincent.
2. Get rid of Alexis.
3. Become best friends with Payge.
4. If Payne doesn't want me... kidnapp his ass!!

2016 here I come !!